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“But I have seen the same. I know the shame in your defeat.”
But it’s Barty realising James is like him.
Characters I Headcanon have Bipolar disorder
(From the perspective of someone living with Bipolar 2)
**Disclaimer**
This is all meant to be in good fun and I’m no mental health expert; merely someone who has been through lots of therapy
Let’s Begin!
1. Rin Okumura from Blue Exorcist
I’ve always related to Rin Okumura, especially during the time I was under the mistaken diagnosis of ADD. I was surprised to learn from this that a lot of symptoms of bipolar can look like ADD/ADHD at times.
For example, Rin is shown to be someone who is easily distracted or fixated on new topics. He also tends to sleep a lot which is confirmed in the manga by the fact that this boy sleeps 12 hours every night. And finally a major factor that clued me in is how easily he is swayed by his emotions which leads him to act impulsively.
Rin’s emotions tie him to his demonic half which in turn can cause a lot of inner turmoil for him. I’m sure anyone with bipolar can relate in feeling like their change to either a manic/hypomanic state can cause them to feel like a demon and out of control. But as is shown in the series, by practicing to focus on his emotions, Rin learns to lessen and control his symptoms.
2. Gangle from The Amazing Digital Circus
I know I know, I’m lowkey pulling for stereotypes here with the tragedy and comedy masks. And on top of that this is a series with only a pilot so we hardly know anything concrete about her character. 😂
Everyone in the digital circus seems to play a role based off of their avatar given to them. As a being with two different masks, Gangle is very sensitive to the way in which she acts when her comedy mask is broken.
She tends to be very anxious and sensitive to the events that unfold around her both physically and mentally (she unravels from a mere bowling ball being thrown her way by Jax).
In some fandom interpretations of her character I’ve seen interesting depictions that also heavily give bipolar vibes like Gangle having an abstracted self tied to her ribbons or forcing on her comedy mask. I love Gangle and this pilot.
3. Captain SpaceBoy from Omori
Oh poor Captain SpaceBoy. He’s so heavily influenced by any mood swings he experiences that he seems to take on an entirely new persona whether it be SpaceBoyfriend, Space-ExBoyfriend, SpaceHusband, or Space-ExHusband.
When you first meet his character, you can clearly see he is depressed as he refuses to leave his bed and throws away any special possessions that remind him of his heart ache. Later on he even goes as far as to isolate himself on top of a snowy mountain when the heartache returns to him again..
He is also easily consumed by a rage which seems similar to a manic/hypomanic state that leads him to fight the main cast of characters. Also when it comes to his special boss battle I find it interesting how you can only defeat him by fighting him in certain states of emotion.
4. Howl Jenkins Pendragon from Howl’s Moving Castle
Howl is undeniably a drama Queen, but some of the ways in which he takes certain actions give me some bipolar vibes.
There is of course the infamous scene in which he throws a tantrum due to Sophie organizing his hair dye potions. He swings very quickly from being irritated and enraged to absolutely inconsolable and depressed. He even spends that next couple hours in bed after this scene.
Howl also tends to lead himself to danger as he appears to be in heightened states of euphoria when he pushes himself to the limit with his magic. He is also rather impulsive when it comes to the relationships he makes with others if we are going off of his book persona.
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But above all!! All these characters are shown to be good people who genuinely care about the feelings of others and try to do their best to help even when their own mental health is bringing them down.
Bipolar individuals are more than their disorder; we are all kind people ♥️
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And that’s all! Lemme know what you think :)
I have this really bad problem of constantly acting how other expect. This is currently an issue bc when I met my friends I was in a manic phase (bipolar) and am currently in a more down area. So not only do I have to overreact and be hypher around them, this bleeds over to my personal life. I'm typically a very introverted person with a few exceptions, but I have to act happy to talk to them an it so annoying! Like bro jst let me be emo :( bc my preferred style is earthy yet kind of emo, yk like therian kind of style. But I allso dress scenmo on occasion so I'm jst pretending like that's my mane style bc that's what they expect!
