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She ignites me
In a way no one , could even come close.
She knows
Just how to make me feel alive .
She is my flame
On the coldest nights .
She is the spark in my eyes.
Believe me when I say she can turn any heart
From stone to gold dust
In a blink of gods eye .
She don’t know evil
Only pure love .
She locks on and never lets go .
She is stronger then any diamond
Rough for ever in the making
As that what makes her so powerful.
She learns from everything
She never will look perfect
Coz the best things
Are always hidden beneath the dirt
Spreading love but never heard.
@trueemotions91
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If you ever feel like this my inbox is forever open ! ❤️
A gun
A quick escape
To exit this thing called life
My Brain can’t take no more
Every day I force a smile
For what?
For fuck all
My head can’t think no more
I don’t want be on this place called earth
I want be dug deep in the ground
Out of this crazy life
Where there is no escape
From my self .
It’s a mess.
I give up fighting the urge everyday
To just end this shit.
For real.
If I had trigger
I wouldn’t hestatie
To know it would be over within a blink
It’s the perfect escape .
It’s lucky I don’t owe one
Or I would be in a place I call home .
Heaven .
Away from this nightmare
I can’t escape.
Please lord give me strength not
To put a end to my own light.
I don’t know why you placed me upon this life
And have me air to breathe
Every night
I ask why ?
What is my purpose to you under this dark light
Maybe the easy way out
People will say
But there don’t know the state of my mind .
It’s hard to cooperate
When all I see around me is snakes
I’m done with life .
Even the ones who claim to love me
Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.
Life is a joke
No one gives a flying fuck
That my brain is turning into sticky glue
With words I can’t relate to .
Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily
I would rather live in a zoo
Then play this game of 2.
Hate is a strong word
But belive me when I say I hate this earth.
It’s full of devils
Ain’t no angels here
Just a fuckin game of tug .
I ain’t got the strentgh to pull
The fucker to my side no more.
Years of fighting with my own
To now just want be put in a hole.
I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place
Im going be at rest
With my crazy soul.
I’m close to admit
The fucker has won .
@trueemotions91
I don’t want to see
What is hidden beaneath the leaves
I’m scared it will shake my knees
Something I ain’t ready to please
I beg you
Don’t shake me to hard
I fall to fast
My soul won’t last
If you make me shiver
My heart will quiver
I don’t know when to stop
That’s when I lose the plot
I’m sorry
I can’t stumble
Upon these troubles
I want you to be happy
And
To show you inside
Would make us both the perfect disaster .
@trueemotions91
Why is life so raw
I only wanted to get up off the floor
But you won’t let me rise
You just want to watch me fall.
Scared I will rise above yourself
Difference is , I ain’t a whore
I’ll do my chore
But you still keep pushing me to the damn floor .
Fear is greedy
I get that now
But your only feeding the demon within me .
Your negative words fall all around me.
You made me so sore
I just don’t care no more
So you see ,
I may be upon the floor
But inside I’m ready to roar.
I see him everywhere
He smiles at me in the air,
He whispers me lullabies when I’m scared
Keeps the monsters from out my head ,
He holds me when I’m cold
Squeezes harder when I’m warm,
He just knows how , I liked to be hold
Ain’t a secret that could not be told .
I would trust him with my life
But I’m not to sure about a wife .
He is gentle , I know that so
But he is also very powerful .
Would he scare her gentle soul
I honestly don’t know .
@trueemotions91
A rose is red as the blood
That trickles when you prick
Your self with her thorns ,
The moon is as bright as the path
Lit , only enough for you to see the scary stuff,
The sun only shines, when it’s enemy’s are asleep,
Like the eagle in the sky
Waiting for its next victim who can’t escape,
The frog will watch each tiny slug
Against the river bugs,
While the spider etches her sketches
Against the moon lit sky,
The water speckles her nightmare
As it lights up her silver lined lie ,
The flys retreat from her secret trap
While her baby’s wait for it to fall
In their lap,
And all is lost in a blink of the eye .
@trueemotions91
Not wrote by me - but I had to share as it is amazing , ❤️. So all enjoy x
Her eyes remind me the first sea that I saw,
The kind of sea you only see in a draw.
When I’m looking at them I am getting out my mind,
The most beautiful thing a man could even find.
She took possession of my mind, of my dreams, of my soul.
When she is not there, I am feeling like if I was stuck in a hole.
Her presence is giving me the faith like if she was giving me a rope,
To get me out of that well and offer me the hope,
To see her one day having a rest in my arms,
While she doesn’t realize how effective are her charms.
I could spend my whole days looking at her sleeping face,
As long as she is there, I will never leave this place.
When everyone else is no longer there .
