You're Not Alone - Blog Posts

Hello to my followers and everyone on this sight! This is Angel speaking! I don't normally share politics. I know how divided it can get and how heated the arguments can be! And with that understanding, I wanted to say this:

I know it's a scary time. And I'm sorry. But if anyone wants to privately message me and vent or vent to me by reblogging or commenting on here, my inbox is open. This goes out to everyone! Even if you're not in the US and just want to vent or share news. I would like this shared as much as possible. Not because I'm being selfish. I just want to let as many people on this site know that this page is a safe space to vent and share your worries! And please safe, be careful. There's someone out there who loves you!! I love you all!! And if you're thinking of doing something, here are some numbers you can call!!

U.S. suicide hotline: call or text 988 (available 24 hours)

U.S. trans lifeline: (877) 565-8860 (when you call, you’ll speak to a trans/nonbinary peer operator. full anonymity and confidentiality)

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) – provides 24/7 confidential support and referrals for individuals and families facing mental health and substance use disorders, including panic attacks and anxiety.

LGBT National Help Center: (888) 843-4564

Trevor Project: Call (866) 488-7386, text START to 678-678, or chat online.

I am potentially the only person who does not want Dylan O'Brien as Nightwing.

Depression collage

I made it with the power of sheer fucking depression heartbreak and betrayal

Don't forget, you're not alone.

I feel so alone sometimes it makes me feel sick. i've been werewolf kin since my youngest days without even knowing of this community. i'm going to be 17 soon and still no pack. i know there are others out there, there has to be, in my area i mean. i didn't mind being alone at first- finding home in the company of the wild animals and the neighborhoods cats of my last home, but now i am no longer with them. i long for a pack, others like me. i am conflicted with the want to hide and express myself at once. I need other werewolf friends. even online, i still struggle to find real communities after my main one was deserted. I live in such an area with vast nature i want to share it with someone who sees it the same way i do. sleep outside with the stars above us. Run into the wilderness after straying the human made paths feeling the thrill of almost being seen as i do alone.

“So far, you’ve survived 100% of your worst days. You’re doing great.”

— Norm Kelly

The majority of sexual harassment cases involve some kind of complication.

Maybe you dated the person, flirted with them, or had sex with them before. 

Maybe you knew or suspected that they had a history of being inappropriate with others. 

Maybe you’ve always looked up to this person, considered them a friend, a mentor, or someone who’s helped you a lot in the past. 

Maybe it’s happened more than once. 

Maybe when it happened you didn’t know how to react so you didn’t say anything. 

Maybe after it happened you acted overly nice to the person or reassured them it wasn’t a big deal. 

Maybe the person isn’t the kind of person we think a harasser is: they’re someone really respected in society or more attractive than you or physically smaller or female. So you or others have a hard time believing that person could hurt you. 

Maybe you really like the person for other reasons and feel torn about seeing them as someone who’s hurt you. 

It’s important to know that it’s not unusual if your situation feels more complicated.

In fact, that is the more common situation. 

You did not deserve to be sexually harassed. This is true no matter what you wear, how you look, how much money you make, where you work, what you do, or anything else.

y’all know, most people don’t even know what goes down during an abortion. it’s horror movie level graphic, and it’s to a baby, an itty-bitty child who’s DNA will never be replicated.

Abuse comes in all forms. Even if you think someone else had it worse, your experience and your trauma are real, and valid. You are not alone.

• do something you love

• if something happy would happen to you - don’t hide your happiness - smile!

• if you would be sad, take your time, it’s okay to be sad

• think about things that you like in yourself and focus on them! and just rembember, it’s perfect to be unperfect and you’re amazing just the way you are!!

healthy things to do today

make sure you’re eating enough

send a cheerful text to a friend 

spend a few minutes in the sunlight (even you, goth kids)

exercise to boost energy if you have time

set yourself a new challenge

focus on the positive things you’ve achieved recently

So funny story! When we were first learning about systems and DID and everything, we learned that denial is a massive symptom that's baked into the foundation of how systems function, so right off the bat we put in a lot of work to accept that we are a system, and build an internal structure of reassurance specifically for our existence as a system.

