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ROSES

He loved the roses

even when it's thrones hurt him

for the rose was a sight to behold

and his love unbound

But he forgot that

it would not last forever

until he was left

with nothing but his pain and loss..

By c&p..

My Turn

It's so confusing

Today was my day of refusing

But that person took my turn

It feels like burn

I always used to think

Why me getting angry or depressed used to bring my mother to brink

Now it seems so obvious

She must have been holding a lot of stuff that's serious

Because that's what is happening with me each day

I am going through a lot but keeping my emotions at bay

It's easier to tackle things around

If only the people near you are not pulling you to ground

I wake up and try to smile

But even a single person being sad and angry makes me think a mile

It feels like cheating to me

I have so much to feel, how are they even beating me

Someone said your coping mechanisms' great

But I need to express is what I felt

Faking my emotions so others don't feel depressed

Is too much of a burden as I read

Sometimes I am on the verge of breakdown

But someone else grabs the sad crown

I feel so betrayed

I even dread

I know it's attention seeking clearly

But it was my time to show my problems dearly

You took that away

Now I have no idea how to get my way

I don't know if it's wrong

But when one person is sad I think I don't have the right to sing my sad song

So I keep on storing

And it's easy enduring

But again one day someone is at dismay

I start feeling the angst because even though I wasn't planning to say

That person seems to have taken my turn

And I have got the burn

So I get angry and depressed

I don't try to show it but it gets expressed

No I am not copying anyone

It just me feeling that I didn't get a chance to express to someone

Winners don't have such remorse

Do you ever wake up with the feeling that a lot is lost

It's summer but you still feel the frost

Everything and everyone is around

But you still can't listen a sound

It's not your life but a trap

You are actually a piece of crap

Your to do list is overflowing

Your courage to start something is slowly going

It's not like you have to start afresh

But where you are standing now, seems nothing more than a mess

Your ambitions are enthusiastically parading

Even though all your motivation is fading

You are somehow willing to leave

But just too scared to believe

Supporting hands seems to tease

Ah! hope you knew, who you want to please

Feel like you have an empty soul

You are too tired to feel not only this but all

You want to speak

Although you are scared that your secret of being a coward might leak

You are not a loser, ofcourse

But you also know that a winner doesn't have such remorse

Not loneliness but a peaceful abode

It's so lovely to walk on an empty road

It's not loneliness but a peaceful abode

The winds going slowly

Making your hairs a messy fun

You make the map to walk on

Nothing specific for your attention to lock on

You take your favourite turns

You can open yourself and run

The grass even on your side seems greener

You are not you but someone with a different demeanor

You might go back to the memory lane

But it's so nice that it doesn't give you pain

You can remember your favourite song

You might realise you haven't listened it for so long

You might sigh but it's a sigh of relief

There is no one to give you social anxiety

You can think the things you never think about

You can feel the emotions you were unaware about

It's not tragic

But just magic

What it feels like to

What it feels like to break a bond that was never there

What it feels like to wake up from a dream and realise reality is here

What it feels like to know that you are not the one

What it feels like to think someone unknown has left you abandoned

What it feels like to know you were never good enough

What it feels like to live in a bluff

What it feels like to expect too much

What it feels like to have a wrong hunch

What it feels like to consider love would come by

What it feels like when the one you like breaks all ties

What it feels like to have a void

What it feels like to not being able to avoid

It definitely feels too much

It's so much that you eventually give up

It's so elaborate that you get numb

But you still think what it feels like to...

