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i hate food

but not in a way of just being picky or sum shit like just thinking about food makes me wanna throw up my insides out, when i eat i feel so dirty as if i rolled around in dirt. I despise it idk how ppl enjoy it

oh to look like this

I am so locked in for this semester. I will be the epitome of bmi low grades high

It's true that you shouldn't stay in the "fuck it, whatever" mindset after a binge - food-wise, anyway. You most of the time can't make up for binges - physically, again. But you can stay out of the "my day is ruined and I'll wallow in self-pity for the rest of it" been there, done that.

But honestly? That's NEVER worth it. So why not make use of the energy - and not by working out or trying to make up for it, because that's not gonna happen and because it doesn't work, you'll feel even more it was a bad day. No, try to do homework, a creative project, sit down for video games or movies, whatever. Something to distract you and that makes you still think by the end of the day, that even if you binged, you had a great or productive time and so that you can end it on a good note.

I get that it's difficult, but chances are high that due to this disorder, you neglect other thing which were once important to you - so see that as a way to make up for that, even make up for the binge in a different way if you want, but make it feel like you still spent your time with something positive, that wasn't for nothing by the end of it.

My lunch :)

Total: 155

(2x corncakes - 50; 7g Pesto - 23; 84g cottage cheese - 77; 12g frozen berries - 6)

Basically leftovers lol. Tasted okay and at least I'm full now - and don't mind the bowl please. It's cringe but it has a pig face and so whenever I finished eating that's what's staring back at me as a reminder looool not funny Ik

I hope no one noticed how I literally bought six cans of sf monster and nothing else

Still at my Grandma's... And I fucked up. Usually when I'm here, I either do really well or straight up binge, and it's appears that this time, I do both. Yesterday, I did really well actually but today was horrible. To be fair, no one in my family ate "normally" today, it's the ore-Easter shit, but I mean, they're not disordered, so I feel even more like a faker rn 😭

It's Easter tomorrow and I'm really scared. I'm feeling motivated to do well, but my family wants to go out for lunch tomorrow. I'll just get something from the kids's menu, skip breakfast and only eat a small dinner with my family if I can't avoid it.

And I really have to work on my steps! I feel awful for neglecting them, but I have a really important school project I need to work on... It feels like am excuse, but logically, it really isn't.

I mean, the day after tomorrow my Dad and I will leave already again, and the rest of the fam will stay with my grandma still, andy Dad will leave too after a few days, so my other sister and I will be home alone for a couple days at the end of the holiday s, which is great, since she doesn't really like me and won't force me to eat with her or something. Maybe she'll expect me to cook, because she's prepping for some exams, but that's fine Ig. I mean, I'm kinda planning to fast, but I'll also have to work on that school project, and I'll have to plan my eating depending on how much brain power I'll need then lol. So I have to finish as much of the project as I can now so that I'll be fine fasting/doing high res then.

Bruh why is this post so loong

Mom and Grandma keep gossiping about her old classmates and how fat they've come apparently 😭

And now they're changing topics to how fat the young people look these days and no one's taking care anymore like what-

Their words, not mine

First day at my Grandma's, and she moved her bathroom scale an now I can't find it :(

So now I'll have to go two days without weighing myself, and I can check my weight in three days after my Dad and I are home again... it's not an issue, I usually don't weigh myself everyday, either, it's just that I was planning to do it to keep myself accountable... Easter with my Grandma, a dangerous game food-wise

Why do I feel so tireeed

I've eaten and had an energy drink and two cups of coffee, plus I worked out so whyyy dooo III feeel soll exhaaaauuusted and heeeaaavyyy omg I'm stupid

I'm fat why am I still fat

Oh it's cuz I eat food like the fucking fat ass I am I fucking hate food and I need to be skinnyyyyyyyy

Was trying to read a book while pacing around my room but a couple pages in I realized just how heavy that thing was like okay, may not be the best to read while walking then, but also how am I supposed to read all that? Ugh

I've been trying to read more lately, because I always thought it was a bit of a waste of time really (I just sit around and do nothing even remotely productive, especially when it's novels I'm reading (I'm trying to get myself a couple scientific books now though so that I'll also feel like I am really doing something for my brain and interests then)) but then I got myself a digital watch and I've really started paying attention to my steps and work outs now and I got the brilliant idea of "what if I read during that?"

My neck is not thanking me. The books are not thanking me. I am NOT thanking me. But it's cool! It's books, after all.

And I used to read a lot as a kid, but that was because I got bullied (especially about my body) and literally had nothing else to do during break time back then because no one wanted to hang out with the fatty kid. Anyway, and that's one of the reasons I kind of stopped reading novels, but now I'm getting back into it!

I know that's a random ass lost but whatever. I don't even plan to write that much, I just wanted to tell you about my heavy book and then the words just started flowing lol

No better feeling than finally being locked in again after binging for days

I can't believe I keep throwing this feeling away when it's literally the best thing ever and nothing, truly NOTHING feels good about binging, because I don't even enjoy the food I eat when I do and even if I did in my head I'd be screaming at me to stop but most of the times I can't

It's one of the worst experience s in my opinion, whereas restricting does have a couple downsides but they don't outweigh (heh) how good it feels

"If you lose some weight you'll fit into that!"