However! Our brain still found all kinds of ways to trip us up with denial! And it's been a constant frustrating battle. For several years we thought that we were an "average" sized system of about seven to ten headmates, and only recently have we been able to drop enough denial barriers to find that there's actually close to a hundred of us in here. Even after that, it took months to actually see the fictives from our biggest comfort medias (percy jackson and the heroes of olympus, avatar the last air bender, and others) because for some reason our brain thought that large system was bad so "nu-uh" and fictives from "childish" comfort sources were also somehow bad so "what fictives?" and it's been so much chaos T-T

Just the other day someone was going through and updating our system server and poked into channels they didn't recognize and then got smacked in the face with vibes that are obviously in our system somewhere, the person has full on had conversations at some point, and we just completely forgot they existed several times

So basically, yes, a lot, denial comes in all kinds of nasty packages and it's such a pain in the butt and you're not alone <3

Question for systems:

How often do you go into denial or convince yourself that you faked everything/your headmates have disappeared?

am i the only rick and morty fan who feels this way?

i hope season 8 don't have boring episodes like "Rise of the Numbericons: The Movie". i don't mind side characters', or side stories [a plot, b subplot] but, i'm talking about episodes where rick and morty don't appear at all, or only appear very little. the show is called "rick and morty", and that is who i expect the show to be about, those two are the only reason i watch the show, and that is who the show should be centered around, rick and morty are the main characters'. as an example; in "Rise of the Numbericons: The Movie" episode rick did not appear at all, and was replaced with goldenfold [a background character who only appears very rarely in earlier seasons], and morty was sidelined and only appeared very little in the episode. i'm starting to believe i'm the only rick and morty fan who feels, and thinks this way.

Yes I love unicorns, yea that’s wierd, but you should too. Unicorns rocks 💜

Also they help feeling better a hole damn lot Hope this made you smile a little , smiling helps too :)

You're awsome , have a nice day

sometimes we all just need a reminder that being strong isn't the same as being alone 🧡

*comes into ask how with a shaky smile*

Howdy there Hon. I hope the New Years been treating you alright so far, and I wish that it will continue to bless you with the goodness you deserve ✨🧡

Sorry to bother your inbox again, but this is “Independent Woman” from a request a couple weeks ago and I've had kind of a rough day, and your writing always makes me smile.

If it's not too much to ask, may I request a follow-up on that prompt please? How the Bayverse/Rise boys would react to their stubbornly independent SO having a rough day to the point that they cave and ask for cuddles?

No stress, no worries if you're not in the mood for it. I totally understand. Please take care of yourself first and foremost! Please drink water and know you are appropriated! 🧡✨

howdy anon-chan! 🧡

i'm so sorry that you've had a rough day. i hope at this point it's going a little better and that you're able to get the rest you need. there's a quote that i like to think about when i'm having a rough time: "Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow." -Mary Anne Radmacher

anyway, i hope this helps you smile!

(here's the other post)

Leonardo

Leo has been waiting for (hoping for, praying for) this, for you to come to him in your time of need. He feels bad, he doesn't actually want you to have a bad time or a rough day, but at the same time he loves to be needed. He already has a plan in place.

Mikey scampers off at his signal, and Leo escorts you to his room. There he encourages you to get under the covers and mess up his bed however you need to in order to get comfy.

Then he climbs in with you and holds you. He doesn't ask about what's wrong, doesn't try to talk to you about anything. He can tell that isn't what you need right now.

Mikey comes in (quietly for once) with some tea. He sets the tray down on the bedside table and smiles at you before quickly leaving. Leo tells you that the tea is there if you want it, then goes back to quietly holding you.

You realize, after laying in his arms for a while, that he is meditating. You try to match your breathing to his, and you see a small smile steal across his face when he feels what you are doing. You fell right into his trap.

The two of you breathe in sync for a while, just soaking in each other's presence.

If you decide to talk about it, Leo listens very closely to you. He's not confident that it will happen, but he hopes that you'll tell him if it's something he can help with. No matter what though, if you just need to vent or need advice or need him to do something for you, he will respect your wishes.

Raphael

Raph's first instinct is to find out who hurt you so that he can go take care of them. Fortunately, he goes with his second instinct, which is to bundle you in his arms and carry you to his room.

