Actually Neurodiverse - Blog Posts

the restaurant I’m in has the tv on full volume and also music at the same time so obviously I’m on the verge of homocide

True #Leadership: #People over #money. #Investments in the #future, not individualistic #wealth. If a person is not a #master, they're still a student. #Students shouldn't be making #decisions #alone. #Skills without knowing how to think= #power without #enlightenment.

Best check your hate before it's too late. Young adults, actual adults and children alike are all implementing cancel culture to destroy the lives of intelligent people who won't keep their mouths shut about it or who dare show them that their opinions are wrong and make them feel stupid. Their insecurities should not be a justification to target us with shunning because when it's for a prolonged period or it destroys our ability to make money, it's torture as well as a danger for our health. It really should be a crime and the social media company should be held accountable for it. They enable it after all. Even the moderators of these platforms hate anyone who's smarter than them and it's the same thing if we intelligent people try to go get a job, we won't get hired because the boss doesn't want competition.

Most importantly to note, shunning is what cult leaders use to coerce and bully all of the people into conformity so they can protect their position as the ruler of everything in the decider of all. 14-year-olds are doing this on the internet. Anybody who gets to start a community anywhere on the internet is usually doing it. Every single platform, the terms of service are pretty reflective of occult that enables Mass conformity of which favors religiosity. Failure to separate church and state and of course religious people hate intelligent logical people, especially when we won't enable their delusions. And again, no laws protect intelligent people from discrimination and no laws protect non-believers from being discriminated against by religious people. Double standards. Hypocrisy. it's in atrocity. I'm honest and honesty is a crime. I've been turned into a Dead Man walking for the past 24 years for doing the right thing. Shame shame shame and crimes against humanity is what all of this is. I will not be ashamed that I'm smarter than the majority and I won't hide it. I'm not going to be oppressed in the silence. If you're wrong I'm going to tell you you're wrong. It shouldn't be a crime to be intelligent. It shouldn't be a crime to express intelligence. And all the people who judge me are hypocrites who are pretending that they're smart enough to judge such complex situation in such a complex person, they're narcissists and they think I'm the narcissist which is projecting. And then they tell me that I need to be humble, so what like you're better than me because you're so socially and communicatively Superior with your humbleness? You don't see the hypocrisy there? And how convenient that me feigning humility would serve to protect all of your erroneous opinions, right? How convenient that I won't be your competition as you pretend to be tribal wise people if I just shut up all the time, right? You're all robbing intelligent people of their voice in this world and mass bullying everything into being made just for you toxic conservative majority. shame shame shame on all of you. Yep, I'm right and you've never heard the truth in your entire lives. You're welcome. Now go ahead, ruin my life, it's already ruined. You got nothing to hold over me. When someone doesn't have anything to lose, they don't care about your rules that's another reason why it's dangerous for everyone to do what keep this petty tripe up.

So easy to find proof that there's a serious problem with antisocial media as well as the so-called real world. Rampant prejudice, hate and discrimination are targeting the smartest people alive and if the world doesn't realize just how dangerous that is, then the problem is even worse than I once suspected. The fact that there are no laws that protect the intelligent minority from discrimination and hate crimes is the biggest piece of evidence of the prejudice towards intelligence there is. Especially in these days where everybody is a champion of some minorities cause but yet when I talk about this, people respond with the same sort of remarks that people used to say in defense of the oppression of women and African Americans and other minorities. Such hypocrisy.

, no, I don't have any racial slurs in anything. WTF is this person even talking about? Probably just trying to get me banned because they're prejudice against anyone who's different, especially intelligent people. And then, manipulative people don't talk about their intelligence so that the insecure majority will like them but they're just manipulative and that's not being intelligent, it's being selfish while enabling the majority and it's being disingenuous. Hate to break it to you but some of us aren't going to feign humility just to manipulate a bunch of petty cowards who are ruining every intelligent person's potential and oppressing us by insisting that we never speak when the majority are wrong and We know better. You can talk about how good you are at art or basketball but you can't talk about how smart you are and it's a double standard that trivializes every intelligent person and it's proof that there needs to be laws that protect intelligent people from discrimination and the schools need to change how they teach people. The majority need to face their insecurities and stop making it intelligent people's problem.

"validark" likely an insecure petty coward that hates smart people. No laws protect intelligent people from discrimination and prejudice; even more true that these platforms enable everyone to hate intelligent people and ruin us. Even worse if we're both intelligent and neurodiverse.

