Where Every Scroll is a New Adventure
Daarvoor was ik uitgesneden
Het meesterwerk
Dat elke grens mijn zijn bevat
Talent vult de oppervlakte
Maar wat met de houtschilfers
Het genadeloze lemmet
De verdoemdde onbestaandheid
Uit welke grootse toekomts ben ik
Uit-
Weg-
Gesneden
Zelfs al zou realisatie mij wonderen
Materiaal blijft onveranderbaar
Bloed loopt tegendraads
En tegen zwaartekracht
Maar niet tegen de grens die het
lemmet schiep
Niet tegen het sneed
De oppervlakte
Het schild
Vastgebeiteld met mij
En al mijn "talent"
Maar
Ze zei nee.
Ze geloofde niet in magie
Zei ze
Dat zo'n dingen enkel in
Sprookjes
Gebeuren.
We maakten
Zonder haar
Geen schijn van kans
Ten ondergaan
Klinkt zo heroïsch
Dit was inderdaad geen
Sprookje
In sprookjes
Wordt er niet
Verloren.
Haar achterhoofd zat te vol
Het achtervolgde haar
Het kwam altijd te laat
Achteraanhuppelend
Een kleine vertraging op het
Instinctief gedrag
Ze was niet dom
Hield niet van risico's
Die milliseconde vertraging
Was haar te veel
Ze zag het niet
Voorrang van rechts
En nu is haar achterhoofd weg
Ik wil mijn besmette bloed leegbloeden
Mijn depressieve tranen uitwenen
Mijn slechte conditie wegzweten
Mijn onzuivere gedachten uitroepen
Tot ik
Niet vanbinnen stik
Maar
Vanbuiten verdrink
Poem I wrote about eating fundip like two years ago
Okay, here the tea:
in our creating writing class (that only had 6 students cuz HUMSS) our teacher Mx. G, ( yes they ask to call them that.) to make a short poem about something we like, I like a lot so I cut it into 3: Music, Literature, Arts. So I made one each and pick one, I pick the music one. why am I telling you this? well, the 2nd one is about Literature and is reminded me of Karl's time-traveling/ Tales from the SMP.
Umarbeiten (Rewrite)
Collecting books full of great mystery
Create new ones about different history
To extends the knowledge of the past
And to retell the tales that unabashed
I wish I can hug you.
I wish to hold your hand.
I wish a lot of things when your not here.
Even though it’s only for a couple of hours..it’s a bit hard for me at least.
You might not feel the same way but when I’m with you my anxiety flutters away.
You make me feel whole....but is that right?
I mean it’s romantic but is it healthy? Am I overthinking again? I’m sorry...
I just...I guess I will stick with one thing right now and not overthink it’s meaning.
I love you.
I know deep down if I can try I can do things without you but their just a lot more funnier with you by my side!
Yeah...you don’t complete me, I don’t NEED you but...I want you to be here with me.
I want you and me to grow old together, maybe have a kid I don’t know lol...
But I want to experience things with you...so yeah :D
...I was just gonna go to the market for a bit but now you made me cry you lovable bean.
Noooooo! I’m sorry I didn’t want to make you cry!
WELL YOU DID! NOW COME HERE! Imma hug you forever!
AHHH! nO! thE hUgs ArE tOo sTrONg!
Song that inspired this “wish u were here” by Wish oh the Beat! Check out the song it’s real good for vibes...have a great day! :D
What am I?
A strange thing to wonder
I'm the anger of my father,
And the silent cries of my mother.
I'm the broken pieces of childhood,
Of a once happy daughter.
I want to love really
To discovere the feeling of butterfly in my belly
And thinking about someone until I feel dizzy
I want to love you
I don't care if your eyes will be brown or blue
But I hope you will love mine too
Love me from head to top
From my perfect high and worst flop
Because if I fell in love with you
Nothing will stop me to be with you
From the moon to earthquakes
I will cross mountains and rivers
Learning from all my mistakes
I really hope I will meet you in the next hour
I've never gulped water with such rush. With such restlessness, like i do now. I hope for it to fill me up. Completely. From inside. Like its a heavy plug. The hole in my chest would stop bleeding for once, and my heart would float for a second in the emptiness, it used to drown in.
-mauli
Why is life so raw
I only wanted to get up off the floor
But you won’t let me rise
You just want to watch me fall.