Once there, he climbs into bed and rearranges the two of you until you are both comfortable. He makes sure you are completely covered with him, his strong hands rubbing your back. "I've got ya sweetheart. What do ya need?"

Raph isn't quite confident in his ability to comfort you, so he does need some guidance. But once you let him know what you need, he's on top of it.

If you just want to curl up on his plastron and be held, he will stay with you as long as you need. He will rub your back. He will be your own personal weighted blanket. Gentle touches or rough hugs, hell if you need him to distract you he will. Anything for you.

(Raph finds that he wants to give you the gentle touches. He wants to hold you gently, he wants to show you softness. But if that's not what you need, he'll just have to talk to you about it later. This ain't about him.)

If you want to talk about it, if you need to vent, Raph'll listen. He'll empathize. He might growl or mutter as you talk, but he won't interrupt. If you want advice, he'll do his best to give it to you.

Anything you need, he'll get it for you. Drink, food, more pillows? It's there almost before you ask for it. You won't have to lift a finger or do anything if you don't want to. "I'll take care of you princess."

Donatello

Donnie immediately has so many questions, but he sets them aside. You asked him to help you learn how to be cared for, so he's going to do just that.

He takes to the lab, because the bed there is comfier than the one in his room. He puts on some music you like and turns down the volume. He encourages you to climb in and climbs in behind you. He lays down and lets you climb on him however you want.

Once the two of you are comfortable, he asks if you want to talk about it. He realizes that you need to be guided into asking for what you want, and he's prepared to do that. Your answer is the beginning of the mental flow chart Donnie created specifically for caring for you.

If you do want to talk about it, Donnie first asks if you want advice or if you just want to vent. Once that's established, he is an active listener. He asks questions and gives you nudges if he thinks you need it. He'll make those snarky comments that make you laugh. He checks in periodically to make sure that you're still okay. Talking to Donnie will always make you feel better.

If you don't want to talk about it, that's okay too. He'll ask if there's anything you need, then send the drone to zap Raph into getting it for you. Once Raph is gone (rubbing his arm and muttering murderously), Donnie settles in for a nice long cuddle session with you.

If you're okay with it, he pulls up some work. He asks if you want a distraction, and if so he'll start telling you about what he's doing. Donnie works with one hand while the other absentmindedly rubs your arm. He still checks in every once in a while to make sure you're okay and ask if you need anything.

Michelangelo

Mikey, much like Leo, hates that you're upset but is so happy that you came to him so he could care for you. This is a huge step, you're making progress! Now it's his turn to make progress, to show you how he can care for you.

He asks if you need anything first, so he can grab it without interrupting the "epic cuddle session" you're about to have. (Later, when you ask him to get you something, he'll interrupt the cuddle session anyway with zero complaints. He just wants you to be happy.)

Once that's all taken care of, he hustles you off to his room, hand on your back. Thank the pizza gods that Leo had forced him at sword point to clean it the day before. You both get in bed and get comfy.

He holds you as if you are a treasure, a beloved teddy bear. It is hard to believe that Mikey can be this gentle. He wraps you in blankets and props you up with pillows until you are surrounded in softness and him.

Then he starts to talk. He chatters on about anything and everything, whatever comes to mind. His skateboard tricks, their latest encounter with the Foot, Raph breaking his most recent lifting record... you are caught up on ALL the turtle gossip.

Mikey doesn't stop until he gets a smile out of you. When he sees it, his answering smile lights up the room. He asks if you are feeling better. If you are, he starts being silly, kissing your face and tickling you until you are crying from laughter. If you aren't, he asks if you want to talk about it. He'll listen and commiserate with you, and support you no matter what.

say more about the bisexual rog hill you're dying on

oh it is mostly wishfull thinking and complete delusion.

the quote i was refering to was from this. Like a complete brain rot I am, I always clinged to the fact that he said sex and not just women.

and i always kind of saw his relationship with syd as him having a bit of the bisexual conundrum of "do i want to be them or do i want them?"

and, of course, the most important evidence of all: he just gives me vibes

this is a bi couple if i ever saw one