If you don't want advise, please ignore this. But this is the something that I do to make it better for me. My sensory issues are not your sensory issues, think about weather this would actually be helpful or unhelpful for you.

Some tricks I have developed to help me brush my teeth (but they might not work for anyone else) are

non mint flavored toothpaste. This is typically "kids" toothpaste, but it works just as well, just with diffrent packaging. This is most helpful for taste, and there are alot of non mint flavors, see if you can find one that works for you (just make sure they contain floride)

just flossing. Find some non flavored floss (I prefer the little plastic picks so I don't have to hold the wire), and just floss your teeth (this is a diffrent sensory experience from brushing, and might still be bad, but it is better for me)

Use your finger to scrub your teeth with toothpaste instead of the brush (means your finger is involved with the sensory nightmare, but is sometimes significantly better for me, might make it worse for you tho)

they make lollipops and other things that are supposed to help clean your teeth. The brand I found is called ZOLLIPOPS the clean teeth pops and they are supposed to be helpful in clean teeth. They have their own taste and are not as good as brushing, but they are soooo much better then not brushing (or brushing and making yourself miserable)

If you can't tell from this list, I mostly have a problem with the taste, but there is other (better) advice out there somewhere.

(I also have a whole other list for remember to brush your teeth, so if you want that one, let me know.

I have trouble taking care of my teeth because everything that involves doing that is a sensory nightmare. I decide to do some research to see if there's anything I can do about this. The results?

"How to make your autistic child brush their teeth"

"Autistic Children and Sensory issues relating to tooth brushing"

"How to get your little shit to brush his fucking teeth"

Like, yeah Google, thanks, that really helps. And like, even if I was a child, some of the advice seemed... unhelpful. Like, doing a dance and singing a song while brushing your teeth? Even for a kid, I don't think that would help distract from a sensory experience as intense as brushing your teeth. Like, the extremely intense and unpleasant flavor, the intense feeling of the brush against your teeth scraping across it, even mouthwash has such an intense and disgusting flavor that I have difficulty keeping it in my mouth for more than a few seconds. I wish there was SOMETHING that could be done.

Me whenever people be talking about dumb shit at work, like bitch I DON"T GIVE A SINGLE FUCK ABOUT YOUR LIFE, GO AWAY, then I calm down and feel a little bad, ONLY a little though

it bothers me so much when "mental health advocates" are only supportive of the "acceptable" symptoms and disorders...

people who "advocate" for depression but call others disgusting for having trouble showering, or people who "advocate" for trauma survivors but say you shouldnt express your trauma in art or talk about it because its "triggering"...

people who "advocate" for BPD but demonize NPD and ASPD as if they arent in the same cluster...

people "support mental health" until it isnt relatable. people "support mental health" until it cant be romanticized. people "support mental health" until symptoms disrupt life. people "support mental health" until symptoms are noticeable and not easily hidden.

you are not an advocate if you do not advocate for us all. you cannot be a mental health advocate while also talking badly about people with personality disorders, including ASPD and NPD. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you make fun of autistic people who are visibly autistic. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you call the police on someone with psychosis for talking to themselves in public.

if your entire "advocacy" revolves around demonizing more "severe" symptoms or disorders, and romanticizing the "good" and "relatable" symptoms or disorders, you are not an ally. you are feeding into stereotypes.

i have ASPD and NPD. the amount of hate i see in "advocate" spaces is honestly shocking. if your entire advocacy revolves around "helping depressed autistics escape evil narcissists!!!!", you are not an advocate, you are ableist.

people with stigmatized disorders or symptoms should not have to water down the way they experience life and describe their personal symptoms and experiences just to avoid being called bad people. by demonizing some disorders while romanticizing others under the guise of "advocacy", you are spreading misinformation and reinforcing stereotypes. you are worsening the stigma for people who already struggle. you are harming everyone with struggles, because a lot of society does not see a difference of "good" vs "bad" mental illness. to ableist neurotypicals, we are all bad.

you hurt the entire community by excluding your own.

you advocate for all of us, or you help none of us.

it makes me kind of sad to see how many people online make fun of autism depictions in media... even the "stereotypical" ones. i often see people make fun of media with autistic characters (either canon described as autistic, or heavy implications and autistic traits) and then say its because its "inaccurate" and "stereotypical" and "overexaggerated" like... are we ignoring the fact that some autistic people do present that way?