She is my constant

To my dear crush

I miss all the adrenaline rush

Each moment spent beside you was special

For you I was ready to wrestle

You were a friend first

And thankfully not a boy who always used to walk by

I always loved how you used to sit beside me when my friend was not around

I remember the look you gave to those gossipers on the ground

I felt special when you told me those secrets

I felt safe when you waited for me on the way

There was a time when I used to think about you all day

From hiding my feelings

To behaving indifferently I did it all

I was crazy over you for sure

Nothing between us was official

But you were a secret I was ready to tell none

Choosing the same subjects

And making study plans was somehow the future I was looking for

I liked you even after your ego

I was so happy when you used to say sorry and was ready to let things go

But I also remember that truth and dare game

I remember how you took my name

I was elated for sure

But something at that time needed a cure

I remember her crying

And that was the time I was trying

To not think

Because thinking meant choosing something

She was my best friend

And she had a lot unsaid

I had guessed before

But I was so over you that I decided to keep a close door

I liked you

And she liked you too was the case somehow

But now I had a choice to make anyhow

It was time to wake

And let the dream break

So I thought for long

It was not easy and I was definitely not strong

She had seen me cry more times

Than you had seen me smile

You were special

But what we had didn't promise me miles

The idea of losing her was unimaginable

Reading my mind was a skill in which you weren't able

She had seen my ups and downs

She was the one who never let me hit the ground

She was true to say we were telepaths

We were always the best pair of psychopaths

I had thought about all the possible scenarios

And unfortunately in neither of them

You were there till the end

But she was always around

So I decided to choose her over you

And I definitely miss you

But never have I ever regretted my decision

Although I would love to have an accidental collision

Because I want to tell you

That you were my crush indeed

But she was the friend of my need

I am happy to have her beside me

Even though she doesn't make me feel the same glee

It's been years I know

But she is still my constant tho

I don't want to be perfect

You want to be perfect my psychologist said

It was the problem usually left unsaid

It's been years

But I still remember her saying it again and again

I dismissed all thoughts

Because she was actually my teacher and teachers never know it all

But today I sit and am ready to contemplate

I don't think it's late

The problem is still that I don't believe her

Although from I don't want to be perfect

To do I really want to be perfect I have grown some thoughts

But still I am clear as a crystal ball

And I internally never wanted to be perfect is the feeling that stands tall

I realised by now

That I was just wired like that somehow

No one ever told me that being imperfect is good

I was just growing up under their hood

I always thought that's how you get love

I never wanted to join the unwanted club

There were only two statements I usually heard

I am proud of you always sounded warmer than that person is better than you, bud

Each mark lost in exam made me shattered

Because I knew it was deciding how much I mattered

Maybe that is how everyone is wired

And it's funny that nobody is getting tired

I guess the tireds join the unwanted club

And we are not taught to talk about them in this hub

I don't blame anyone

Because choosing this life was already done

But I might not have the pace

That is required to win this rat race

Although standing behind and alone

Means your chances of affection are blown

The problem is that we are not pushed towards self love

We are just pulling ourselves with self bluff

I was never behind perfection

I can say it loud and clear

I was always running behind affection

I mumbled with a tear

I tell everyone that I write when I am sad but actually I write when I am 'the perfect amount of sad' like a little bit of extra sadness makes what I write sound weird and a little less can just shut my brain.

P.S. I don't know what that 'perfect amount of sad' is... Haha

Sitting alone

Sitting alone I always miss the time I didn't need company

The time when I felt secure even when no one offered security

The time when without taking the effort to make friends I had a lot of them

I miss the comfort I got in my mother's arms

The time when she was just a room away and not, a call away

I miss the childhood mistakes

The time when irrespective of the kind of my mistake I was always forgiven

I miss when love was always around

The time when I didn't have to find someone who loves me

I miss when adulting seemed fun

The time when I didn't realize that independence can be a burden too

I miss when fulfilling our dreams was the biggest dream

The time when I didn't know how difficult it is in reality

I miss and I miss

But the most i miss is when i didn't have to sit alone

The time when even being alone i knew that I am not alone

One sided friendship

I have heard a lot of people explain one sided love

But never heard anyone even talk about one sided friendship

Did you?

Honestly speaking I have been on both ends

I remember ignoring people even when they were ready to loose all for me

I remember being ignored even when I was ready to loose all of me

Did you?

Still think about going back and joining those chords

But what are the odds

Those I ignored have moved on tired of wasting their time

And those on whom I wasted my time never seemed mine

But still I wish for their call

Do you?

I find it weird how we just connect to some

I find it sad when those connections don't care and for them you are not the one

I thought love asked for a lot

but now I think even friendship's demands are not a dot

Do you?

Maybe they asked for so much that I just stayed aloof

Maybe my demands were so much that they considered me fool

Being nice and being friends are different I realised late

Not everyone you like is ready to be a part of your fate

Were you also a one sided friend at one time?

Do you also think that it was worth the time?

What if the efforts were not equal,

It was a friendship you initiated and it will never have a sequel...