Scared I will rise above yourself
Difference is , I ain’t a whore
I’ll do my chore
But you still keep pushing me to the damn floor .
Fear is greedy
I get that now
But your only feeding the demon within me .
Your negative words fall all around me.
You made me so sore
I just don’t care no more
So you see ,
I may be upon the floor
But inside I’m ready to roar.
When everyone else is no longer there .
You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day
But hides when the clouds come to play ,
That’s just how it goes
But one thing I know
Is ,it always comes and goes,
It never stays in the same place
Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,
You see , you just have to watch the space
To open the gates ,
To all the things you misplaced
it will then ,all fall into place .
Just don’t hide from the same game
That’s got you playing in a hoop
Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop
We go high, we go low,
We go from side to side
But we never stay still
We keep climbing that hill
Coz it don’t matter about the pills
Or the window sill
You sat on for so long ,
Waiting for Them To sing you a song
As long as you keep moving along .
Then it don’t matter if no one is there
You can do it all alone .
@trueemotions91
She was my baby girl
I told you so
Never wanted to let her go
But you made me do her wrong
By always being the other girl
Making her feel low
I just couldn’t say no.
She was my baby girl
now she can’t be found
Because I dug her, deep into the ground.
Broken hearted by a clown
I’m sorry , now I know
How low, I made her go,
I wasn’t ready
For the love ,
She blew my world apart
now I’m done fooling about .
I was confused , lost
I promise you so
Just come back baby ,to our home
I’ll show you my love , hands down
No more broken promises
No more late night kisses
I just need you back on my ground
You are , who kept me so sound
The reason I thought I was on top of the world
She was my baby girl
I just need her home .
@trueemotions91
Blurred between love and hate
How do I decide my fate ,
When my heart tells me to wait
But my mind tells me to do a double take ,
Life isn’t ment to be a surf
But why was we brought to earth
With this thing called worth,
Emotions are tough
When other people are rough,
Just another torch
To light up the path
For another soul to walk
While we wait in the back fall ,
Why did the cells give me a heart
To just keep being scarred ,
It don’t know when to stop
And that will be my flop,
On this place we call earth
Burnt from inside , out
For something we call love.
@trueemotions91
Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !
Lost young soul ,
Life is low , life is high ,
We have to just ride the tide. ❤️
The biggest challenge in life
Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,
Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,
He’s trapped inside
Constantly taking you on a mad ride
It’s your call to reply
But before you do
Just listen
To what he is speaking
He may drive you crazy and make you hate
Every aspect of life ,
But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,
But the voice is they for a reason
Even if invisible on the other side
It’s the man inside
trying to make you recognise
I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up
But please just go with the flow
Don’t think the words that are going Through your head
Are a representation of yourself ,
Thats way to far , even for his control ,
That voice is a reckoning
The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling
Maybe not in the words you need
But this is where you have to be smart
Our brains are dangerous
The damage is strong
As no other can hear the song ,
He may play you some fucked up lullabies
And make tears come into your eyes
But I promise that’s not you breaking
That’s your soul accepting ,
The voice is usually your own well being ,
Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,
He is nothing to be scared of
He is invisible , a voice all alone ,
But you can’t let him take control,
You have the power to show him differ ,
befriend that voice in your head ,
make him work for his chatter
we were born wild and free but
our imagantion always runs quicker
then our own two feet ,
So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release
Its a craft , and once you make the art ,
That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .
@trueemotions91
Anger is lethal,
As dangerous as a blade,
It only takes a second ,
To lose all self control,
A darkness covers your eyes,
To blind you from the rage,
Takes you away from the pain,
The day awakes ,
And reality is real,
Thats all it takes ,
Just one second ,
So own yourself ,
Don’t let the darkness take over,
Remember the sunlight ,
It never fades ,
Just fight the demon ,
Before it’s to late ,
Always sunshine the other side ,
Don’t let the darkness make your fate,
Half blinded by hate .
