Szpd - Blog Posts

you know, I probably resembled this earlier in my life … I mean, I don’t know much about SZPD, but what you’ve been describing definitely resonates with my experiences

in my case though, I think it was caused by intense, continuous dissociation, from my environment + from my own feelings. (and also, depression – numbness or feeling unaffected by things you used to react to, is a symptom of depression)

but nowadays I am plenty emotional and invested in things, which is nice!

(if anyone's interested, you can read my post about dissociation and self-erasure, or read about what I do to get better in general)

i feel like i may have developed szpd as a way to cope with my avpd symptoms lol…

for me it’s been like i started with anxiety and that got so bad that i just became avoidant and then i became so avoidant that i now just have no emotions and don’t care about anything

stay tuned for the next chapter where i stop being a human completely and turn into a robot

Kicks my feet.... Schizotypal personality disorder things.... Whatever you want to do for it . Maybe like undoing dynamics . Idk. Smile

im not really sure of exactly what u wanted but here u go -🐺

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person holding stpd flag , person with stpd symbol on chest , text reading “im schizotypal” , person speaking with disordered speech , person having disordered thoughts , person with a neutral facial expression with the word “flat”

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Relationships are exhausting. The effort, the expectations, the unspoken rules I never fully understand or care to follow. It’s either too much or never enough. People say they want honesty, but they flinch when I give it to them. They say they value independence, but resent it when I don’t need them.

People always disappoint me the moment they seem to finally understand me. Maybe for a second, I think they get it, but they never really do. And that’s fine. I don’t want them too close anyway. I don’t fear abandonment, if anything, I’m always the first to cut people off when they become useless, irritating, or start thinking they have some kind of hold on me. Every time, it just proves what I already know: being alone is better. No expectations, no attachments, no one slowing me down. Maybe I’m wrong, maybe it’s a mistake. But it’s the only thing that seems to work for me.