-My 10 year old sister to me as we were looking for outfits to wear at a special event

Like... bitch. But you're right. And no, you weren't "just kidding". It's fine. It's fine. It's FUCKING FINE.

Just gonna do some red paintings on my legs later is all. It's fine.

Just tried that light green/paradise monster and it reminds of me those apple gummy bears I used to eat as a kid? Idk it's just kinda sweet and not my favourite but I think it's definitely drinkable

I mean it for sure makes me kinda nostalgic - I mean these gummy bears made me (among sooo many other things) a fatty little kid and then I got bullied and then there were Mom and Grandma's comments and you know how the story goes lol.

Yeah... the good ol' days

(The more I'm sipping in that monster rn though the more I like it so I guess 7/10???) lol no one asked for a monster review yet here I am

(Can you tell I'm fucking bored?)

I binged the FIFTH FUCKING DAY IN A ROW.

Holy shit. I feel so ashamed for even typing this and I don't know how or why I could let that happen. And I could've restricted so easily, too, yesterday and today because my parents were at work and I was home alone with my siblings, but NOOO I had to fucking...

I haven't even weighed myself but I'm sure it's going to be awful when I do, especially since I've been doing so well before (I've lost a lot of weight and haven't binged for a relatively long time). I've probably ruined all the progress of the past weeks.

I'm going to fucking change now. I don't think today can be saved honestly, even if I at least counted most of my calories and compared to the other days, it wasn't as bad, but I'm still going to get in my steps and then I'll be fucking DONE with binging. Thankfully, we'll soon visit my Grandma and on travel days I can fast usually, so I'm going to absolutely use that as sort of catalyst for finally locking in again, but of course I'm going to start RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

I can't go back to school after Easter break having gained like 5kg or something, not when we have so many swimming classes atm and all my friends were calling me skinny and complimenting my waist. I still have a week and a half to lock in and lose weight and I'm going to use it.

In the second week, only my sister and I will be home for a couple of days and maybe I'll even try to fast through all of them (depending on how much school work I'll have left to do then)

So yeah, sorry for rambling but I do feel slightly better now because of it

skinny af, long walks af, cold fresh fruits af, skincare af, toned arms af, concerts af, beach days af, friends af, long runs af, reading af, bikini af, study af

this summer is going to be my peak 🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯

crashing out rn because my dad is taking me to a restaurant which doesn't list c4ls on the menu!!! the plan is to eat whatever I want and then burn as many c4ls on the bike as i can later. Wish me luck!

taking a break from study1ng this week to focus on starv1ng

shoutout to toxic gymbro motivation

c4l log - 12/05/25

10:00 - went on a bike ride, a long one, and burnt 317 c4ls. i don't even feel d1zzy or hungry?

13:35 - wrap with hummus, parmesan and tomato (267)

13:50 - crisps (199), orange (62)

my mum asked if i wanted to go to the gym and i originally said no, but then i was hit by like a wave of guilt and feeling sick? thanks @n@! so i decided to go. burnt 82 c4ls on the stair master and then did some lazy leg and ab workouts because my brother was distracting me.

i honestly think it’s so much easier to burn off the c4ls than not 34t them in the first place.

20:20 - pasta (140), meatballs (413), broccoli (20), strawberries (30)

total = 734

My Aesthetic

super non-suspicious m34lsp0

because 90% of the 'non-suspicious' posts I see on here are like three slices of cucumber. WHO IS YOUR FAMILY?? WHY ARE THEY NOT SUSPICIOUS OF THAT?!?!?!

these work really well for OMAD, these aren't my photos but I have made all of them for 400-500 c4ls

week one recap

average c4ls: 1661 (disgustingly high!!!!) crashing out rn

average exercise time: 55-60 mins per day

w31ght change: I am now 176.8 lb which is just over 80 kg so i have l0st some w31ght, which is about -5lbs, or just under -2kg!

this might be kinda a stupid question, but my thighs are super f@t rn, if i lose weight in them will the skin be like, loose and flappy? i wouldn't like the way that looks. would appreciate if someone could tell me. xoxo

c4l log - 12/05/25

09:20 - toast (75), cream cheese (30), strawberries (18)

played an hour long tennis match

11:15 - smoothie (150)

swam in the pool for about an hour

14:20 - toast (150), cheese (52), tomatoes (12), ham (150), orange (62), carrot cake (400)

total - 1099

posting this now and kinda hoping not to eat the rest of the day. wish me luck?

c4l log - 10/05/25

08:25 - banana (89)

08:50 - bike ride burnt (180) is it just me who loves being sweaty and out of breath while excercising? a lot of the motivation i see on here says that working out sucks but its for a good reason, but i genuinely love working out!

11:20 - toast (75), butter (60), marmite (30)

15:50 - crisps (119)

total = 193

we had friends over for dinner, and I had some food at the BBQ but I am so under my c4l limit that it's kind of ok? and it definitely was not a b!nge, because I don't feel gross or uncomfortably full, but idk how many c4ls it was

The dream is to be so sk1nn1 it's obvious even when I'm wearing warm clothes...

ballet 'sp0