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A gun
A quick escape
To exit this thing called life
My Brain can’t take no more
Every day I force a smile
For what?
For fuck all
My head can’t think no more
I don’t want be on this place called earth
I want be dug deep in the ground
Out of this crazy life
Where there is no escape
From my self .
It’s a mess.
I give up fighting the urge everyday
To just end this shit.
For real.
If I had trigger
I wouldn’t hestatie
To know it would be over within a blink
It’s the perfect escape .
It’s lucky I don’t owe one
Or I would be in a place I call home .
Heaven .
Away from this nightmare
I can’t escape.
Please lord give me strength not
To put a end to my own light.
I don’t know why you placed me upon this life
And have me air to breathe
Every night
I ask why ?
What is my purpose to you under this dark light
Maybe the easy way out
People will say
But there don’t know the state of my mind .
It’s hard to cooperate
When all I see around me is snakes
I’m done with life .
Even the ones who claim to love me
Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.
Life is a joke
No one gives a flying fuck
That my brain is turning into sticky glue
With words I can’t relate to .
Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily
I would rather live in a zoo
Then play this game of 2.
Hate is a strong word
But belive me when I say I hate this earth.
It’s full of devils
Ain’t no angels here
Just a fuckin game of tug .
I ain’t got the strentgh to pull
The fucker to my side no more.
Years of fighting with my own
To now just want be put in a hole.
I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place
Im going be at rest
With my crazy soul.
I’m close to admit
The fucker has won .
@trueemotions91
Billy bong billy bang,
I just want a snack,
To calm my attack.
Things got me having a panic Snack ,
For better ,for worse,
My chocolate habit won’t
Stop it
Love it
Twist it
Grab it
Shove it in and shut it.
Like a trap , with a snap
Waiting for it’s next lick,
I just can’t kick it,
With such delight
Cant help but bite it,
The melting stuff,
Gets twisted in my tongue ,
Dribble it
Lick it
Swallow it .
Now I’ve done it again
Fucking chocolate habit .
@trueemotions91
I see the sun, I see the sand , I see the sea, but I can't see the air .
I can see all that's beautiful around me.
But you no what I can't see .
The thing that keeps me alive !!
And that's the distraction in life !!
We are surrounding by beauty, ugliness , and everything far and between .
But do those things really bother me ??
Where's my twisted feelings , my emotions when they run high, the 1000 words that race through my head every night !!!
But why ? Cant I see these in front of me!!
If these were on show they wouldn't be a distraction it's my lifelong goals !!
These are the main yet they kept locked away ... tightly secure inside my brain... The things we can see , touch, feel , smell are distractions in my way!!
Why can't the things that matter be so easy to reach and grab!!
To put all that matters out on a table would be a lifelong puzzle but that puzzle is my goal in life it's the only thing on this earth that's been made just for me!!!
So when you see that beautiful flower blossoming don't make it a distraction , make it a reality and amend it on your perception to alter what it divides your own path to!!!
Come see what I see
Twisted deformed faces in front of me
Crazy they call me
But these fuckers clearly can’t see
Like sheep in a line, all gawping when I open my mind
Don’t believe me when I say
It’s the most powerful thing about me
Trust me when I say it
Ain’t no delusion
I have to fight the beast everyday
You , you are nothing
Compared to this fucker
I cant escape it , not even run from it
Stuck with it till I die
Can you see ?
You , you are nothing to me.
Human like me
But I don’t use my fist to win this fight
My brain is always right
So no escaping me
Because once I get in
They ain’t no getting out
I cant escape me
Even the devil don’t want in this game .
A monster in disguise ,
A gift from god
Who knows what it’s called
Electric powers me
The Voltage erupts
Causing me a rage
With a mind full of volts
That turn into words
Them words turn into ideas
And the whole world spins .
Still makes no sense
Still can’t understand
Nor can I , so join the clan .
@trueemotions91
Confused they once told me .
Confused of what I asked ?
Life was thier reply.
Life? I asked ? Im Not confused of life , I’m confused to why in life is so much hatred . I understand life is a game of play but I can’t accept the world we are in!
