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if it hurts so bad,
there's nowhere to go but up.
if you've gotten better before,
you can find strength again.
rock bottom's basements have stairs
that only lead up
into bliss.
it won't hurt like this forever.
you'll find the light
and it will feel euphoric.
Don't sabotage your future peace because familiar chaos is comfortable.
Take guns away from honest people and only criminals will have them. Make laws criminals will abide by. Laws are not for criminals. Think people, guns are not the problem. #washingtondc #marchforourlives #nra #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #psychotic #psychopathic #bully #bullying #criminalshavenolaws #lawsforcriminals #lawscriminalswillabide #schoolshooting #morelawsforcriminals #honestpeoplelose #moregunlawswontsolveanything #takethegunsandonlycriminalswillhavethem #marchmadness #marchmarchmarch #protest #rally (at Washington, District of Columbia)
We often see what we want to see, and we all have our own inherent bias and pattern recognition. That said, I went in cold turkey to the movie Thunderbolts* when my daughter and I went to see it recently. I didn't watch any trailers, avoided spoilers, etc.
And what I saw was me.
Here's My Short Spoiler-Free Review:
I was not at all expecting the amount of depth the story has
There are some very authentic-feeling portrayals of living with mental illness
It was fucking awesome
And My Slightly Longer And Still Not Very Spoilery Review:
As a person who lives with mental illness, I got to see A LOT of what I feel, have felt, have experienced reflected in a certain character's own experiences. And their journey isn’t just an inclusivity checkmark; it’s the core of the movie. I think a lot of people will see themselves reflected here, and by not explicitly stating this character’s diagnosis, they allow the story to include anyone who lives with mental illness, addictions, trauma.
And all of the thoughtful and nuanced handling of mental health notwithstanding, this is just a great movie all around. You should go see it.
Me to myself, most days.
Beverly Crusher being a whole mood
Now *this* is a day I can get behind! For introverts, recharging our batteries isn't a luxury; it's a requirement to stay healthy. So for anyone observing or interested, get your hot cup of whatever, your things that recharge you (book, music, warm bath, yoga, netflix binge, etc), and enjoy a day dedicated to refueling yourself. #worldintrovertday #introvert #introverts #introvertsuniteseparatelyinyourownhomes #mentalhealth #selflove #selfcare https://www.instagram.com/raistlinsghost/p/CYPRu7_JUxl/?utm_medium=tumblr
This is a tough season for a lot people. Please be kind to yourself. Do what you are able when you can, and accept that it's ok when you can't. You'll get through this. And if it helps, enjoy a smile wherever possible. (It's the unicorn's eyes that sell this one for me 😂) #mentalhealth #bekindtoyourself #mentalhealthdoesnttakeaholiday #mentalhealthadvocate https://www.instagram.com/p/CXoB3VkraZw/?utm_medium=tumblr
But what if it's been with you so long that you can't remember who that person was? #mentalillness #mentalhealth https://www.instagram.com/p/CU7WLa9rYVGE5ogp7qASs3NNWjv8j_dHfoVKW80/?utm_medium=tumblr
I'm a work in progress these days. Maybe all days. And if so, I'm ok with that. Just wanted to share this pic, to let those who love and support me know that I'm trying, and to let anyone else who is struggling know that they aren't alone. #mentalhealth https://www.instagram.com/p/B3GSRVuBGp4/?igshid=19xku8pnp969b
It took me a long time to be okay with this truth. I'm there now. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmeme #anxiety #depressionhelp #anxietyrelief https://www.instagram.com/p/B2R5FR_BB64/?igshid=j9oouszbf2hw
Throwback to my old therapist who told me I shouldn't kill myself, becouse she'd get in trouble with her boss.
Hope she's doing okay
My family: *calls me lazy for not doing anything all day*
Me who has been putting all energy in not Kermitting the self deletus:
Corona and quarantine have taken a huge toll on all of us and a lot of people have developed depression becouse of this.
The first year of a depression disorder is the most Chaotic and scary, that Is why I want to give you all some advice on how to deal with it.
Extra note, these are things that work for me, everyone is different and experiences depression different so it is possible that my ways may not work for you, and that is okay, well find something that does work.
1. Get enough rest. You are going through a fucking pandemic while dealing with a mental disorder That is from itself already draining your energy. So please make sure to get that extra nap when you need it.