I care

Sorry but I care

I know the anger on my face kills you

I know my rude ways make you sad

But do I have a choice

Every word I speak out of love you take for granted

Every thing I ask as a well-wisher you consider nagging

Yes the world exist and you need to bother about it

But how to explain that in front of that world I see you

Your pain and problems are my concerns

The worldly affairs don't worry me

I thought our relation was different and we shared a special bond

But every time you hide your pains you just break another chord

I know I am not the best nor I stand for you without rest

But yes I feel and your moods make a great lot of deal

Seeing people bother you, grieves me equally as it does to you

But just because I don't say doesn't mean I cannot feel you

You always think I don't care or understand

While in reality I am just confused how to take a stance

I don't know what to do because you never express your expectations

And when I share my expectations you just consider it insecurities

I know I am not what you want and I know I cannot be what you want

This is what aches me brings the anger to my face, the rudeness in my ways

Sorry for all of that

But I care is all I have

It makes me, me

I was waiting for my feelings to go numb

I was waiting for that day but I was dumb

I thought that with each day the wound would grow old

I expected that each day would make me cold

But little I realised

And very little I was surprised

With each passing day

My feelings started spreading like a ray

It reached ever nook and corner of my existence

But I was still hoping with persistence

It was so difficult to feel

The reason I thought time would heal

Soon I had a lot of opinions

Surprisingly they made me cry more than onions

Soon the tree of feeling got a strong hold

Now I knew nothing was going to get old

All experiences and incidents

Were giving my wounds new dents

Crying became a constant part of my lifestyle

Funny enough that it was just a more defined form of my old style

I didn't know what to do with so much going on inside

Never realised it would be so much more than what was going outside

Checking and rechecking all emotions

Hide and seek with everything was in motion

Defining the ideas I had was important

Knowing I was right was like a reinforcement

I knew the wounds are not going now

But still adapting raised the question how

Connecting dots was a daily routine

Adulting is much more difficult than being a teen

Sensations, feelings and emotions are always going to be difficult for me

But when I introspect I realise it makes me, me.

We’ve learned that quiet isn’t always peace. In the norms and notions of what just is isn’t always justice. And yet, the dawn is ours before we knew it. Somehow we do it. Somehow we’ve weathered and witnessed a nation that isn’t broken, but simply unfinished.

~ The Hill We Climb, Amanda Gorman

She ignites me

In a way no one , could even come close.

She knows

Just how to make me feel alive .

She is my flame

On the coldest nights .

She is the spark in my eyes.

Believe me when I say she can turn any heart

From stone to gold dust

In a blink of gods eye .

She don’t know evil

Only pure love .

She locks on and never lets go .

She is stronger then any diamond

Rough for ever in the making

As that what makes her so powerful.

She learns from everything

She never will look perfect

Coz the best things

Are always hidden beneath the dirt

Spreading love but never heard.

@trueemotions91

@tammyfeabakker ❤️ x

You see

I see the scars

It’s a talent for me,

To find you at your weakest

And bring you up from your knees,

It’s scary but Please accept the journey.

I can’t make you choose

I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,

Just give me one minute

It’s all I need

I’ll show you the light

On the other side .

I want to see you smile,

I will enlighten your soul,

I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover

Not like any other.

I won’t leave until

Your complete

I’ll take the pain

And turn it into rain

I’ll take the anger

And turn it into thunder

I’ll empty your brain

And make it my burden

Because I can carry that

If I know your out of danger.

@trueemotions91

She was my baby girl

I told you so

Never wanted to let her go

But you made me do her wrong

By always being the other girl

Making her feel low

I just couldn’t say no.

She was my baby girl

now she can’t be found

Because I dug her, deep into the ground.

Broken hearted by a clown

I’m sorry , now I know

How low, I made her go,

I wasn’t ready

For the love ,

She blew my world apart

now I’m done fooling about .

I was confused , lost

I promise you so

Just come back baby ,to our home

I’ll show you my love , hands down

No more broken promises

No more late night kisses

I just need you back on my ground

You are , who kept me so sound

The reason I thought I was on top of the world

She was my baby girl

I just need her home .

