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A mess from the best
Ain’t like the rest .
She was blessed by the man
With his shoulders at rest .
A danger to the devil from the inside , out
As her emotions were made to be numbed out .
Like hitler , wanting you to be his butler ,
Hid in the darkness from the stars ,
Never knew what it was like to see past the dark .
It’s a shame , but we don’t pass the blame ,
especially when your blinded by The other game .
Now she can see , so much more clearly ,
She is starting to look a lot more pearly .
The sadness in her eyes , are replaced with the sunlight .
The breeze on her skin , awakens her inner self esteem,
Something you tried to keep locked in .
A beautiful soul, you tried to hide ,
Hid beneath your evil eye .
The man with the rainbow eyes , clearly showed up in perfect time .
Her soul was crushing , a big mistake,
Made from the man, with the holes in his skin,
Who now has nothing to sink his claws in .
@trueemotions91
To be scared is a under statement,
That fear no longer dwindles in my bones ,
Tumblr has taught me ,
Friends are just ghosts , or empty egg shells.
Strangers have more empathy then the man next door,
I was just a fool ,
all along , playing to the devils own dirty tune .
Emotions that ran high ,
Words that didn’t make much sense ,
To a soul opened my eyes
By just a few tiny words.
I realise now ,
it is not, who is here to pick up the phone
It’s the ones who are in the dark
But yet take the time to pass your name in there own daily thoughts.
Yet I’ve done nothing for them, yet there speak of me so kindly.
In this world that’s distracted by so much colour,
Them bright doors don’t hold the key to this earths heavens,
It is the doors that are hid in the darkest shadows,
waiting for someone to find them, to help them flourish.
So Don’t go looking for the brightest light ,
Search for the darkest gate
that’s where we will find all things beautiful in
such a dark cold world,
that’s flourished with colour To distract us ,
from the true treasures of this world .
@trueemotions91
@tammyfeabakker
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A gun
A quick escape
To exit this thing called life
My Brain can’t take no more
Every day I force a smile
For what?
For fuck all
My head can’t think no more
I don’t want be on this place called earth
I want be dug deep in the ground
Out of this crazy life
Where there is no escape
From my self .
It’s a mess.
I give up fighting the urge everyday
To just end this shit.
For real.
If I had trigger
I wouldn’t hestatie
To know it would be over within a blink
It’s the perfect escape .
It’s lucky I don’t owe one
Or I would be in a place I call home .
Heaven .
Away from this nightmare
I can’t escape.
Please lord give me strength not
To put a end to my own light.
I don’t know why you placed me upon this life
And have me air to breathe
Every night
I ask why ?
What is my purpose to you under this dark light
Maybe the easy way out
People will say
But there don’t know the state of my mind .
It’s hard to cooperate
When all I see around me is snakes
I’m done with life .
Even the ones who claim to love me
Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.
Life is a joke
No one gives a flying fuck
That my brain is turning into sticky glue
With words I can’t relate to .
Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily
I would rather live in a zoo
Then play this game of 2.
Hate is a strong word
But belive me when I say I hate this earth.
It’s full of devils
Ain’t no angels here
Just a fuckin game of tug .
I ain’t got the strentgh to pull
The fucker to my side no more.
Years of fighting with my own
To now just want be put in a hole.
I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place
Im going be at rest
With my crazy soul.
I’m close to admit
The fucker has won .
@trueemotions91
You see
I see the scars
It’s a talent for me,
To find you at your weakest
And bring you up from your knees,
It’s scary but Please accept the journey.
I can’t make you choose
I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,
Just give me one minute
It’s all I need
I’ll show you the light
On the other side .
I want to see you smile,
I will enlighten your soul,
I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover
Not like any other.
I won’t leave until
Your complete
I’ll take the pain
And turn it into rain
I’ll take the anger
And turn it into thunder
I’ll empty your brain
And make it my burden
Because I can carry that
If I know your out of danger.
@trueemotions91
Why is life so raw
I only wanted to get up off the floor
But you won’t let me rise
You just want to watch me fall.
Scared I will rise above yourself
Difference is , I ain’t a whore
I’ll do my chore
But you still keep pushing me to the damn floor .
Fear is greedy
I get that now
But your only feeding the demon within me .
Your negative words fall all around me.
You made me so sore
I just don’t care no more
So you see ,
I may be upon the floor
But inside I’m ready to roar.