my personal example of this is the tv show the good doctor, i watched the first couple seasons when i was like 14ish and first coming to terms with my autism diagnosis (before that point i had done everything i could to ignore it, and my mom had hidden the fact that i was diagnosed from me for a few years because she didnt want me to feel bad... i was diagnosed around age 10 and really would have benefitted from support, but never got any)

i am aware that the show doesnt have the best representation and isnt the most accurate, and i do wish the actor who played the character had been autistic, for better representation as well as promoting autistic actors... but i still loved the show, medical science is a special interest of mine and i have wanted to be a surgeon ever since i was very little, so i really liked to see a show about a topic i love that shows someone like me being successful! i was very happy!

later on i ended up going online and searching the show, all i saw were people making fun of the show and making fun of the character for autism things... all done under the "nobody actually acts like that" argument... it really did hurt me a lot, because i actually act like that. a lot of the struggles the character had are real struggles i face as an autistic person, even if the show doesnt always represent them the best

i struggle with making friends, i struggle with physical touch, i struggle with saying the "wrong" thing and not really knowing how to converse (especially in emotional situations), i am monotone, i need rigid routines, etc etc... so i was very happy to see a show with someone like me!! and it makes me sad how many people make fun of it with the excuse of "nobody is actually like that" because yes! people are! i am!

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I love when you ask me questions about me or my special interests (i.e. Tokyo Ghoul and The Avengers)

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This is an introduction to myself, this will most likely be updated often

Name(s):

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Esmeray/Esy, Ramzi/Rams/Remy, Leviathan/Levi, Messiah/Messy/Mess, Azail, Abiko, Atlas, Cass/Caz/Kaz/etc, Kanik, Echo, Dusk, Blitz, Bee, Fallow, Dakota, Yoru, Yoake, Dusty, Karsyn, Moss, Tundra, Void, Salem, Vex, Akumu, Yami, Makkuro, Aka, and Prinxe/Prince

Salem - Peace

Ramzi - Quiet

Messiah - Savior (biblically anyway; I'm not Christian, I'm an Atheistic Satanist)

Azail - The Angel of Death

Makkuro - Darkness (or Pitch Black)

Akumu - Demon (I think)

Esmeray - Dark Moon

Abiko - Peaceful

Fallow - Leader

Yoru - Dark

Yoake - Dawn

Nickname(s):

Bub

Prinxe

My Sweet Creature

Black Reaper

Grim Reaper

My Beloved

Words:

Masculine

Androgynous

Monster-esc

Void-related/Void-esc

Nouns:

Handsome

Pretty

Cute

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Your Majesty

Prinxe

Comrade

Mr.

Mx.

[No Prefix]

Sir

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Person

Buddy

Man

Dude

Bro

Pal

Creature

Friend

Beloved

Commitment-Buddy

Boyfriend

Partner

Darling

Girlfriend (jokes only)

Mist Creature

Enbyfriend

Husband

Datefriend

Age: 15

DoB: **/**/2008

Wished DoB: 31/10/2007

Zodiac Sign: ♑ Capricorn

Wished Zodiac Sign: ♏ Scorpio

Ethnicity: 🇩🇪🇷🇺🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿

Sex/Assigned at Birth: a**ab

Gender(s); Gender Collecter <3

Agender-

Gendervoid-

Genderflux-

Voidere- A nonhuman gender that feels like there’s only a void, or black hole, where a person should be. It feels as though it cannot be explained in human terms. The user may feel like a personified shadow, black hole, void, or liminal space. It might also feel distant, distorted, and hard to define. Often connected to darkness, voids, shadow people, and black holes. Coined with void-related alterhumans in mind.

Sleepygender-

Softgender-

Leuboy- Info

Aerogender- it changes based on the setting or atmosphere one's in. This can refer to things like temperature, weather, time of day, time of year, elevation, etc. It can also refer to a more metaphorical atmosphere, such as one's level of comfort, emotions, or who they're around

Centigender-

Genderbee- is a xenogender that fels free, peaceful, and protected, but also painful. It may be considered a subset to buggender. It may also be a kingender, but does not have to be.

Mothic gender- a gender related to moths

Soft-Stormgender- While it is similar to other genders related to the rain, storms, etc., it is differentiated from them by encompassing all of the main ideas surrounding storms and cold weather, while also incorporating the emotional aesthetic and nostalgic feeling of being safe, warm, and indoors during a storm.