@trueemotions91

A woman I see ,

More powerful then me ,

Because she holds the key

To the happiness in me ,

She can blow me a Gale,

Or create me a storm ,

She is my dearest ,

Who protects me in the wildest storm,

When I’m mad, she makes the world frown,

Oh believe me she can tip up even your crown ,

When I’m happy she sends me a sky full of clowns,

In the prettiest colours,

Who sing me a beautiful song

To make me feel proud,

When I’m cold ,

She holds me ever so close

warms me up with her gentle rays ,

When I’m hot , she don’t stop,

When I’m mad,

She blows the angles my way,

To whisper

It’ll be better another day.

@trueemotions91

Scared

To grow old,

Petrified of getting lines,

Creases from frowning

Always clowning around,

With grey painted lipstick,

Creased upon his cheek

Over the wrinkles

That make his skin looked inked,

I’ll hesitate To undress,

scared of the bed

I once laid upon

Without a rest .

Don’t want it to be my

Last place of rest.

The joys of youth,

But now I have

nothing to lose .

I’ve lived my life with grace

And know it’s my resting place

On earth, back to the ground,

Where I was first placed .

@trueemotions91

A beauty only I can see

Because I hold the key

To my own twisted art

That’s locked inside of me

It’s not my eyes who make me unique

Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose

It’s the fact I can control

My life long goals

ain’t no one stopping that

You can put a end to my legs

Or maybe even my sense

But my mind won’t let you

Mess up that

It’s not visible to see

For a reason

It tells me daily

Scary .

@trueemotions91

emotions make me feel physically sick

Yet I fight that feeling everyday

Just because I’m used to feeling that way

It’s not normal

I know that now

It is my soul

Breaking inside

It’s only escape

Since I lock it deep

I’ve ignored every instinct

To fight what I know

Coz the truth be told

I just don’t care no more .

Bottled for far to long

It’s only aim is to remind me every day

What makes me feel vile

But I allready know

He will never complete my soul

Yet forever under his control .

@trueemotions91

Don’t put out the light out on me

I asked

Ever so silently .

He turned ever so slightly

With a grin upon upon his cheek

Blew the light

And I was gone within a blink .

@trueemotions91

I want you to close your eyes,

And draw me a image with your mind,

The sun ,

The Brightest Light On This Planet,

The Wind,

A Force No One Wants To Reckon With,

The Rain,

Gentle But So Fierce,

Lighting,

To Recharge Our Earths Soul,

The Flowers In The Background,

So Beautiful And Small,

Lost In The BackGround ,

Of A Crazy Storm.

@trueemotions91

On a dark cold night

Awoken my soul under the moon light

Like a wolf in sheep clothes

While the whole world stayed closed

My soul opened to the universe

On that hill rise

I was exposed

To the elements of life

And lord behold

As the devils hide

And nature took hold

A beast , I felt , deep inside .

@trueemotions91

All I need is air

The sun

The moon

The sea

All things that are beyond the beauty of the earth

When all falls silence , all at last will be

How the world was ment to be

I see you , your struggles and all the things behide

But nature is calling you

To heal you

In the silence , of the night

We need that, to reinstate

Reinstate with the earth , the very place we was made

To feel the air against your naked skin

The noise of the trees

The sound of the leaves and rain

This is what your body is craving

A break from hell

And back to heaven on nature’s ground

Bare footed

To recharge from the ground

Not from the television , we weren’t made a plug in

Pick up the leaves

let the creatures of earth wiggle on your feet

Put down the phone

And dig your hands into earths rich soil

Roll around like you never have

Smell the flowers and enjoy the earth.

@trueemotions91

A soul is my beauty

Looks are deceiving

They try and trick the mind

To make us believe

In something that isn’t there

As a soul can’t lie

It speaks the truth beyond the mask

That’s put in as a disguise

To look beyond is hard

It’s a battle with mind and temptation

But which do you choose

When the pretty tunes in to the soul

And Creates the devil

Do you realise the danger your soul has intwined to,

A pretty soul will always have a pretty face ,

You just have to look deeper in the beholders eyes,

The eyes are the beauty ,

As dark as chocolate , as blue as the skies , as green as the mountains on a dewy morning sun rise ,

Not the cold hunger , with a smile upon the face ,

That’s clearly the devil in disguise .

@trueemotions91

I see the sun, I see the sand , I see the sea, but I can't see the air .

I can see all that's beautiful around me.

But you no what I can't see .

The thing that keeps me alive !!