A rose is red as the blood
That trickles when you prick
Your self with her thorns ,
The moon is as bright as the path
Lit , only enough for you to see the scary stuff,
The sun only shines, when it’s enemy’s are asleep,
Like the eagle in the sky
Waiting for its next victim who can’t escape,
The frog will watch each tiny slug
Against the river bugs,
While the spider etches her sketches
Against the moon lit sky,
The water speckles her nightmare
As it lights up her silver lined lie ,
The flys retreat from her secret trap
While her baby’s wait for it to fall
In their lap,
And all is lost in a blink of the eye .
@trueemotions91
Not wrote by me - but I had to share as it is amazing , ❤️. So all enjoy x
Her eyes remind me the first sea that I saw,
The kind of sea you only see in a draw.
When I’m looking at them I am getting out my mind,
The most beautiful thing a man could even find.
She took possession of my mind, of my dreams, of my soul.
When she is not there, I am feeling like if I was stuck in a hole.
Her presence is giving me the faith like if she was giving me a rope,
To get me out of that well and offer me the hope,
To see her one day having a rest in my arms,
While she doesn’t realize how effective are her charms.
I could spend my whole days looking at her sleeping face,
As long as she is there, I will never leave this place.
When everyone else is no longer there .
You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day
But hides when the clouds come to play ,
That’s just how it goes
But one thing I know
Is ,it always comes and goes,
It never stays in the same place
Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,
You see , you just have to watch the space
To open the gates ,
To all the things you misplaced
it will then ,all fall into place .
Just don’t hide from the same game
That’s got you playing in a hoop
Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop
We go high, we go low,
We go from side to side
But we never stay still
We keep climbing that hill
Coz it don’t matter about the pills
Or the window sill
You sat on for so long ,
Waiting for Them To sing you a song
As long as you keep moving along .
Then it don’t matter if no one is there
You can do it all alone .
@trueemotions91
She was my baby girl
I told you so
Never wanted to let her go
But you made me do her wrong
By always being the other girl
Making her feel low
I just couldn’t say no.
She was my baby girl
now she can’t be found
Because I dug her, deep into the ground.
Broken hearted by a clown
I’m sorry , now I know
How low, I made her go,
I wasn’t ready
For the love ,
She blew my world apart
now I’m done fooling about .
I was confused , lost
I promise you so
Just come back baby ,to our home
I’ll show you my love , hands down
No more broken promises
No more late night kisses
I just need you back on my ground
You are , who kept me so sound
The reason I thought I was on top of the world
She was my baby girl
I just need her home .
@trueemotions91
I was lost
In a plot
Of my own fucked up emotions
No one to help me
No one ever understood
I was called a crazy bitch
Forced in a ditch
To dig myself out of
While the soil crumbled under each finger tip
Still they called me a crazy bitch
Coz I was fighting this shit
All just watched and laughed
Like a bunch of crazed clowns
To my head shut them out
I cried and screamed
Believe me I fucking did
My eyes have never cried
As the tears ain’t my sin
It’s just the opening
Of this tin I’m trapped in
The cuts were a release
Each time I dug my nails deep in
Was a understanding of the place I was laying
Each fall
I pulled harder
No matter how much they call me a crazy bitch
I am getting out of this ditch
They forced me in .
@trueemotions91
A woman I see ,
More powerful then me ,
Because she holds the key
To the happiness in me ,
She can blow me a Gale,
Or create me a storm ,
She is my dearest ,
Who protects me in the wildest storm,
When I’m mad, she makes the world frown,
Oh believe me she can tip up even your crown ,
When I’m happy she sends me a sky full of clowns,
In the prettiest colours,
Who sing me a beautiful song
To make me feel proud,
When I’m cold ,
She holds me ever so close
warms me up with her gentle rays ,
When I’m hot , she don’t stop,
When I’m mad,
She blows the angles my way,
To whisper
It’ll be better another day.
@trueemotions91
Blurred between love and hate
How do I decide my fate ,
When my heart tells me to wait
But my mind tells me to do a double take ,
Life isn’t ment to be a surf
But why was we brought to earth
With this thing called worth,
Emotions are tough
When other people are rough,
Just another torch
To light up the path
For another soul to walk
While we wait in the back fall ,
Why did the cells give me a heart
To just keep being scarred ,
It don’t know when to stop
And that will be my flop,
On this place we call earth
Burnt from inside , out
For something we call love.
@trueemotions91
Heart broken
My life’s a mess
I don’t know where is my place of rest
Just need a escape from this place
Feels like hell ,
I’d rather skate,
My way up to heavens gate ,
Then live this joke of a life
Am I that horrible
I attract selfish people
Does my mind really play me from behide
I don’t undertstand
I’m just confused
To what to do
Slowly but surely I’m breaking
In two
And I’m truly losing my self
To this sticky game of glue
I tell everyone to smile
But can’t force it upon my own frown
Why is life so hard
Why is it the ones we love
The ones who hurt us the most
If that’s the case I would rather die
I give up on life
Always doing my best
Breaking my insides for all the rest
My mind screams for me to give it a break
But my heart won’t let me escape
I’m slowly starting to lose all hope
Of what I call a human joke .