I can’t understand the broken homes, the hunger, the greed , the death!
I don’t understand why another human would want to hurt another human?
Or is it because they ain’t human ? Or maybe I’m not?
Surely in life we all want the same , love , happiness and equality!
I don’t understand how ones brain can tick to create such havoc ! I don’t understand how we as humans can disregard each other’s life so easily !
It’s not humane - yet we call ourselfs human! A human has a heart and two eyes ! To see and to feel the damage of our actions ! Not to be blind!
So yeah I’m confused to what has happened to the what we call human life !
@trueemotions91
Life one look one love , one heart one soul, one shot at this game .
Play wisely like a fool watch for the stars and fill the space .
Don’t let the clouds move that amstophre push them thoughts through quicker then a river.
Watch how it moves, watch how it trembles . It bears a lot of Weight but yet - never do it buckle .
To love, to loss ,to lose , to gain, to win , to climb.
To fly like a bird with the wind gliding your path.
You flip I flop .
You fall I climb .
@trueemotions91
My mind is my game , my soul in one blink.
Try hard but I promise you will not see me !
My brain is what makes me
My legs , my arms, my heart , my eyes aint nothing unique to me
We all have these simple things !
But my brain ,
hell yea this mother fucker on another league out here ! Controlling my bodily functions ,
controlling my mind ,
Voice in my head that i can not hide ! Can turn you off quicker then you think !
But your mind will keep tick tick tick
A million voltages dash around,
But do we really understand how we are ground ! My mother taught me feet rooted hard but My feet can take off,
not rooted hard but my brain is connected stem and all.
Belive me when I say
Ain’t no escaping this uncontrolled machine !
@trueemotions91
My mind is a jumble of words!
Constantly flowing through my brain!
Don’t make sense just a load of jubberish taking up my personal space.
One two three I try and count to shut it up but hey ho theys no hail !
Ya mind is a complex tool more powerful then ourselves!
To be afraid of it is a under statement ! I try to push it away!
That voice gets louder and louder screaming inside but I can’t let it get passed coz it will fuck with my brain!
It’s itch I can’t avail it makes me feel wild !
Scared of how it triggers how it rushed inside .
How long can ya control it before it takes over ya mind !
It’s a constant fight between ya mind and soul !
@trueemotions91
In life we have years , but in reality it’s seconds!
Within a blink our whole life can be altered !
Do you really appreciate life ?!
What we are giving , what we can give ?!
Is it a blessing or curse to be living on our world of ours today!
Children always hurting, adults always killing!
Not even the waters are no longer clean!
Food is processed - it’s a chemical overload to a body we have neglected !
The air we breath is no longer healthy it’s a time bomb waiting on your lungs!
The weak die young but their always live the hardest !
Life is a game of fear, hope & love,
But is it ?
Or is it just a part of a illusionist to paint ourselves this pretty picture
Our children ,
our off spring .
Have to be strong ,
mentally and physically to take on this world !
A lot tougher then us
As the world adapts people adapt!
And not always in the best way!
Hold ya love ones close , keep your enemy’s away not closer !
Hold your head high above the dark cloud that smothers you and carry on my soldiers !
Because I hope and pray one day the fog will fade and the sun will shine for all to breathe what was ment to be !
Peace and harmony
@trueemotions91
In life we all make mistakes some bigger then others
But we all make them .
Who are you to judge the person next to you ?
You ain't living with the pain, there are paying for their actions .
Some more then others.
Just coz you see them smiling 😀 don't mean inside they ain't crying .
When you look in there eyes, they may be looking back but inside they are shutting .
Trying to smile to hide the pain inside
. Trying to walk when your knees are shaking.
But you know you have to make them steps.
You don't no what that person is feeling !!!
Same as they don't you.
So next time just sit and think what you do.
Coz your actions and vocals can cause more damage to someone then your ever know . Just think
@trueemotions91
In life as a adult- we have what we give ourselfs.
Nothing in life is down to someone else.
It will always fall back to its down to you!!