2. Stay active. Maybe a weird one to come after I said to get rest but it's important. When you feel depressed you probably want to stay in bed all day, however this will just make you feel worse. You don't have to walk a marathon everyday, even just sitting outside for a bit can be enough.
3. Hygiëne. Taking care of your hygiene while being depressed is a literal pain in the ass, so don't feel bad if taking a shower or brushing your teeth is too much, go ahead and wear the same depression hoodie for a month. But quickly rinsing your teeth with a wet toothbrush is better than nothing, just plashing water on your face and armpits is beter than nothing. I do Realy recommend trying to wear clean underwear everyday, believe me you don't want to go there.
4. Eat. For most people depression takes away their appetite, that's completely understandable, however you do need food to survive, I recommend that when you manage to go to the grocery store you get some easy meals and snacks. It might not be the most "healthy" but you're focusing on surviving. You also deserve your favorite treat so go get that as well.
5. Also eat. For others depression makes them eat even more. That is completly understandable, you are surviving, so please do not feel bad about the vew pounds you may have gained. You're doing the best you can, you can focus on eating more "healthy" when you feel better.
6. Reflecting moments. Take time out of everyday to reflect on your day and how you're feeling, when you become more aware of your feelings and possible triggers.
7. Keep a journal. To get back to the last one, writing down how you feel is a great way to keep track of your emotions, it's also a amazing way to let go of those thoughts. You don't have to write in it every day, just when you feel like you need to write stuff down.
8. Don't feel bad. Please please please try not to talk yourself down. I know it's easier said than done but it is so important. You are dealing with a mental illness, which is a actual illness. You are doing the best you can. If you can only lay in bed for a week that's totaly okay, if you can only sit and play games, that's great. As long as you're getting through the days you're already doinh amazing and I am so proud of you. Just focus on surviving for now, you'll get to live again one day. I promise.
9. Find stuff that helps you cope. Finding healthy coping meganisms is one of the most important things to do. It will help you through the hard days, I know it's tempting to go for the unhealthy coping meganisms and if thats the only thing helping right now then no one will blame you. But please do try to go for the healthy ones, the unhealthy ones will only course more problems later in life. (believe me, I know)
10. Get therapy. If you have acces to therapy please do seek it. I know it sounds scary and maybe you feel like you can do it on your own but please do find a therapist. Also important to note, find a therapist you like and who actualy helps you. Don't feel bad if you have to send a therapist away, they're here to help you get better and if one of them does not fit you it's in both your best interest to go look for a other one.
I hope this will help, if you have questions or you want extra help do not be afraid to send me a message.
I am in no way a licensed therapist, I am not trained to deal with triggering content or dangerous situations, so if you do want to talk aboht that kind of stuff please put a trigger warning at the beginning so I know what I can expect. Also please do not take my words as the only truth, I'm only human and as I said before, what helps for others might not help for you.
I love you all, I am so proud of you all, I hope we'll all be able to return to our lives soon
Being a neurodivergent person living with or just being around neurotypicals means you need to compromise a lot.
The compromises being you finding ways to cope with your shit without being a burden to the neurotypicals.
Becouse God forbids they show basic human compassion.
So anyway people are being loud again and now I'm a bitch
Having mental illness or mental disabilities culture is knowing exactly what you need to cope but not being able to tell others becouse you know you won't get that support.
What my family thinks i think when I'm in my room: boy I sure love being surrounded by trash, no tidy life for this kid!
How my acrualy goes: I can't fucking believe this fucking mess, is it that hard to keep my room clean for once?? The laundry basket is literially a vew steps away, this stuff can be put back in their place within second, so why can't I keep it fucking clean. I literially am the most worthless person ever
That moment when you realise what you could have done with your life if you didnt have a mental illness.