@trueemotions91
A woman ,
Is her name
A mother to all,
From the ground she was born
She always stood tall ,
She braces the craziest storm
Because that’s her home,
She carries life to the full
So we can be reborn ,
She gives her body to another
With out a thought for the other ,
She knows power, love & hate
But yet you won’t see her shake ,
She has to be powerful
To raise her next generation ,
To Make sure there matter
In a world with a lot of chatter ,
She has the power to give and take
But she always chooses life
Over any other path
That may call her ,
Because that’s the gate
To her most beautiful
Creations in life,
Always In sight , but guarded
By love , because that’s what mothers do
On this crazy path called life .
@trueemotions91
Scared
To grow old,
Petrified of getting lines,
Creases from frowning
Always clowning around,
With grey painted lipstick,
Creased upon his cheek
Over the wrinkles
That make his skin looked inked,
I’ll hesitate To undress,
scared of the bed
I once laid upon
Without a rest .
Don’t want it to be my
Last place of rest.
The joys of youth,
But now I have
nothing to lose .
I’ve lived my life with grace
And know it’s my resting place
On earth, back to the ground,
Where I was first placed .
@trueemotions91
Life is scary ,
Looking through my eyes ,
Your find it blurry,
But don’t be alarmed,
Because I promise your ready .
For this ride, To the top,
Free of charge ,
I promise I won’t ask for a penny,
But I’m going take your emotions
Higher then any,
I’ll hold your hand
I won’t let go
But inside your going be lonely.
Don’t be scared
I promised you so,
All of them emotions
Are part of the journey ,
This ain’t no movie,
First class scary .
Be the best ride ,
As this is the journey of Your life.
@trueemotions91
Billy bong billy bang,
I just want a snack,
To calm my attack.
Things got me having a panic Snack ,
For better ,for worse,
My chocolate habit won’t
Stop it
Love it
Twist it
Grab it
Shove it in and shut it.
Like a trap , with a snap
Waiting for it’s next lick,
I just can’t kick it,
With such delight
Cant help but bite it,
The melting stuff,
Gets twisted in my tongue ,
Dribble it
Lick it
Swallow it .
Now I’ve done it again
Fucking chocolate habit .
@trueemotions91
Fuckin crazy in this house of mine
Kids always fighting
Mothers always screaming
A war against 9
Yet love in the air
Open my eyes
To a war game
Trying push them
In there own direction
Forced eyes wide open
Mouths are all gawping
My brains fucking screwing
While next doors knocking
To a crazy noise
Of just heartache
But in the end it’s going be
Allright
Coz it’s where I call home
Its where my flowers grow
From the floor to the ceiling
I’m crawling
While the kids are scribbling
I’m kneeling
Praying to Jesus for some strength
To just catch my breath .
@trueemotions91
Why does another woman’s body entice me,
The curves I adore,
Skin so smooth ,
The way she shakes her arse .
Maybe it’s jealousy
But I’m not sure .
Is it wrong to admire
The beauty of another
I believe not so .
It’s something extraordinary ,
I just can’t let go.
How she drops so low ,
her hips curve to her exterior
Is just woah woah woah .
Blows my mind,
How another woman can make
My heart beat slow .
@trueemotions91
I’m attracted to skin .
You heard that correctly ,
Human contact
Is my fantasise.
To feel the warmth of your body
Upon me
Sends electricity threw me .
To run my fingers down every inch of you
Excites me .
To explore every grove and corner
Of your body
With mine
Thrills me .
To watch you wither under me
Is my only desire .
I promise I’ll be gentle .
All you got to do
Is be bare.
I’ll waken
Senses you never
Knew where there .
Don’t tempt me .
I swear .
@trueemotions91
Man made shit
Tissue to wipe my arse
Man I’d rather some grass
Man made shit
Cant shake the stick
From that drip
He’s hanging on to my every word
Yet he claps
When he gets a slap
From the man in the back.
Man made shit
What a laugh
Stood over their looking like a arse
Man made shit
Just a fart
When everyone laughs
Man made shit
Full of art
But you can’t do the crafts
Man made shit
Do I have to finish it .
@trueemotions91
If don’t make sense to you - take away the words man made shit , 🤪 x
I don’t know what your edging at ,
But I can see you lips are drying up.