You are the only one who made the descions that have now pathed out your life.
Its down to you where your life goes and what you achieva before your time comes.
It's your choice to hold the pain and lose the love
Or you can learn to live with the pain and grab the love your surrounding with that's your choice
Your choice to smile or cry.
To run head on or hide.
Every sec of every day of your life is dependent on the choices you make .... So when all is falling around you.
Don't look to the person stood behide you look at the person in front of you!!!
Coz that person looking back at you is the only person who can plan your life
So stop looking around, hold your head high and aim for that one direction where only you can take you!!!
@trueemotions91
I look at a photo And a million words and memory's fly through my head.
They also bring tears to my eyes Why?
I want to smile and I want scream But that's good Means I'm still alive.
Means I know how to associate pain with happiness But Also means I'm strong enough to over come that pain By smiling By knowing one day all will come into place.
The puzzle may be missing pieces and some have been lost through out my life.
But they are there and they will one day be complete .
And when that day comes My heart and mind will in twine and awaken a deepen sense thats along been waiting .
A sense of fulfilment of love and happiness and my tears will still run through pain but it won't be in my eyes no more forever hid away
@trueemotions91
A brain is a weapon , mass destruction , out of any league of your imagination .
You think fire burns ever had your head like it’s going explode, a build up of pressure , you can’t control , the motherfucker just squeezes even harder.
Till you can’t take it no more .
That’s a war .
A war on the inside only you can defeat.
A war with yourself.
No one else can see .
Now if these thoughts automatically went what would that brain have left to wonder.
Is this the issue why we all at war with each other .
our brains are on a constant over drive.
Fighting with our own imagination .
Why does our brain work this way .
Try so hard to turn the fucker off but hey ho it just feels a empty hole .
What’s the point the ability .
If only we can feel the pain .
It is self destruction and every single one of us do it.
But why ?!
Why do we cause ourselfs so much hurt, crying , pain .
Why can’t we allow ourselfs to live in harmony.
Something crazy going on
I’m sure we weren’t created for our brains to self destruct from the inside out.
That’s what we are doing !
Scary crazy shit happening up here , only god must stare .
Self destruct on every brain.
Hell no !
Its not the norm .
I’m sure
but how to defeat it
Is a whole other board game .
@trueemotions91
I see the sun, I see the sand , I see the sea, but I can't see the air .
I can see all that's beautiful around me.
But you no what I can't see .
The thing that keeps me alive
And that's the distraction in life.
We are surrounding by beauty, ugliness , and everything far and between .
But do those things really bother me ?
Where's my twisted feelings ,
my emotions when they run high,
the 1000 words that race through my head every night !!!
But why ? Cant I see these in front of me!!
If these were on show they wouldn't be a distraction it's my lifelong goals !!
These are the main
Yet they kept locked away
Tightly secure inside my brain
The things we can see , touch, feel , smell are distractions in my way!!
Why can't the things that matter be so easy to reach and grab!!
To put all that matters out on a table would be a lifelong puzzle but that puzzle is my goal in life .
You see it's the only thing on this earth that's been made just for me!!!
So when you see that beautiful flower blossoming don't make it a distraction , alter it to the reality and perception , your own path in life is taking you through.
@trueemotions91
I want to look into the sky and reach out into the clouds, I want to look into your eyes, and see forever in its depth,
I want to love, and I want to be loved by you and only you
And I want to be in a world where loving you isn't a sin, and kissing you isn't a vice.
I want to be strong and I want to be weak, I wanna fight then lay down and just cry, and I want to be more than a girl dreaming in the night, I want to be more than hopeless dreams.
And then I want to be more and just more, I want to write about love and I want to write about life and maybe write about loath.
I want to see the world turn into chaos and I want to look into the world again and see its truths
And then when breathing will be easier,
the weight in my throat a little lighter,
and sinning wouldn't be that scary anymore.
Maybe then I'll look into the sky, reach out into the clouds and find forever in the depth of your eyes, and perhaps even allow myself to love a girl without fear.
SerineMkd🤎🥀