You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day
But hides when the clouds come to play ,
That’s just how it goes
But one thing I know
Is ,it always comes and goes,
It never stays in the same place
Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,
You see , you just have to watch the space
To open the gates ,
To all the things you misplaced
it will then ,all fall into place .
Just don’t hide from the same game
That’s got you playing in a hoop
Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop
We go high, we go low,
We go from side to side
But we never stay still
We keep climbing that hill
Coz it don’t matter about the pills
Or the window sill
You sat on for so long ,
Waiting for Them To sing you a song
As long as you keep moving along .
Then it don’t matter if no one is there
You can do it all alone .
@trueemotions91
Hey handsome ,
Stood over there,
Looking all bare ,
I want to excite you,
So please don’t stare
I’ll take you places
You never knew were there,
I’ll teach you about my land
Just allow my hand,
I’ll take the rest from there.
Ready to explore
To learn my law?
@trueemotions91
She was my baby girl
I told you so
Never wanted to let her go
But you made me do her wrong
By always being the other girl
Making her feel low
I just couldn’t say no.
She was my baby girl
now she can’t be found
Because I dug her, deep into the ground.
Broken hearted by a clown
I’m sorry , now I know
How low, I made her go,
I wasn’t ready
For the love ,
She blew my world apart
now I’m done fooling about .
I was confused , lost
I promise you so
Just come back baby ,to our home
I’ll show you my love , hands down
No more broken promises
No more late night kisses
I just need you back on my ground
You are , who kept me so sound
The reason I thought I was on top of the world
She was my baby girl
I just need her home .
@trueemotions91
I was lost
In a plot
Of my own fucked up emotions
No one to help me
No one ever understood
I was called a crazy bitch
Forced in a ditch
To dig myself out of
While the soil crumbled under each finger tip
Still they called me a crazy bitch
Coz I was fighting this shit
All just watched and laughed
Like a bunch of crazed clowns
To my head shut them out
I cried and screamed
Believe me I fucking did
My eyes have never cried
As the tears ain’t my sin
It’s just the opening
Of this tin I’m trapped in
The cuts were a release
Each time I dug my nails deep in
Was a understanding of the place I was laying
Each fall
I pulled harder
No matter how much they call me a crazy bitch
I am getting out of this ditch
They forced me in .
@trueemotions91
A man I hear them call
Is a danger to all?
Do you honestly believe that story
If I repeat them words quietly ,
If your going paint a ugly picture
Of my son, brother , father
Before there even have a chance to alter
Your perspective of all men
Then I would not bother ,
To waste your air on this planet earth
That’s ludicrous , to human nature
Can you really hear yourself loud and clear?
So your afraid of your father ?
Please tell me so,
How on earth can we scoop so low,
Men are humans , I swear to your
Have two eyes and usually bigger shoes ,
But all ain’t to fear,
I know the hands that raised me were full of care & order
Showed me love & courage ,
But to fear my son , is to loud and clear
When you all cheer , the words I hear ,
A woman I know who abused her own
but yet I don’t hear you call her mistakes
To the moon,
Would you to brush me with the same words ,
Because another mother put upon this earth,
It makes no sense , it’s all a laugh,
I stand with a woman , power and all,
But to call every man a danger is a different law,
Just think of the words before you make your own
father sore ,
Imagine his face when he sees you chore the words
That - all men must fall .
@trueemotions91
Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !
Lost young soul ,
Life is low , life is high ,
We have to just ride the tide. ❤️
The biggest challenge in life
Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,
Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,
He’s trapped inside
Constantly taking you on a mad ride
It’s your call to reply
But before you do
Just listen
To what he is speaking
He may drive you crazy and make you hate
Every aspect of life ,
But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,
But the voice is they for a reason
Even if invisible on the other side
It’s the man inside
trying to make you recognise
I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up
But please just go with the flow
Don’t think the words that are going Through your head
Are a representation of yourself ,
Thats way to far , even for his control ,
That voice is a reckoning
The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling
Maybe not in the words you need
But this is where you have to be smart
Our brains are dangerous
The damage is strong
As no other can hear the song ,
He may play you some fucked up lullabies
And make tears come into your eyes
But I promise that’s not you breaking
That’s your soul accepting ,
The voice is usually your own well being ,
Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,
He is nothing to be scared of
He is invisible , a voice all alone ,
But you can’t let him take control,
You have the power to show him differ ,
befriend that voice in your head ,
make him work for his chatter
we were born wild and free but
our imagantion always runs quicker
then our own two feet ,
So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release
Its a craft , and once you make the art ,
That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .
