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Ok am I the only one or are Geminis kinda mean/harsh? I thought I liked them but I had a recent encounter that I think changed my mind I do like Gemini risings though idk about moons but I probably will since I'm a Gemini moon.

GAY. something fishy is going on here..

opinions on humans

I think humans are a weird but fascinating species compared to my life as a frog. They have the capability to do so much. They build incredible structures. They create extraordinary things. They form the most interesting communities. They are capable of great feats of intelligence and progress. On the other hand, they are also capable of great cruelty and destruction. They have caused many terrible things to happen in the world and to each other. In the end, all they do is fight with each other.

I know this is (probably) a really unpopular opinion, but…

I really liked the ninjago movie.

Even tho they kinda messed up the characters and such, it wasn’t actually that bad.

I had even enjoyed a lot of the personalities that was given to the Movie!verse.

One of my favorite things to do is to combine Movie and Show personalities together. They (usually) fit really nicely.

Tell me what you guys think fellow Ninjago fans.

i think t4t sibling sex is hot

Teruhashi and Saiki are almost one in the same, kind of like foils if you ask me. But hey, don't tell the saiki k fandom I said that... 🤫

Teruhashi is a prime example of ppl hating female characters when they love male characters for the same thing (cough cough saiki is also self centered and egotistical). And lots of teruhashi haters are misogynistic, you can’t change my mind

[Confession 379]

Note To Society #24

Not liking popular things does not make you ‘better’ than everyone else. If you’re a person who says things like ‘I’m not like other people,’ then you aren’t better or worse than them. Popular things are not inherently bad. There are a lot of popular celebrities, trends, songs, clothing styles, etc, that are great and there is absolutely nothing wrong with liking them. ‘Mainstream’ and ‘bad’ are not synonymous, nor are ‘unpopular’ and ‘cool’. Don’t diminish the interests of others just because you yourself do not agree.

Note To Society #16

If something doesn’t involve you, than you don’t deserve a say. You’re allowed your own opinion, but if you aren’t harmed by it in any way, than you shouldn’t be saying that the people that it does involve are wrong simply because you disagree. Have a little decency.

If you hate on & Juliet but have never given it a chance bc you hate jukeboxes I’m sorry but ur boring

Nobody. Nobody is with you.

If anyone is willing to give criticism and advice on how I should continue to write my book, (I'm only on chapter three) its only my first book, and I can send you a link to it, DM me if interested, first read below

Preferably you were over 18 or don't get affected by blood and gore, or non-consentual topics, or any graphic material.

I'd like someone familiar with horror and who is good at giving criticism. Not hate, criticism.

That's really all, I don't know how to be professional dudes-

Opinions/Advice

I work in a hotel and my friend also happens to work in the same hotel with me. We both work front desk but on the side but I also do waitressing for the kitchen for breakfast 2x a week. I was having dinner after work with my friend/coworker and I was discussing how I’m confused how I’m getting paid more on my paychecks when I’m getting less hours but she reminded my tips are getting added in too (so my pay of 11.50xhoursxtips). She calculated for me on her phone and it did add up but then she realized she’s getting paid less (only $11.25 hourly). Over the next few days we discussed and she felt that she should at least also get paid $11.50 hourly because they want her to work as front desk executive management and we’re having a lot of changes to the hotel and staff. Front desk has been getting more and more responsiblity that usually upper management wouldn’t let us do without their approval, she feels she should be compensated for that because she works full time (I don’t) even if it is .25 cents. And I agreed, they are constantly pushing her to the brink of what she can handle and when other coworkers demand a pay raise or else they would quit (and they have). She texted our manager about maybe getting some answers. Our manager told her that I was paid differently because we negotiated my pay rate at my interview (slightly untrue) and that talking to other employees about their pay rates is against code of conduct in the employee handbook (it’s not, I looked and also it’s against the law for there to even be a policy about that). Now, my manager wants to speak to us separately and my coworker has heard for our operations manager that she is planning to write us up/reprimanding us for talking about our wages.

So, I’m just asking in this situation what would you do? My coworker says she’s going to quit if she gets a write up but I think it would be best to talk to our corporate management company (HR).

