saying "who said that" at the end of a sentence is a lot funnier when you're plural. who DID say that
not endo myself but these questions are cool and i want to talk about my system so weeeee here we go
🦴 - thatss a good question honestly... as far back as i remember? i know i discovered DID by watching some youtube videos at like 11 and relating to them, but didnt think much more of it until my diagnosis at 15
🪽 - around the time of my diagnosis, i realized i couldnt ignore it anymore, so instead decided to learn to function together
🪐 - uhhh i believe luci? or maybe lexa... luci is one of our gatekeepers, and lexa is the primary protector. they were the most active in communication when we first discovered the DID
🔭 - roughlyy around the time of first discovery?? we had a list of names in notes app, we later swapped to simplyplural around the time of diagnosis (it had just been released, i think?)
🕸️ - nonee, we dont intentionally create alters, but we do have TBMC trauma if that counts ?? like yes they were created kind of on purpose but not by us lol
🫀 - we do! i honestly dont know if any of it is intentionally built or not but uhh it is pretty large and only some of us can access it
🌙 - wedont create alters, but our new splits like looking at ID packs and stuff! we dont use bah blogs though hinestly im not sure what those are
🦇 - gonna use "created" to mean split here, we recently did split but the new split doesnt have a solid identity yet
🍂 - ithinkk ᏩᏯ was the first host?? at least to my knowledge
🌿 - usually ID packs or just searching around, sometimes we ask friends for suggestions
🐚 - none of us really? unless you count kylo, he types like a myspace teenager lol so "to" = 2 and "for" = 4 sometimes, and many "xD" "lolz" and similar. he only types like that sometimes though
🪶 - yes! some of us have accents we picked up from media or people we grew up around
🪦 - a former therapist, i think? we would occasionally join system discord servers before that point, though
🕸️ - i usuallyyy dont, i generally only tell people i consider very close! for general strangers or not close friends, ijust say i have a disorder that impacts my memory, since thats the most noticeable symptom i have... for close people though i generally just tell them that i have a DID diagnosis, most people have been very understanding
🕷️ - not reallyy?? unless you count alters cutting off people lol, but generally anyone we have told has been understanding :)
🔪 - yes! my 3 closest friends all know (one is also a system), as well as my boyfriend (he is plural as well, i remember when i first told him his reaction was "oh my god... me too" it was really funny since i had been genuinely nervous to tell him LOL)
targeted to endos , but anyone can use ! post made by an endo :)
— start .
🦴 : when did you first start feeling plural ?
🪽 : when did you finally accept your plurality ?
🪐 : who was the first alter your system found that wasn't the host ?
🔭 : when did you start keeping track of your alters ?
— creation .
🕸️ : how many of your headmates are created ?
🫀 : do you have a headspace ? if so , how much was built ?
🌙 : do you use bah blogs to help create alters ?
🦇 : who's your most recently created alter ?
— general .
🍂 : who was your first host ?
🌿 : how do you find the names of your alters ?
🐚 : how many of you have typing quirks ?
🪶 : do any of you have an accent ?
— friends .
🪦 : who was the first person to know about your plurality ?
🕸 : how do you tell new people about your plurality ?
🕷 : have you lost friends over your plurality ?
🔪 : are you out to people irl with your plurality ?
spirituality as a system is so funny because now i have to worry about introjecting a random deity. like what do you mean i can just be minding my business and now loki is in mybrain like PLEASEEE
romeo is crazy as a guy’s name bcuz it’s famously one of the most well known love stories between a man and a woman in history but if i were to meet a dude named romeo id probably assume he’s gay
made a meme for anyone else out there who gets stuck in the "it wasnt that bad!" or "maybe im not traumatized!" loops because trauma denial sucks ass!!! you all are valid!!!
happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!
not endo but sharing this + also adding on the note that a lot of their posts could be triggering to people with psychosis or paranoia, i checked their blog and YEAH! as a paranoid schizospec person... be cautious guys yeah
i& advise endos to block @ifuckinghateendos , some of their content is upsetting to see . this is not an invitation to harass them , i& assume they are a satirical blog .
stay safe , please !
"i love attention so much i might as well be an NPD symptom holder!! ..........wait a minute"
me when co-con alter has the NPD awakening
auhhh your blog is so pretty. basic template, either dealers choice headmade or a dsmp fictive of your choosing if that's okay!!
cutter+alex, he/him
YEAHH thank you!! i will do my best to do the dsmp fictive, but ive never actually watched it, so it may be a little off LOL i hope its okay though!! i read a wiki page for it LMAOO feel free to take what fits and leave what doesnt :) also SORRYY if any of this doesnt fully fit! i had a hard time thinking of some stuff...
name: ranboo, boo, ran, ender, allium / allie, quill, rainbow, raine, riley, vinyl, clue, mystery, seeker, sage, asher, lucas, eugene, cedar, charlie, olive / oliver / oli, crypt, grim
pronouns: end/ender, end/ends, love/loves, red/reds, green/greens, heart/hearts, kind/kinds, trance/trances, walk/walks, peace/peaceful or peace/peaces, dual/duality, purple/purples, pur/purple, boo/boos, book/books, page/pages, particle/particles, eye/eyes, glow/glows, tape/tapes
age: ageless, appears as young adult
role: protector, emotional regulator, insomnia holder, dissociation holder, anxiety holder, conflict resolver, caretaker
genders: genderfluid, nonbinary, enderwalkic, cryptidcatgender, liminalic, vimemorin, reidrovex, lostpoeic, panicgender, endposgender, lossgender, endrian
orientation: asexual panromantic
species: half enderman, enderwalker, cryptid
personality overview: loving / caring towards friends, can be assertive when needed and usually in the defense of close people, likes to talk things out whenever possible and resolve conflict, protective of anyone considered close, forgiving, honest, wants to help others, forgetful at times, i could also see this alter taking up poetry / writing as a hobby :)
notable traits: insomniac, hard time making eye contact, dislikes being in water, verbal stims when stressed, likes to fidget with random objects and potentially collect things, loves animals... maybe has innerworld pet?
general aesthetic: softer, black and white, glitchcore maybe? or darker cottagecore / dark nature
add ons: ranboo introject
I HOPE ITS OKAY! sorry it took a bit, i was doing like actual research LMAOO