@trueemotions91
Why is this world so cold
I was always told,
The world is what you perceive through
Your own living eyes ,
Am I to blind, to see
The love that’s surrounded, around me ,
Is it me who spits the hatred out they mouth?
I question this daily .
I see the beautys of earth
They don’t hide ,
The colours of the rainbow are
Painted all over this earth,
The birds sing me a lullaby
Every morning ,
I open my eyes
To the most beautiful sunrise ,
I watch the moon ,
Dance with the stars ,
But when I enter reality ,
Why do I see , beings
With scrawn up faces ,
Blood on the hands of another man ,
Children being abused by the one who
Brought them to this earth,
Youngsters with no morals,
Graffiti scribbled all over the walls,
Ruining nature for everyone’s eyeballs,
Is that really just perceieved through my own eyes?
Is the government, just blind
To the reality of life,
Hidden behide a obscene ,Law and order,
Where half of them are the cause
Of disorder ,
Freedom of speach
But only counts for the rich ,
I see another begging on the floor
While another swipes his foot across
The same path,
Caught up in his own twisted world
Not a care for the poor,
I didn’t see that this morning ,
When the flowers were dancing along
To the pretty’s bird song,
I saw happiness in the sky,
Pictures Scribbled in the clouds
To make me realise ,
I can be at ease ,
But when I enter the street,
Everyone seems to be staring down at they feet
A pawn in a game of cheat.
@trueemotions91
Always told
I won’t make any gold
With my long life goals,
But they underestimated me
As my goals only consist
Of happy and health,
Not having my pockets lined of coins
I’d rather have a heart of joy,
A pocket full of sweet memories
For the world to see, Is enough for me ,
Riches are nothing
If my eyes are cold
Blinded by the pound sign
can’t see my path is clearly written for me ,
I don’t need brands attached to me
I’m a brand of my own
no one can copy track me
Even when I’m buried in the ground
You still couldn’t even come close
To the place I call home
My memories would make you realise
What a lie yours is.
@trueemotions91
Life is scary ,
Looking through my eyes ,
Your find it blurry,
But don’t be alarmed,
Because I promise your ready .
For this ride, To the top,
Free of charge ,
I promise I won’t ask for a penny,
But I’m going take your emotions
Higher then any,
I’ll hold your hand
I won’t let go
But inside your going be lonely.
Don’t be scared
I promised you so,
All of them emotions
Are part of the journey ,
This ain’t no movie,
First class scary .
Be the best ride ,
As this is the journey of Your life.
@trueemotions91
A beauty only I can see
Because I hold the key
To my own twisted art
That’s locked inside of me
It’s not my eyes who make me unique
Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose
It’s the fact I can control
My life long goals
ain’t no one stopping that
You can put a end to my legs
Or maybe even my sense
But my mind won’t let you
Mess up that
It’s not visible to see
For a reason
It tells me daily
Scary .
@trueemotions91
My heart was yours,
True to the core,
I promised myself that ,
I could never give you just half ,
But I regret that .
As you stole my
Identity
Within a flash.
The risk is not opening
Your heart ,
It’s opening your mind ,
Which is when we become blind.
As we are teaching people the
One thing we are allowed to hide .
Don’t give your soul
Until you know ,
The holder Don’t want it to
Steal.
Fake copy created by yourself .
A wolf in sheep’s wool.
@trueemotions91
I found you
Looking so blue ,
I took you
To show you the truth ,
I opened my heart
To help you ,
Never did I think ,
You would rip
Out my soul
And make me beg,
from underneath
You.
@trueemotions91
Did you ever think
The power a child can bring to a man ?
I will admit
It’s about the sex .
But maybe we look past
How a man is made ,
His primarl instinct
To make love to woman
And watch his seed grow
Into something remarkable .
Into a soul
He connected to on a another level
Maybe it’s empowering for him
to watch
Her belly grow
Knowing it’s his well being
Made by his flow.
To allow him
To reinpreganate another soul
To find it attractive
Knowing he holds half the key
For another life
I wonder so .
@trueemotions91
5 boys who are running around,
doing what these boys do.
Power rangers.
Fighting & cars
Bruises from bangs
cuts from falls.
Feet stomping from your moods.
Screaming
All in a hurry.
Baby dolls. Kissses. Cuddles. Helping. Tears.
All the things above are nothing bad.
As they are what are perparing you to be a perfect man.
Your learn to control them paddys and in return control anger.
The tears you cry now will show you that being a man also means you need emotion because you are just another
human .
The bruises and bangs just make you that little bit tougher.
The dolls you play with now will help you as you to one day become a father.
The kisses and cuddles will show you that's all your family will need one day to feel protected just like you do now.
