Insominac - Blog Posts

Sometimes when I have a hard time sleeping at night I try to imagine the person I want to be someday. Whether that be in my clothing, my lifestyle, where I live, or the kind of people I hope to be surrounded by someday.

Recently that’s been in the form of mapping out what tattoos I would want. I am unfortunately lacking in disposable income but I know that I will be getting:

1) the follie a deux bears with some minor posing changes on my thigh

2) “one day I am gonna grow wings” on my ribs on one side and the word wings will be underneath the rest of the text and look like cutie sweetie beautiful ethereal angelic fairy wings with a corresponding set of wings on my back

3) little stars/sparks on the other side of my ribs inspired by Bakugo from MHA.

It may be one year, it may be three years, it may never even happen.

But maybe one day I will :)

Does anyone else feel like crap when an acquaintance or "friend" tells you they're going somewhere with friends and asks you if you want to join out of respect or something?

I feel like shit honestly

Why invite me last minute?

Now everyone is uncomfortable for a few moments before leaving me behind since I'm not technically not part of the group that's been together since middle school or something

i wont stay up late, again!

and then i stay up late again.

ass kicking insomnia + mothers constant snoring = fucking help

it’s nearly 3 in the morning and im sat on the floor of the bathroom in this shitty hotel room I have to share with my mum and my aunt

im going to fucking kms istf I can’t do this

Reposting this as it's 5:25am and we haven't slept /silly

This is us constantly so made a userbox for it

TW: Referenced/Implied self harm

So, these little guys may as well be a parasite, but I have made so many drawings of these guys over the last two days. I'm probably not going to stop any time soon, considering I want to make reference sheets for them to look like if they were actually in the game, so watch out for those soon, I will probably go in order of Coco, Azazel than Drina. But for now, just enjoy the two pages of drawing/doodles I have made of these guys. (Also don't mind the weird creature that looks this hatred from Block Tales next to Azazel)

The sleepy insomniac trying to sleepy without a ghost ruining it (fyi it doesn’t work)

Another absolutely gorgeous piece from @tsubaki94

Villanelle/Jodie Comer never disappoints

I loved you, I always will,

and that’s the problem

because the sad reality is

that I’ll love you way more

than I will ever love myself..

MSI

<If Only>

I'm drawing an insomniac

Not finished yet, hopefully will update. I find those closeups somewhat funny

My Batman line Art in Pen.

I just made coffee with coffee. this is a new low.

3:19 AM What’s around me is sleep. What’s within me are thoughts dancing on songs I hate to hear.

3:20 AM now And I’m done with this prose— or to put it right, I’m done with this observation.

update found out that it wasn’t just breaking my fast that fucked up my stomach, but also the norovirus so that was a great experience.

I’m doing better now, however my sister accidentally caught it from me so now she’s sick. I took a little bit of a break from posting so that I could recover as all I could do was drink water, sleep, drink more water, vomit, drink even more water then sleep for 10 hours and sleep be exhausted when I get up.

I will say it was nice to sleep so much as I have reallllly bad insomnia and rarely get to sleep more than 2-3 hours. Most of the time I might be able to get 3 hours of sleep but it’s with periods of wakefulness. I feel like every 10 minutes of sleep I get I can’t sleep for 20-30 minutes, I’ve been off of melatonin for a while now just to give my body a break from it as in high school I was taking waay more then the recommended amount for someone of my height and weight.

Yall I broke my fast/ diet restriction and I regret it soo much. Not just because of my weight loss goals, but mainly because everything that I had( which wasn’t much) fucked with my stomach so badly

Me writing

or just me at 3am

You will not use AI to get ideas for your story. You will lie on the floor and have wretched visions like god intended