Neutrois- Neutrois Definition

Novarian- Novarian Definition

Pronouns:

Most Liked to least Liked, per/ section

Miscellaneous-

It/It/Its'/It's/Itself

:]/:]/:]s'/:]'s/:]self

:[/:[/:[s'/:['s/:[self

They/Them/Their/Theirs/Themself

Goat-

bleat/bleat/bleats/bleats/bleatself

baa/baa/baas/baas/baaself

buck/buck/bucks/bucks/buckself

ram/ram/rams/rams/ramself

sheep/sheep/sheeps/sheeps/sheepself

horn/horn/horns/horns/hornself

goat/goat/goats/goats/goatself

wool/wool/wools/wools/woolself

Feline & Canine-

feral/feral/ferals/ferals/feralself

kit/kit/kits/kits/kitself

purr/purr/purrs/purrs/purrself

claw/claw/claws/claws/clawself

paw/paw/paws/paws/pawself

mew/meow/mews/meows/mewself (meowself)

cub/cub/cubs/cubs/cubself

snarl/snarl/snarls/snarls/snarlself

fluff/fluff/fluffs/fluffs/fluffself

fur/fur/furs/furs/furself

bark/bark/barks/barks/barkself

wolf/wolf/wolfs/wolfs/wolfself

lycan/lycan/lycans/lycans/lycanself

Other Animals/Creatures-

creature/creature/creatures/creatures/creatureself

monster/monster/monsters/monsters/monsterself

moth/moth/moths/moths/mothself

ghoul/ghoul/ghouls/ghouls/ghoulself

bat/bat/bats/bats/batself

fox/fox/foxs/foxs/foxself

bug/bug/bugs/bugs/bugself

feather/feather/feathers/feathers/featherself

wing/wing/wings/wings/wingself

ghost/ghost/ghosts/ghosts/ghostself

Minecraft-

voi/void/void/voids/voidself

chao/chaos/chaos/chaos/chaoself

static/static/statics/statics/staticself

virus/virus/virus/virus/viruself

[redacted]/[redacted]/[redacted]/[redacted]s/[redacted]self

glitch/glitch/glitches/glitches/glitchself

3rr0r/3rr0r/3rr0rs/3rr0rs/3rr0rself

corrupt/corrupt/corrupts/corrupts/corruptself

*vroop*/*vwoop*/*vroops*/*vwoops*/*vwoopself*

ender/ender/enders/enders/enderself

end/end/ends/ends/endself

shulk/shulk/shulks/shulks/shulkself

disc/disc/discs/discs/discself

fire/fire/fires/fires/fireself

death/death/deaths/deaths/deathself

slime/slime/slimes/slimes/slimeself

snow/snow/snows/snows/snowself

honk/honk/honks/honks/honkself

cloud/could/clouds/clouds/cloudself

txt/txt/txts/txts/txtself

Night/Night/Nights/Nights/Nightself

Lucid/Lucid/Lucids/Lucids/Lucidself

Night/Terror/Nighterrors/Nightterrors/Nighterrorself

Night/Mare/Nightmares/Nightmares/Nightmareself

Deity/Deity/Deitys/Deitys/Deityself

Gore & Night-

blood/blood/bloods/bloods/bloodself

💉/💉/💉s/💉s/💉self

freak/freak/freaks/freaks/freakself

gore/gore/gores/gores/goreself

⚠️/⚠️/⚠️s/⚠️s/⚠️self

☢️/☢️/☢️s/☢️s/☢️self

🌕/🌖/🌗/🌘/🌑self

💤/💤/💤s/💤s/💤self

corpse/corpse/corpses/corpses/corpself

Radio/Radium/Radios/Radioactives/Radioactiveself

Abyss/Abyss/Abyssal/Abyssals/Abyssalself

deca/decay/decays/decays/decayself

Pill/Pill/Pills/Pills/Pillself

Poison/Poison/Poisons/Poisons/Poisonself

Bite/Bite/Bites/Bites/Biteself

Bru/Bruise/Bruises/Bruises/Bruiseself

Choke/Choke/Chokes/Chokes/Chokeself

vamp/vamp/vamps/vamps/vampself

Shade/Shade/Shades/Shades/Shadeself

Warm/Warm/Warms/Warms/Warmself

spooky/spook/spookys/spooks/spookyself (spookself)

Moon/Moon/Moons/Moons/Moonself

I continue to add pronouns here that I'm experimenting and/or feel comfortable with! You can also ask me how to use any of my pronouns!!~

Likes:

Small mammals, reptiles, centipedes, bugs, animals, and mythology

Dislikes:

Speaking, people who hate on other because of something they can't control, spiders and roaches, showing my face, and talking about personal stuff (unless venting)

⚠️if you kin spiders and/or roaches you are entirely fine⚠️

Links to My Other Accounts!