@trueemotions91
A soul is my beauty
Looks are deceiving
They try and trick the mind
To make us believe
In something that isn’t there
As a soul can’t lie
It speaks the truth beyond the mask
That’s put in as a disguise
To look beyond is hard
It’s a battle with mind and temptation
But which do you choose
When the pretty tunes in to the soul
And Creates the devil
Do you realise the danger your soul has intwined to,
A pretty soul will always have a pretty face ,
You just have to look deeper in the beholders eyes,
The eyes are the beauty ,
As dark as chocolate , as blue as the skies , as green as the mountains on a dewy morning sun rise ,
Not the cold hunger , with a smile upon the face ,
That’s clearly the devil in disguise .
@trueemotions91
Come see what I see
Twisted deformed faces in front of me
Crazy they call me
But these fuckers clearly can’t see
Like sheep in a line, all gawping when I open my mind
Don’t believe me when I say
It’s the most powerful thing about me
Trust me when I say it
Ain’t no delusion
I have to fight the beast everyday
You , you are nothing
Compared to this fucker
I cant escape it , not even run from it
Stuck with it till I die
Can you see ?
You , you are nothing to me.
Human like me
But I don’t use my fist to win this fight
My brain is always right
So no escaping me
Because once I get in
They ain’t no getting out
I cant escape me
Even the devil don’t want in this game .
A monster in disguise ,
A gift from god
Who knows what it’s called
Electric powers me
The Voltage erupts
Causing me a rage
With a mind full of volts
That turn into words
Them words turn into ideas
And the whole world spins .
Still makes no sense
Still can’t understand
Nor can I , so join the clan .
@trueemotions91
Lost in a world of emotions
Covid on my mind
Not a worry for the blind.
It’s not the strain of my eyes
from watching the tv
Or holding my phone all day
It’s the battle going on in my brain .
A pain I feel through shut eyes
The light don’t bother me no more
Used to the dark and the man made lights
With a flip of the switch .
It Seems day and night no longer disgunish
The hurt no longer exists
But neither does my happiness .
Lost in my own mind
But just a empty space .
Dying to breathe in the fresh air
To revitalise my brain .
Lost words that make no sense
Emotions I can’t figure out .
The world has gone crazy
And my brain is on the fall out .
How can my brain survive this pandemic with nothing to do , no air to breathe , no sun to see,
Just me .
@trueemotions91
Music to drown the noise
with earphones on the whole time
staying as far away as possible
because I knew if I heard it
I wouldn't be able to stop myself
I would eventually speak up
I would explode it all
the anger and sadness
I've been bottling it all in.
Then it would cause more hurt
everyone would be mad
because everyone thinks they're right.
So even if there's screaming at the back
I keep my earphones on
with the volume up high, ignoring reality.
QUIETLY LETTING GO
If being with me, caused you to become toxic
I would gladly let go of you for you
Being beside me might have caused you your delay
Delay in your purpose for this life
I would sever our ties just so you could move forward in life
All I wish is the best for you in this life
The dreams that you have for the world
I want you to achieve them all
And if I'm the obstacle in your life
I would gladly remove myself just so you could soar higher
I love you like a friend would, a sister
If letting go of your hand was all it took
For you to break free from this stagnant life
I would do everything I could to let go of you
Even if that meant watching you succeed in life from afar
I understand the consequences of letting go of this beautiful thing
That our relationship will never be the same
I would never be able to be silly and crazy around you
Come running to you whenever my world is falling apart
But I care more about you that I'm willing to sever it
Now I see you succeeding in life
doing the things you loved doing
being able to be what you always dream of
Even though it hurts that I can't be close to you like before
It's worth seeing the genuine smile on your face that I would do it all over again.
Just for once, let me be selfish for myself.
Let me focus on my goals, my needs, and my life in all
Why do I have to keep worrying about everyone
And putting myself on the back burner
Why? Because I'm supposed to care for others first?
In the midst of taking care of your mental and emotional wellbeing,
taking care of drama and arguments that has nothing to do with me
moping after their dirt and cleaning up the trash
Just so it sorts out well for them to be happy
Who's going to sort out mine?
Should I have kids myself, so I can dump my problems on them,
Do I always have to walk on eggshells around you all
Why should I let go of my dreams to fulfill yours?
Being kind and empathetic for others drains me
I hate interactions and socializing with people now.
Existing seems like a chore to me than a gift
So, please just for once let me focus on myself
My mental and emotional wellbeing needs care too
I'm not asking you to care for me,
I'm asking you to let go of your hold against me
I'm a human too
I have needs and dreams too
I also want to be healthy in mind and body too
I deserve happiness too,
Please don't cage me in anymore.