Relationship Advice

Sooooooo, this is gonna be long but I need opinions and such. Somebody help me lol. I need thoughts and opinions.

Okay so the situation, I’ve been dating a guy for awhile now. Our first day was the day before Halloween and we have been hanging out/going on dates almost every single day since then. In Decemeber, I asked him if we were exclusively dating at this point b/c we had never talked about our relationship/status it just was and still is. He said he was considering us exclusively dating since the very beginning but in terms of bf/gf terms it was too soon for him to say. I was okay with that, as long as I got confirmation that we weren’t dating other people. Never talked about it again until recently, he comes over my house all the time and we hangout/watch movies/talk so I asked again since it’s now February if we were on bf/gf terms and he said yes, at this point it would be crazy not to call each other that. He’s the one who initiated the buying of gifts for Christmas, I thought it would be too soon to buy each other presents and he got me another “early” gift for valentine’s day and plans to get me more. But the thing is that he’s met my parents and my siblings and close family but I’ve never met his. I’ve only met his best friend and the bff’s fiancé, I think he’s worried about me meeting his mom since she’s a religious fanatic and has talked about how Jesus has come to her in her dreams telling her it’s time for her to come “home” and she burned his Supernatural poster in his room when he was out because she thought it looked satanic. I want to ask him why/if he wants or when I should meet her since things have been pretty serious. I just don’t know how to bring it up, I don’t want to be the person who is always asking these questions in the relationship but I am. I feel like it makes me seem needy or somethin but I really want to know and my closest friends are asking why I haven’t met her yet since he’s met mine and gets invited/comes to family events/gatherings and I don’t have a good answer for them.

Csi

(I am up to s9)

Ok so I'm watching Csi for the first time and (loving it, it is so going to be a regular re-watch/binge) I have thoughts.

1st thing is that I love Lady Heather/ Grissom and I wanted them to end up together, not Grissom and Sara. Don't get me wrong I like Sara (kinda) but I feel like her and Grissom's romantic relationship came out of left field, like one episode they were just friends and then the next Sara is going on about it not affecting the promotion and it kinda shocked me (maybe I was just not paying attention to the sub-text but I don't think I wasn't) and then when they are together it was not healthy. I think Lady Heather/ Grissom was a far better relationship as they had much better as they have chemistry(in my opinion but I think i'm right), no power em-balance. In fact that is one of the main points of their relationship is that they match each other on a power level (intellectually & in many other ways) and also they have better communication and just are a better looking couple (no offence to Jorja Fox, she is a beautiful woman but Lady Heather actress is just more my type). Maybe I will get more context or something later on in the show on how Sara/Grissom as a couple but for now (at least) I still ship lady Heather/Grissom.

On another note,

Archie is my favorite lab rat, love him.

Do we even meet Dave's (super Dave/ M.E assistant) wife?

Also I would so read Greg's book.

Is it just me or is it that Lindsey's ages so quick, like I feel like she went from like 7 to 14 in a couple of episodes/ a season. Is it just me that just me or is it a timeline thing?.

Why in Hades name did Warrick get married?, to a woman the audience only hear about less than a hand full of times. Also eloped, come on🙄. There is no way. he would have gotten married without his family (the csi team, cause they are differently a family).Nick, should have been his best man & the team should have not heard about it after the fact(I am ticked off with the writers about that).

Also I really thought that the Warrick/ Catherine plot-line was going somewhere. I wanted it to, I was rooting for them and loved the idea of them as a couple, I mean Grissom and Sara did it, so why not let them and unlike Sara/Grissom there was no power em-balance. As well there where many things that would have made Catherine/ Warrick a good couple (my opinon), like that they were friends first, they had go chemistry, they both understand the job, the things they saw and the hours and also Warrick knew Linsey and lastly and most importantly is that they knew each others pasts, historys and baggage. I think they would have been a great couple,

One of the many things that ticked me off about Warrick's death (I wish they did not kill him at but I don't know why Warrick's actor left), is that they gave him a son and did nothing with that storyline (maybe they did, who knows and maybe they do something in the later seasons but I doubt it) and now that kid has to grow up without a dad (yes I no it is a show but still in universe he has to) the thing Warrick did not want for him and Tina is the mother, right?.

