Where Every Scroll is a New Adventure
let's meet inside of your mind I want to fight the demons which haunt you at night let me become a part of you like you've become a part of me I bet your soul is soft and sweet like honey when it touches your lips I would stroke it tenderly until I start to understand the universe it carries inside
and even after you are gone and we leave what we called perfect I'll still know the feeling of you the softness and beauty and where your secret parts are buried like a treasure I'll still know you and remember the better part of me will always be you
It is insane how intense I feel your skin on mine even after you left I feel your hands which grab me tight and close like it wasn't your phantom which drives his fingers over my body
How all the water in the world isn’t enough to clean my skin from your touches which imprinted on my body and cover me with paintings I could never draw on my own
“I love you" seemed so scary to say you took the fear gifted me the words I've never heard leaving someone mouth Yet by touching your lips, I knew it wasn't a lie you told me it was your heart you offered
there is no space between our hands yet all I feel is emptiness promising touches holding me and whispering I am safe I am allowed to lose control I am allowed to let myself fall
while all I touch are empty hands, fading through my skin, not able to carry a single finger of mine so how can I expect from you to carry my world, while you already gave up on yours?
You are so terrifying and beautiful to love I am so afraid and yet so full of lust Let me call your name every second of the day until it will become a second part of me
respect is not love and not a quality to fall for it’s a simple thing an act of human decency so don’t fool yourself by thinking they are the one only because they are human and know how to act like one
I used to feel so deeply for you but now I am confused about the love that I felt about the love that I lost
I used to feel so strong with my heart dancing in fire it never burned out it never lost its desire
I used to feel so passionate like it was only you and me passionate about us passionate about who we could be
Now I feel nothing of the things that I used to feel I stare into your eyes black holes, just as dead as mine
How could we become these deadly boring people? Weren't we the ones which used to breathe through kisses?
How could we lose all of this and slowly become enemies? we stopped to dance in our light we rather start wars in our shadow
How lovely it would be to go back to the art of passion but we buried it our fallen feeling of desire
I would love to allow me to be loved by you But honey, oh honey don’t doubt the loudness in my head words which scream how not enough I am over your words how much you adore me I want to let myself fall right into your arms where you would hold me tight and close but still every little bit of space would be just enough room to develop a black hole which teleport me right into my brain where my thoughts wait like thirsty wolves ready to punish me for letting myself fall for you
I am sorry but I am not going to make it Instead, I will float in the sea of unconsciousness and slowly drown to the sound of your voice I am sorry but I am not able to be yet I will rather remain as an ungrown flower and hide in the shadows hide from the sun hide from the rain only to avoid growing up and to stay a child I am sorry but I am not ready to fall this early because if I fall for you you are not able to catch me and I can't fly yet I am sorry but I am not ready to leave my nest yet I am not ready to fly not ready to grow not ready to be the human you try to see in me
Show me your darkness You try to light up Let me dance with your shadows Instead of sunbathe in your light Tell me your secrets So I can fall in love With the person you hate yourself the most for Let me exchange your idea of your ugliness With the beauty, there is behind
Stay right here I am not going to leave yet Just promise me one thing That you would do the same And stay here until Our feelings collabs I want to feel you close Your head on my chest Counting the beats of my heart Not knowing that with every beat I get closer to fall for you I need to find your heart So I can watch you fall Just like you watch me
It is another kind of heartbreak to realize that I still haven’t found the soul I am searching for in the person, I hoped so much would reflect my perception of perfection after spending so much time searching in empty faces and beliving that this one has a heart that would mirror my own Just to see they are just another empty face in the crowd of lost lovers I got lost in as well Only this time I painted their face so it is easier to pretend and hold onto something that isn’t even there It is so tiring to search without finding or find without keeping because even if they leave it wouldn’t be their missing that would hurt but knowing that nothing has changed I am still on my journey through empty faces until finding the other wanderer who searches for a face in so much emptiness as well
Falling in love is its own kind of violence
"Distance is pain"
you said
So I told you
that someday
we would be together
and "someday" would bring
the brightest stars
and the deepest talks
A little infinity
in our little amount
of time
You You’ve made me feel everything for you. You After all these years who thought this was possible? Not me. At first I didn’t even believe myself. But you. You ended up not feeling the same for me. And you. That tore a little bit of my heart to know that. You. I fucking love you.
Sofia d.s