- By Adia
I feel like I should stop liking you well if I do I know I'll end up blue I just can't help but think I'll screw are you really somebody I should pursue? Because at this point I'm not really sure what's true
I overthink about you I fuzz about you I easily get flustered about you I think I should rethink this through
I can't even take it if you're mad at me maybe it's best if I let you be not everyone would agree that I should lose the feelings you gave me that thought I guarantee
But a friend of mine said I shouldn't stop she said that it's okay if I think of you nonstop that its okay to go one step close for me to drop that it might not end up as a flop
Maybe not everything has to be sad maybe this time it can be a story where I'm glad. It can be a story where I finally felt something real. something that any kind of person wants to steal.
- "Autumn", Astha
Dreams are all that I have now.
All that which keeps me alive.
During the day and at night.
The push I need to breathe again.
Simply put I am up in the clouds.
Far from this world yet tied down to it.
Cursed rules and expectations locks my pretty feet.
Hands tied up with stupid facades.
They feed me normality.
My body doesn't like that so I return it.
All that comes from me are small whispers.
Names of cities and my favourite stories.
The bright constellations and beautiful flowers.
Perfect tea and old world libraries.
Scent of the moon and sound of the ocean.
Winter breaths and summer giggles.
Love for you and love for me.
Bleeding Gods and their sad lovers.
Deep poems and sweet music.
I am filled with the things I love.
And everytime you burn my soul,
You make a star glow.
Everytime you silence my voice,
Thunder rumbles over the mountains.
And when you think you've put me to sleep,
Think again before the moon comes out.
I may be filled with all things sweet and soft and nice.
But I've learned to fight over the years.
I'll let my wolves hunt tonight.
And they won't rest until all your dreams become nightmares.
And watch how I hold you in there forever.
A slave to your mind till the end of time.
© Moonyloonywitch
02/09/2021
Love is so strange.
It's different for different people.
And it's different during different seasons.
It was a summer afternoon in May,
when I loved someone for the very first time.
I felt like somebody had sprinkled fairy dust inside me.
It felt all tingly and sparkly and good in every way.
Then autumn came and it was September,
when you said you loved me for the first time.
I knew what butterflies felt like in my tummy.
A beautiful cool sensation, jittery yet so magical.
But soon after, winter visited as well.
I was left alone on the park bench,
in the midst of December,
while you held her hand and walked away.
The fairy dust of the summer,
started choking me up.
I ran home and closed the bathroom door.
And ended up puking all over.
I guess those were the butterflies I felt in Autumn,
now all dead and garbage.
As I waited for the winter to pass,
I dreaded the arrival of summer.
I didn't want no more fairy dust and butterflies.
All I wanted was to be me again.
To stop feeling dead and grey all the time.
It was February suddenly,
and I was walking to my favourite coffee shop.
I hadn't been there in a while,
and I missed it like anything.
Half way through my favourite book,
you stumbled upon me and fell.
We smiled and apologized,
and I extended my hand out to you.
It was when you grabbed my outstretched hand,
that I suddenly remembered spring existed as well.
© Moonyloonywitch
10/08/2021
❝ The sky stitched with waning gold, A tale of day, now softly told. The sun will sink low, its fire dim, A lantern's light on sunset's brim.
The world exhales a gentle sigh As dark shadows stretch and kiss the sky. The trees stand stiff, their branches bare, Caught in twilight's tender care.
Each thread of dusk, a brief glow, Untangled fast, yet sweet and slow. It intertwines the night with quiet grace, A tapestry time can't replace.
So linger here, in soft repose, Where every hour comes, then goes. For in the dusk, the heart may see, A moment's glance of eternity. ❞
❝ Soft raindrops taps on the pristine glass A rhythm pulled from moments past A whisper from each drop, vague, but clear A voice I thought I'd thought I'd never hear from again.
The streets shimmer bright with mirrored skies, Reflecting tears from weary eyes. A fleeting laugh, an obscured face, Lost within the storm's embrace
The earthy scent, so damp and true, Brings the memories I once thought I outgrew Yet here they are, in pewter streams, Awake again in quiet, little dreams.
The rain will come to an end soon, as storms must do, And leave behind a world anew. But in its soft echoes, I find, Fragments of a wandering mind. ❞