Whack
A couple of sketches from tonight's #sitelines art drop-in. @centre3_ @sitelinescentre3 . A great free art environment for those with lived experience of mental illness. Art therapy is a great way to calm the mind. #arttherapy #mindfullnessart #mentalhealth (at Sitelines) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzrCE0KnWzV/?igshid=1wzosumrdb1bg
A piece I've been working on for a few weeks - finally done. An amalgam of some thoughts and images I deal with thru my depression and other issues relating to recovery. Though high functioning at times, it can also be debilitating for long stretches. Death is a major theme. #mentalhealth #sitelines #centre3 #suicideideation #suicidethoughts #depression #anxiety #sweetrelease #highfunctioningdepression #arttherapy #mindfulness #artasrelease (at Sitelines) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqYPx-5BIvT/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ruzwhni0vxrt
3 and a half bags of donations prepared for 3 of the community groups I frequently attend and receive so much from. Time to give back a little. Mostly art related supplies. Though I've also included some personal care products that are always in need by MHRC. #sitelines thru @centre3_ , @thelostorganization and #mentalhealthrightscoalition I will also be making a small cash donation to @harrrp since I do pottery there. And they offer a lot more programs. My thanks to all of these organizations who have helped me and many others in our community, especially those dealing with mental health issues. All of you are very much appreciated. I hope that others reading this post will also consider making a contribution. #hamont #hamiltonontario #arttherapy #charity #charitydonation #mentalhealth #mhrc (at Hamilton, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnJrjzknVel/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=kgsfec91y4vz
The average life expectancy Of a person with bipolar Is 67 years. I gotta get things moving Since I'm already running out of Time. If my life ends early, I have to make sure It was all worth living.
I wish more people knew how affected our emotions and emotional responses are by ADHD. Everyone will experience their ADHD differently, so feel free to cross out what applies to you! I’ve only recently started externalizing emotions again and..it’s crazy how much energy I put into holding it all back - without great success. Here’s my patreon! (is this a smooth topic change?)
“I want to inspire people. I want people to look at me and say “because of you I didn’t give up.””
— Unknown
Most of all you’re acquainted with how to eat the right foods and all sorts of tangible things. But there are things that can affect your mental health negatively. Here are ways to reduce your exposure to them.
My mom’s worried
my mom’s worried that I haven’t eaten for the last 24 hours, she’s right— I haven’t.
probably even longer.
she’s right to be worried, I mean, if I was her I’d think I was starving to d!e. she’d be right.
I think she knows.
Does a mom know? Does she want to know?
I’m at a point where I don’t care. I just want to end my misery— by hoping I drown in a pool of my tears, waiting for the water to burn my skin until it uncovers the raw bone that’s peering out of my elbows every time I breathe a bit harder.
Just let me end it already.
I’ve gotten used to being treated this way
I’ve gotten used to being ignored, of having my hellos be greeted with rolled eyes.
I’ve gotten used to my palms being stained with ink from letters I stayed up writing until dawn, waiting by the mailbox just to never get any letters written back.
I’ve gotten used to being as nice as I can be, and getting called unauthentic.
I’ve gotten used to you ignoring me as we pass through the hallway, as I sat alone on graduation day holding my own hand because no one wanted to hold mine.
I’ve gotten used to always being the one who messages first, and waiting for a reply until a new moon passes us by.
But maybe it’s time I get used to loving myself enough, to not make myself endure all of this. When will it be my turn to grow? To be apart from your shadow? Maybe it’s time to let go.
I wonder if you know
I wonder if you know which song is about you, which letter is written for you, which smile comes from you, which gift under the millions were from me.
Wait no— you don’t actually pay attention. Because last time I asked how you liked the gift I sent you, you forgot it was from me. So, I stopped asking.
So, I stopped texting, stopped calling. and there was silence without your laughter. Laughs that weren't meant for me.
I skipped so that you could have it
I skipped lunch because this week we couldn't afford groceries, so i put back the butter on the conveyer belt so it wouldn't scan towards the $10 i had in my pocket. I skipped breakfast and lunch so they wouldn't worry about how many bowls they had left for dinner, as my stomach ached in pain and I could feel it in my throat. my stomach turned itself around until I had to lay back down to be able to feel the ground again. head reeling, face flushed, and eyes rolling over until the dizziness made me feel numb. i skipped the thought of wanting to eat so no one would worry if the food was about to go to waste, and be wasted on me particularly. how many bowls until i'm actually done with the thought of having to think about the next bowl and how many bowls we could have altogether.
I had assumed
My bad— I had assumed we were closer than I thought we were. nights holding hands as the cold air crisped our noses, tears running down my face, arms intertwined, and your jacket on my shoulders.
I’m sorry— I had assumed we were close. nights crying on the phone until the sun rose to remind us to go back to bed. nights on the bench crying until 3am because he dumped you for another athlete.
I fear— I’ve assumed we were close. days sitting on the grass unveiling our fears that we’ve never told anyone else. laughing until we told ourselves it’s not worth it to k-ll ourselves right now.
I didn’t know— we weren’t as close as you said we were. And I’m sorry, I didn’t catch myself sooner.