And that's the distraction in life !!

We are surrounding by beauty, ugliness , and everything far and between .

But do those things really bother me ??

Where's my twisted feelings , my emotions when they run high, the 1000 words that race through my head every night !!!

But why ? Cant I see these in front of me!!

If these were on show they wouldn't be a distraction it's my lifelong goals !!

These are the main yet they kept locked away ... tightly secure inside my brain... The things we can see , touch, feel , smell are distractions in my way!!

Why can't the things that matter be so easy to reach and grab!!

To put all that matters out on a table would be a lifelong puzzle but that puzzle is my goal in life it's the only thing on this earth that's been made just for me!!!

So when you see that beautiful flower blossoming don't make it a distraction , make it a reality and amend it on your perception to alter what it divides your own path to!!!

Come see what I see

Twisted deformed faces in front of me

Crazy they call me

But these fuckers clearly can’t see

Like sheep in a line, all gawping when I open my mind

Don’t believe me when I say

It’s the most powerful thing about me

Trust me when I say it

Ain’t no delusion

I have to fight the beast everyday

You , you are nothing

Compared to this fucker

I cant escape it , not even run from it

Stuck with it till I die

Can you see ?

You , you are nothing to me.

Human like me

But I don’t use my fist to win this fight

My brain is always right

So no escaping me

Because once I get in

They ain’t no getting out

I cant escape me

Even the devil don’t want in this game .

A monster in disguise ,

A gift from god

Who knows what it’s called

Electric powers me

The Voltage erupts

Causing me a rage

With a mind full of volts

That turn into words

Them words turn into ideas

And the whole world spins .

Still makes no sense

Still can’t understand

Nor can I , so join the clan .

@trueemotions91

Lost in a world of emotions

Covid on my mind

Not a worry for the blind.

It’s not the strain of my eyes

from watching the tv

Or holding my phone all day

It’s the battle going on in my brain .

A pain I feel through shut eyes

The light don’t bother me no more

Used to the dark and the man made lights

With a flip of the switch .

It Seems day and night no longer disgunish

The hurt no longer exists

But neither does my happiness .

Lost in my own mind

But just a empty space .

Dying to breathe in the fresh air

To revitalise my brain .

Lost words that make no sense

Emotions I can’t figure out .

The world has gone crazy

And my brain is on the fall out .

How can my brain survive this pandemic with nothing to do , no air to breathe , no sun to see,

Just me .

@trueemotions91

Confused they once told me .

Confused of what I asked ?

Life was thier reply.

Life? I asked ? Im Not confused of life , I’m confused to why in life is so much hatred . I understand life is a game of play but I can’t accept the world we are in!

I can’t understand the broken homes, the hunger, the greed , the death!

I don’t understand why another human would want to hurt another human?

Or is it because they ain’t human ? Or maybe I’m not?

Surely in life we all want the same , love , happiness and equality!

I don’t understand how ones brain can tick to create such havoc ! I don’t understand how we as humans can disregard each other’s life so easily !

It’s not humane - yet we call ourselfs human! A human has a heart and two eyes ! To see and to feel the damage of our actions ! Not to be blind!

So yeah I’m confused to what has happened to the what we call human life !

@trueemotions91

“The beat of broken jazz”

It’s a lonely world, everybody tries to hide. 

Behind there dark blue eyes, behind those broken lies.

Did it really hurt, when you left me in the dirt.

The sky is crying, as the thoughts of you are sighing.

Boy the last string to tie was to say goodbye.

I tend to stick in your head, like the last homeless cat you fed.

You're like the beat of broken jazz.

You used to hit strings, in my heart like sweet smooth jazz sings.

In those steam filled showers, passing by those arousing seductive hours.

I found myself face down, trying to pick up my crown.

As you undid my lace, I tried to replace.

All the broken dreams i had to face.

They brought me to a place, where time can’t bring a trace. Of peace back to me.

How am i going to find a way to cope, when i can’t even wash the scars with that bloody red bar of soap.

In the dark, of a lonely park.

Passing the time away, but i only find myself fading away.

Through the wind I've sinned and through the sky I'll fly.

Say goodbye as we dance with the devil tonight.

Give up the fight, we gave it a good try.

Broken and beaten. To nothing we shall remain.

And that will be the end of my pain.

-TheSadBoisClub