Slow down spitting that shit ,
Might make sense of it .
You talk to quick ,
For a brain to register it ,
Take a breather and enjoy it ,
The way, the words flick off
Your tongue
Don’t tell me you don’t like it,
Dirty ,
Is the best ,
We know you don’t like the rest,
Don’t make your tongue do that flick,
But you still think you look slick,
With a lollipop hanging out ,
Dribble round the tip,
Makes me fantasise
Of them sexy lips.
@trueemotions91
Hey little lady,
Sitting across the bar from me,
With her pretty red hair ,
green glazed eyes
Looking everywhere
But ignoring my stare .
I just want show you how
Your life could be fair.
With a pretty little thing
Like you , I wouldn’t dare ,
I’d give you all the dreams in life,
If you just promise to be my wife ,
I love the way you hold your stare ,
When you no I’m all yours.
I just want show you happiness baby ,
So don’t be scared ,
Promise you my touch ,
Is soft ,
Coz a pretty lady like you
Belongs at the top,
So don’t be alarmed when I pull you closer,
I just wanna smell you a little bit better,
I wanna wrap your hair around my fingers,
And show you how much I really care .
@trueemotions91
A beauty only I can see
Because I hold the key
To my own twisted art
That’s locked inside of me
It’s not my eyes who make me unique
Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose
It’s the fact I can control
My life long goals
ain’t no one stopping that
You can put a end to my legs
Or maybe even my sense
But my mind won’t let you
Mess up that
It’s not visible to see
For a reason
It tells me daily
Scary .
@trueemotions91
Why did you leave me on the cross roads,
Cold and alone,
With a thousand thoughts creating a storm.
You left me in the darkest skies,
my coldest hour ,
Did it make you feel better ?
To know I was breaking,
Under your footstep .
Pressure after pressure,
As you watched me shatter
But it didn’t matter.
If you were true , You thought you could piece
Me back together
With glue .
But never the same
And now your ashamed
Because the damaged you caused
Is clear .
My heart was yours,
True to the core,
I promised myself that ,
I could never give you just half ,
But I regret that .
As you stole my
Identity
Within a flash.
The risk is not opening
Your heart ,
It’s opening your mind ,
Which is when we become blind.
As we are teaching people the
One thing we are allowed to hide .
Don’t give your soul
Until you know ,
The holder Don’t want it to
Steal.
Fake copy created by yourself .
A wolf in sheep’s wool.
@trueemotions91
A broken home
Is where he came from,
A mother who never
Showed him love,
Was her call,
A evil man
With a evil plan,
All because of the woman
Who claimed him
To this earth,
But not for love
For her own satisfaction
And now she leaves
A path of destruction ,
With no respect for a woman
Because of her own
Demented needs
Not his ,
Taught no feelings
Told not to cry
Always have to the big Man in life .
Are you glad what you did ?
To that boy who has now turned
To a man .
Left for another woman,
to try , to turn the tide.
HE deserves ,
To know,
the
power of ,
Love !
@trueemotions91
I found you
Looking so blue ,
I took you
To show you the truth ,
I opened my heart
To help you ,
Never did I think ,
You would rip
Out my soul
And make me beg,
from underneath
You.
@trueemotions91
Did you ever think
The power a child can bring to a man ?
I will admit
It’s about the sex .
But maybe we look past
How a man is made ,
His primarl instinct
To make love to woman
And watch his seed grow
Into something remarkable .
Into a soul
He connected to on a another level
Maybe it’s empowering for him
to watch
Her belly grow
Knowing it’s his well being
Made by his flow.
To allow him
To reinpreganate another soul
To find it attractive
Knowing he holds half the key
For another life
I wonder so .
@trueemotions91
5 boys who are running around,
doing what these boys do.
Power rangers.
Fighting & cars
Bruises from bangs
cuts from falls.
Feet stomping from your moods.
Screaming
All in a hurry.
Baby dolls. Kissses. Cuddles. Helping. Tears.
All the things above are nothing bad.
As they are what are perparing you to be a perfect man.
Your learn to control them paddys and in return control anger.
The tears you cry now will show you that being a man also means you need emotion because you are just another
human .
The bruises and bangs just make you that little bit tougher.
The dolls you play with now will help you as you to one day become a father.
The kisses and cuddles will show you that's all your family will need one day to feel protected just like you do now.
But for now I'm sit back watching you grow with tears, laughter and sometimes a bit of frustration - but mummy knows all the bad and all the good is going make you the perfect man for your future .
@trueemotions91