I Miss It - Blog Posts

I had this very weird period last summer during which I went on walk around the village I used to live in while listening to music. That in itself isn't weird, but I did that while listening to Little Nightmares 1 & 2 music. And it was so weird because I was so very relaxed, too- like, you'd think that taking a walk in a near-empty village while listening to horror game music would be uncomfortable, right? But no. I was just. Relaxed. With my earbuds. Slowly walking down the streets. Seeing slugs and other grass animals and bugs on the side of the road. Would recommend. Has its eerie moments (like the one time I found a dead bird- the music definitely enhances the experience lmao) but overall has to be the habit I was the saddest to lose after moving away for uni.

such a classic kim-ron moment, probably my fave line from the live-action movie

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE TELL ME IM NOT THE ONLY ONE

I miss all trafficsmp seasons already 😭😭😭

MY SO JUST REOPENED MY BRAIN TO HOT WHEELs

I NEED TO WATCH THAT ONE HOTWHEES MOVIE AGAIN OHMYGOAD ITJHVNJFB

I LOVE HOTWHEELS

missing my bangs rn

are people still in the rise fandom?

Now that we don't talk anymore, I can't help but wonder if I wander through his mind like he does on mine?

I miss them together

writing at 2am, listening to claire de lune, wishing my lover had fallen asleep beside me tonight.

reblog this and tag with a food you no longer have access to (closed restaurant, state you moved away from, ex’s mom’s cooking, etc) that will haunt you until your dying day, mine are the spicy chicken sandwich on the employee menu at the fine dining restaurant I was a prep cook at, and the onion bagel from the kosher place down the street from my house when I lived in the city

THIS IS LITERALLY ME

p much

i finished yellowjackets for the 5th time and still cried like a baby bc im in DENIAL that it’s over and i have to wait like 2 years for season 4 which hasn’t even been renewed 💔💔💔

I am lowkey gonna miss these quarantine days.

you know what i loved about IP?

at the start, the episodes were just showing how hard everyone was working and the struggles all the trainees were going through 

but towards the end of the show, every episode was a 3 hour long meme-show with cold-jokes and stupid ass puns and bromances with shade being thrown left and right and people exposing each other all the time 

like even zhang pd was getting in on the ‘huba’ train, bu fan x xiao gui daily violence, cai xukun x wang ziyi x zhu zhengting love triangle family with their son qian zhenghao, zhu zhengting and his actual kids the yuehua sprouts, you zhangjng x lin yanjun couple goals, everybody loving xu shengen, everyone acknowledging that zhu xingjie is such a well-rounded artist and so much more 

MEME FACES ALL AROUND THERE WAS NO ONE LEFT OUT 

everyone genuinely supporting and hyping each other up in the waiting room?? like have you ever seen such a rowdy bunch of kids? every time there’s a performance based episode it was literally 5% rehearsal, 1% performance and 100% screaming 

ghost pranks?? fat suits?? zhang yixing being a little shit and coming up with that idea to swap mentors just for reality show content?? 

all of that behind the scenes and interview content that was apparently uploaded but you had to go searching to the ends of the earth to find? 

everyone going to extraordinary lengths to help people out even if they were in another team? everyone was always so focussed on working together as a team and making sure they succeeded together 

people being genuinely devastated when their friends are eliminated and promising to keep in touch afterwards? 

it just shows how close everyone was after four months of training together and i don’t think i’ll ever watch a survival show again because i’ll never get the genuine joy that i had watching IP anymore 

as much as it was a survival competition it definitely didn’t feel like it and that in short is why i love IP so much and prefer it over any other survival show that i’ve watched 

me frantically reblogging things so people know i'm not a bot 😭

Some times I rly miss the glade!😭

I remember those five songs I shared with you,

the ones that showed how broken I was and

as we sat on your car staring at the navy blue sky,

the color it usually was at 3am,

I knew you understood

and I don’t think anyone ever will again...

MSI

<My Favorite Playlist is Filled With The Songs You Shared>

Transition from Camp to… the Real World?

I am honestly having a rough time transitioning from camp life to daily life. I lived and worked at camp from June through October and I find myself comparing life to camp. I went to wash the dishes: no Hobart, no closed toed shoes, no apron, and no shenanigans to the sound of Green Day or P!ATD. The TV in Shutanka usually had some sort of weird movie, a nature something, or a cartoon of some sort: the news is seriously depressing. Being myself with my coworkers and friends versus being "myself" with my family is strange. I miss campfires, late DnD sessions, and walking down the trail of happy feet just to get to my bed. I miss the crunch of gravel under my feet, the sound of the waves crashing on the bulkhead, and the still, cold mornings followed by breezey afternoons. But, here I am. I stayed with my sister about 30 minutes from camp for a few days, then I flew to California to stay with my Abuela, and in a little over a week I will fly back to Texas for Thanksgiving and Christmas.

Don't get me wrong, I love being with my extended family in Cali and I am definitely excited to be seeing my mom and brothers in the near future and I am stoked to hold my dog again. But I also cannot wait to go back to my island home at camp. I am having camp withdrawals and it's pretty rough.

Please someone bring me back my old fixation, I really miss it