Where Every Scroll is a New Adventure
College class scheduling is evil. You know what isn't? Going for a hike in the cold winter air. I'm tired of concrete and brick. I wanna go get in them damn woods.
In case anyone is interested, I made a side blog for my Minecraft hearthome so I can just bark about it over there.
@dandelions-crossing
Feel free to follow! I'll hopefully be able to post more on it soon.
Hanging out with my girlfriend annnnnd my pack for therianthropy day? Don't mind if I do >:3
(I'm going to make them go howl at the moon with me)
One thing I don't like about it getting colder is that the back of my neck prickles like my fur wants to escape, but it can't. It itches >:
I just want my winter coat damn it
I wanna age like an old cowboy. Give me a southern squint with very exaggerated crows feet and a furrowed brow. Make me rough and tumbled. I won't smoke, but give me a scratchy voice. I want my grandkids to look at me and see coyote, wolf, dog, raccoon. I want them to see weathered and wild.
I always found shifting in school to be the worst. I always felt too awkward and wrong and out of place. I couldn't focus on my math when all I wanted to do was run. I couldn't sit through my biology class without practically chewing through my pencil. I was always a nervous kid, and then on top of that I had to walk around and pretend like I couldn't feel my claws and fangs.
It got even worse as it got colder. I felt so vulnerable tucked into a classroom, like I never had enough to shield me away from the world. I'd never go to school without a jacket, and it still only helped so much. Sometimes, I'd wear fingerless gloves or bring little trinkets I could roll around in my hand. They helped.
Being an adult can suck, but I was a teenage werewolf (shapeshifter, but for the sake of the pun), and that shits rough.
You know, if winter grieves me, fall and spring look at me with love and welcoming because they too understand the fact that we all change. No matter how different I am or how conflicted I feel, I'm still me, and that's all that matters.
So I have this bit, right? It's been a while since I've done it, but if I bring it up with my friends, they can still easily understand or remember the joke.
It's called the Dan Rules. It's often comedically egotistical and vain and was made because out of our little group, it was a joke that I am (as an act) an eccetric (maybe enigmatic if I'm feeling fancy) person who does whatever the hell I want.
If people thought to question my behavior, it was often quickly followed with a "that's just Dan" from my friends and easily dismissed. Sure, some of my boldness was probably left over from my middle school years, where I felt I had to lean into my weirdness completely so people would see me more as a joke than a freak.
But then I found myself in a safe, accepting environment, one where the need to bite and snarl and run away never came. I waited a while for it to arrive for me to feel the need to play the part of the fool for my newfound companions entertainment. It shocked me when I was left with genuine love and compassion. I leaned out of self-deprecating humor and completely into the (very obviously joking and fake) role of an egotistical short and angry ruler. For fucks sake we still have the name of the group chat as "Dantopia". I still did the bit to entertain my friends, to keep them laughing at my antics. But this time, it was accompanied by my own laughter. I enjoyed a new sense of freedom it brought.
The Dan Rules came out of when we were messing around, and I'd lean into this foolish king role, and I would proclaim something insane or childish. A popular one was, "Dan is never wrong." Often followed by a warranted scoff.
But the second rule is a good one, I think, one that really shone through as a reminder that I am not now who I was before.
"I do what I want."
I hadn't had much freedom before I met my current group of friends. I was quiet and kept quiet at times. I felt muzzled and chained, and as if I was a dog because someone forced a collar around my throat and pulled me on a leash.
It wasn't only that I didn't have the choice of self-expression, though. I'd also seen what happened to people who gave too much into reckless. I grew up with the weight of their actions carried on my shoulders, and while I have always been bold in my identity and beliefs, I was quiet and still when presented the opportunities to escape from situations where people kicked me down for who I was. I feared what would happen if I left my old group. Ironically, this fear led me to be isolated.
I found myself almost completely alone in the pandemic, and my only saving grace was a new school with new people. New people who didn't tell me to shut up or that I was ugly or that I needed to stop acting like an animal or they'd treat me like one. Instead, I met friends who handled me gently and taught me it was okay to hug just as it's okay to bark, and they welcomed me. I felt at home. I felt as if I knew myself completely.