(You may ask for specific one)

Wattpad

Other Tumblr

Ao3

Pinterest

DeviantArt

Pronouns.page

Twitch

Tiktok

Sexual Attraction(s):

Link: Asexual Labels Explained Using Cereal

Quoisexual- You have no idea if you like a cereal because you want to eat it, or if you just think the box art is pretty. Does liking the box art count as wanting to eat it? Do you just like the mascot? Does liking the mascot count as wanting to eat the cereal? After reading everything I’ve written, you are still confused. You bang your head against the pantry in frustration.

Aceflux- None of the cereal looks good, so you close the pantry. A few days later, you decide to open the pantry again. Now, some of those brands look appetizing. You check the pantry again the next day. None of the cereal looks good anymore.

Aegosexual- Eating cereal sounds fun in theory but not in practice. You certainly have no interest in eating cereal yourself. You’d rather fantasize about other people eating cereal, thankyouverymuch. 

Romantic Attraction(s):

Link:

Aromanticflux-

Omniromantic- describes someone who is romantically attracted to all genders and can or does have a preference (in my case; women, rose-boys/feminine men, and enbys/non-men & non-women)

Cupioromantic- describes a person who desires a romantic relationship but doesn't experience romantic attraction to others

Reciproromantic- describes someone who does not experience romantic attraction to someone until they know that the person is attracted to them

Platonic Attraction(s):

Link:

Aplatonic

Platonicflux

Sensual Attraction(s):

Link:

Asenspike

Special Interest(s):

Tokyo Ghoul

Marvel (Avengers)

The Jurassic Movies

The Octonauts (yes it might be a kids show but I absolutely love it)

Monster High

DSMP/OSMP

Percy Jackson

SCP Foundation

Astesthic(s):

Dark Academia

Chaos Academia

Gothic Victorian

Fantasy

Voidpunk

What I Want to Be Perceived As:

[There will *eventually* be a master-post link here]

Theriotypes (Therian):

/ques = questioning

/con = confirmed

/gene = generally speaking

Alexander Archipelago Wolf /con

Norwegian Forest Cat /con

Turkish Angora /con

Bengal /ques

Serval /ques

Centipede /con /gene

Moth /ques

Goat /con /gene

Cow /ques

Sheep /ques

Kintypes (Otherkin):

Snow/Ice Dragon /con

Shadow/Darkness Dragon /con

Bastardized Wendigo/Skullbeast /con

Divinebeast /con /gene

Feral Ghoul /con

TG Ghoul (Tokyo Ghoul) /con

Monster /con /gene

PJO Original Character /con

Original Characters /con

Kaneki Ken /con /gene

Living Dead Girl! 🧟‍♀️🧠

okay fellow autistics & people who have sensory issues or trouble eating specific foods: hear me out.

I’ve been trying my best to eat more fruits & vegetables & more generally “healthy” food (I don’t think we should label specific foods as “good” or “bad” because food at all is better than no food etc, but that’s besides the point) & I’ve realised something.

If I pretend to be a specific animal while eating a certain food, it can be marginally easier to eat. HEAR ME OUT, OKAY?! Put away the reactionary part of you that goes “wow, that’s cringe”, because this genuinely helps me. I don’t care if you laugh, grow up.

For example, if I pretend I’m a bunny rabbit while eating celery or lettuce, it sort of becomes fun! It turns into me playing a part in my head, kind of. I also do this with sultana bran/raisin bran kind of cereal, where I’m like “hehe this looks like bird/rabbit food” & it becomes easier!

I just thought I’d share this trick in case it helps anyone else. It’s alright if it doesn’t help you, but I’m proud of the efforts you’re making to get better at eating certain foods, it’s not easy. & if you’re finding it hard to start trying foods out of your comfort zone, I’m proud of you as well 💕💕