Do you know how we call this ⬇️ in real life? 😄
BIPOLAR DISORDER 😑😤
Calling antipsychotics the silly meds cause i don't want to think about it too deeply
#mentalhealth #bipolar
Being in love and being bipolar (bpd?) is actually so excruciating and i wish i never had to subject anyone to myself ever
Got my love lies bleeding dvd in the mail like a week ago. I have yet to rewatch it because it actually sent me into a month long manic episode the first time i saw it and i gave myself the worst haircut ever (still waiting for it to grow out (i am rewatching it tonight))
being reminded again that my love is always deeper and more intense than anyone else’s love for me ever will be
My meds have been adjusted, and this is day three on the new dose. I am not doing well. We don't know if my body is metabolizing them, so this is doubling the dose to see if it takes. I am dissociating and I feel stuck in a dream. I don't know what to do with myself. I just want to cry.
While I feel good at the start of my day, it always begins to slow down, and the weight of depression settles in. It's hard to motivate myself to do anything and even if I do get it done, I feel as though I haven't done enough and have to keep going. I have to do a lot to feel I accomplished anything and by then I'm overwhelmed mentally. It's not a good feeling.
SERIOUS TALK . CENSORSHIP
the amount of censorship and ignorance regarding anything that isn't remotely 'normal' or seems 'realistic' to the average eye is absolutely disgusting and genuinely ableist. see someone who's visibly disabled? oh, no, you can never go up to them! come on! avoid them! they're too different from you. you would never be able to understand them. they would never be able to understand you. have a friend who has a stigmatized mental health condition? oh! they must be faking! nobody *actually* has that! it's too rare! we should stop being friends with them! they must be a monster! have someone tell you that you have an invisible disability? that doesn't exist! if i cant see it, then you don't have it! i know your body better than you do! prove you have your disability, then! and the funny thing is, these types of things are completely censored- viewed as 'wrong' or 'not something to be talked about'. when really, it's just an excuse to not talk about, spread awareness, or allow those who are troubled by these conditions to speak up. TALK ABOUT YOUR ILLNESS. TALK ABOUT YOUR DISABILITY. TALK ABOUT YOUR 'ABNORMALCY'. show the world that **you aren't weird or crazy or monstrous for not fitting the norm.**
how introverts acc feel like (subjective)
Hoje é domingo. Mais um.
Amanhã eu volto ao trabalho depois de cinco dias em casa, tentando me recuperar fisicamente — mas o cansaço que pesa mesmo é mental.
Foram cinco dias de silêncio, de pouca interação. Além do meu marido e uma amiga com quem conversei online, não vi mais ninguém. E mesmo assim, me sinto exausta. A ideia de voltar a um ambiente onde preciso me mostrar bem, simpática, sorridente, quando tudo que eu queria era só existir… é sufocante.
Não é que meu trabalho seja horrível. É que o esforço de colocar uma máscara e agir como se tudo estivesse normal me consome. Sorrir por educação, puxar conversa por obrigação, ser agradável quando tudo que queria era o direito de ficar em paz, na minha, com meu silêncio e minhas pausas.
Sei que vão perguntar se estou melhor. E também sei que a maioria nem espera a resposta real — é só uma formalidade disfarçada de cuidado. E tudo bem, talvez não caiba às pessoas realmente se importarem. Mas isso também machuca.
Hoje vai ser mais uma daquelas noites em que o sono não vem. Em que a ansiedade aperta o peito e os pensamentos viram uma enxurrada difícil de conter. E sei que, amanhã cedo, estarei mais cansada ainda.
Mas mesmo assim, vou levantar. Como sempre faço. E isso também é resistência.
Sorry for my absence my life has been crying over my ex and doctors visits. 😭 Why'd I get diagnosed with bipolar on a random Wednesday morning. Fuck this shit.
day four without antipsychotics. no mood major mood swings. no hallucinations. no delusions. no cognitive decline. no blunted affect or social withdrawal. no anhedonia.
im officially invincible
the female sounding voices that i hear are somehow comforting most of the time
the male sounding voices on the other hand, hate me
i love the fact that toby canonically has bipolar disorder and schizophrenia (schizoaffective disorder)
i finally have a character to project my mental illness onto