So, with the second rule, which I still follow to this day, I added a private note.
"I do what I want. Because I can trust myself to."
Know thyself
I can trust myself to bark or scowl or growl just as much as I can to love and kiss and hug. I can stay aware of what is and isn't good and how much or how little I can trust someone. I can be bold and loving all at once and welcome others with open arms and flashing fangs.
I am in complete control over myself, and even when I am doing something so I can see my friends laugh, I am also doing it because I can, and I do what I want.
This dog is not made for the heat.
It's 95°F (35°C) and it feels like 102°F (38.9°C)
Endless dry heat! Has me panting and shit, horrible.
Imagine a dog trying to go to school, and all it can do as it runs around campus is try not to melt into a little puddle.
New mask! Raccoon >:]
It's meee! It looks a little patchy in some of the darker parts, so I may fix that and add fur as well, but I think it turned out pretty cool. The eyes are also a little off putting so I might change em >:
A little late but here's a dumb meme I made for the fourth I thought yall would enjoy
I'm pretty sure I wanna make my next mask a raccoon. I'm trying to make one for all my theriotypes, so I'll need to do raccoon, wolf, and coyote still. Wolf and coyote have similar shapes, though, and I wanna make something a little different than my usual... idk we'll see :D
!ALERT! ALERT!
HIGHLY RADIOACTIVE CANINE SPECIMEN (me) HAS BREACHED CONTAINMENT TO NEARBY WOODLANDS (has gone camping)
BE ON HIGH ALERT FOR THE CREATURE (pls bring me and my gf more mallows for smores :3)
Images that make me think of home.
Maybe im not cladotherian and actually just polytherian. Because I still look at myself and just think, oh yeah, that's a canine. But also, over time, I've kinda just realized that it's not so much the entire genus and instead just some specific species. I also feel like my theriotypes are deeply tied to who I am, how I grew up, and how I function. I know I'm a wolf for certain. I get especially shifty in the winter, and it will stay somewhat dormant in the warmer months. I feel drawn to my coyote theriotype in the spring and summer, and having grown up in the deep south, it helps that it makes me feel more comfortable in where I call home.
My dog theriotype is pretty much always present. I'm just doglike in nature.
And then my raccoon tends to flair up, especially when I regress? Like it's usually either puppy or raccoon.
This isn't really me panicking about this or anything tbh. Sometimes, it just feels nice to talk about it.
I think one of my favorite feelings is whenever the season starts to change and I can slowly feel myself being pulled more and more towards my coyote and raccoon theriotype with all of the sun and berries and greenery growing. I know I'll still feel my wolf and that it will return a lot stronger once the earth grows cold again, but for the time being there are snacks to eat and dirt to paw at and sunny patches of grass and clover to be slept in.
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They/them
polytherian and crowhearted. 🐾
Certified feral animal
Apocalypse dog ☢️
Shape-shifter
You can spam boop the hell out of me btw
Theriotypes:
- Wolf
- Coyote
- Livestock protector dog
- Chernobyl dog
- Raccoon
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Heart Homes
- Minecraft (specifically Para Sanar) - side blog: @dandelions-crossing
- Apocalypse World - side blog: @apocalypse-dog
- Far Harbor (fallout 4)
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I mostly just post about my journey with therianthropy since this is the only site I can actively express it. Come say hi :]
Ask... Ask me about my heart homes, please...👀
PLEASE
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DNI:
Racists, homophobic, transphobic, ablist, anti-alterhuman, zoophiles, pedophiles, pro-shippers, etc.
I don't want any issues. I'm just here to chill out and post what I want. I'm not going to entertain anyone who decides to disrupt my peace, and I will block freely.
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Extra stuffs:
- neurodivergent
- Pet Regressor
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Current hyperfixations:
- Gorillaz
- Eddsworld
- Fallout 4
I can't do stuff like quadrobics for many reasons, but I just wanna crawl around and be pet or have someone join me being a creature on the ground