But for now I'm sit back watching you grow with tears, laughter and sometimes a bit of frustration - but mummy knows all the bad and all the good is going make you the perfect man for your future .
@trueemotions91
In life
never loose who you are
never forget where you came from
don't let your self disappear so your left wondering " who the fuck am I "
never lose yourself in the rush
Never lose you self when your dreaming
when it comes back to reality your be the one looking in the mirror
not knowing if the person who is staring back at you is a imposter
or really you.
This world ain't full of love and happiness
its full of tears, sweat and blood
so remember when your dreaming life away to never forget who makes,
you.
Never give up on these unique things that make you the person you are
That's what makes you true
you destroy those unique things about you
your be in that mirror looking at at a shadow of who you used to be
and believe me
life is no fun staring in that mirror
lost in a pair of eyes you no longer recognise .
@trueemotions91
Fucked up words ,
Pulling at the trigger ,
Itching on my brain with this crazy fucker .
My plans in Mars
But yet your only reaching for the stars.
Do make me laugh ,
You look like a giraffe ,
Reaching for the highest branch
Without no arms .
Ground zero.
I hear you call.
The monkeys laugh
With a twisted squeal.
A monkey you know
That’s how low
Your brain has blown
What happened up there ,
Did the air
Lose all control
And now your left floating
Just full of holes,
Please show me your goals
I’m a bit confused
how your still so low
Not knowing which way to go
When I watched you climb
That big fuck off
Hill
@trueemotions91
A joker ,
Hidden from me
Are you really surprised
I can see through the pain,
Painted on smile
In red lines .
Aint hard to see in
Between .
Painted white for the world
To see
But
Under the light ,
Your just another
Delusion of the night,
You think your words can itch me,
I have clowns in my dreams
Somewhere you could never reach ,
Think your nightmares
Can stench me from
My haven ,
Only witches have that cauldron
When they cackle up the night sky,
The birds want to come play ,
Because you will always hide
When the disguise
Falls behind the blind.
@trueemotions91
Heart broken
Spoilt little whore ,
Why you looking at me
Look at the floor.
Fool ,
Your heart is filled of
Stone cold coal.
I was only trying to find
Something inside.
He was petrified.
@trueemotions91
Fondling ,
In between the leaves,
Of a crispy bed of seaweed.
Slithering down my body
To find thier new home
deep in between my legs,
Where the spiders wait
Late at night
Stalking thier next victim ,
The mouse use me for warmth,
Scared of the night time dawn.
the owl holds all
Of my darkest secrets,
The stars have witnessed
My deepest desire ,
She feels me
When I whisper ,
Her leaves curl
Into a twisted picture .
Their all use me for
shelter.
@trueemotions91
Listen to the roar
Listen to the core
I won’t kneel again
Nor will my brain repeat again.
When life is passing
Remember to keep smiling .
I look at people every day
Walking past glaring
Eyes all blurring
From a telephone .
Cant be arsed to say hello
To a real huma soul.
not a leg ache
It’s a hand ache
A demolition to the human brain
We ain’t wired for the crown
Or silver tin foil .
We are made from earth
A thousand fucked up cells .
Your ground
When electric is running around
Straight to your brain
Don’t you realise.
You look like a clown
With a upside down
Smile
Not knowing
When your next swipe
Will be more mesmerising
To them demonised eyes
Blacked out from
That devil In a disguise.
@trueemotions91
When I was young
I thought I was strong
Thought life was just a laugh.
Till the voice in my head ,
Kept screaming for a chance .
Showing me things
My own eyes
Could never believe .
I ignored the noise
A racket in my brain
Used to tell the fucker
To just go away,
Always screaming at me
A fight against the other.
always in the inside
No one else can hear my brain
It sent me crazy
Used to screw
Wanted it to just escape
But it wanted to stick like glue .
Who was this screaming inside of me
I used to ask the fucker
But it would never accept the anwser .
I learnt to listen
And accept it
that’s when my words started flowing
It started screaming a little less louder
Then I realised it was me against my self
The devil and angel balancing me out
Till I accepted
That’s what my life was about
To find peace with my other self .
@trueemotions91
A flower so sweet and pure
Always staring at me
Through a open door
I wonder what
She is asking me for
Always waving hello.
I wonder if she knows
How much I adore her
And how much she makes
My skin crawl
She is amazing
Beautiful
I cant resist
To pull her from the ground
Just to give her one
Sweet kiss.
@trueemotions91
Pretty lady
Looking at me,
Why do you bring
Me to my knees,
In all the humans
Upon the world,
Your the one
I kneel to.
Not because your eyes
Enchant me
Or the whisper of your voice
Excites me,
It’s a belonging I can’t explain
just a human brain .
@trueemotions91