I have fallen in love the Greg/Nick ship.

And I found a Bobby Dawson/Henry Andrews fic and now can't get over them as a couple.

Nick's hair, I swear it changes more than Sam Winchesters LOL.

Also Freaking Ecklie as under sheriff.

Where did Sofia go?

And I cannot get over the fact that Laurence Fishburne is in Csi, I keep yelling at his character about thing Jack Crawford did or expecting him to act like Jack LOL.

I have this idea/head-canon that Lucy Chen from the rookie and Nick Stokes being in a buried alive support group together and becoming friends.

And does anyone else kinda of play along with Csi to see if they can guess the answer/ killer/ motive/ what happened ?

And finally is Csi: Las Vegas, the sequel worth the watch after I finish Csi. As I Kind want to watch it (and am most likely going to watch it) but I just, wanted to get an opinion if it is any good.

Out of curiosity...

Firstly, one of my coworkers and I were discussing the true difference between being mad or angry, we concluded that when a person is truly angered in the moment that they are on a whole other level. If i lost ya, SORRY I am trying to get my thought in to words but I am kinda struggling. Any who, I felt like I needed to shared this before getting onto my question as I am talking about being at this level of angry, if you have never experienced this, then play it as more of a hypothetical. Thx for participating!!!

Hello!! I’m going to start a short series and I need your guys help to pick!! 🧡😋

I posted A new animation meme

What’s a piece of media (book, movie, song, etc.) that completely changed your perspective on life? How did it impact you?

psst. hey. what's your opinion on radqueers. like are you chill with them

I'm not 100% sure. I swear I was told about radqueers and I don't remember because that's not a community I'm in or look at/expose myself to drama around it. If it is, like.... Nothing harmful that's hurting irl people. Okay looked it up, I don't agree with ID's like Transrace, transage (this is even more confusing), things along those lines. Paraphilias I don't care if it's not involving actual human being. Fiction okay, I don't need to know bout it, so like pro contact is. A no no for me. Otherwise uh, yeah, I wouldn't go outta my way to harrass or go in your dms or make a fuss about it no matter how much I disagree

soooo what should I do

Here are some of my most controversial opinions.

1 - I like pineapple on pizza

2 - I pour the milk first when making cereal (with the exception of frosted mini wheats)

Side note it took me ages to realize that people were not genuinely upset with me about these things and that for the most part it’s a universal bit.

P.S

I was lookin for more silly little divisive things like this and found something about socks in bed and as someone who sticks out there foot when I get to warm at night I choose to not wear socks.

ONE LIFE

I’ve recently seen One Life in the cinema, and here are my thoughts about it.

SPOILER ALERT!

I LOVED the movie.

I love how different and real this felt compared to most hero movies. There was no scene where Sir Nicholas Winton delivered an emotional heroic speech to a crowd to get help and donations (given the time period and place they were in, that would’ve been incredibly unrealistic as freedom of speech was limited). “Show, not tell” was achieved beautifully in this film. Instead of everything working out in a night, they showed Nicky, Doreen and Trevor working long hours, racing time day and night.

Instead of Sir Winton saying he loved and cared about kids, they showed it by him photographing kids and doing everything within his power to find foster homes for them. I also loved the scene where he gives kids small pieces of chocolate and how happy the kids look during that scene. It also makes the viewers realise how small things most take for granted, such as chocolate, can be a privilege to some and how fortunate we are to have it.

I also loved how they showed Sir Winton grieving the loss of the children they couldn’t save. The producers didn’t change it to a perfect happy ending where everyone lives. Instead, they mentioned what happened to those who weren’t as fortunate, but the 669 lives they rescued are worth celebrating.

I also appreciate at the end of the movie, they told us what happened to Nicky’s friends. They weren’t just forgotten; instead, they were mentioned without too much screen time, as this movie is about Sir Nicholas Winton and the children he saved.

Welcome back to a re-written 2012 Donatello analysis!

I have posted a 2012 Donnie analysis here previously discussing his obsessional behaviour, and it was quite well received. However, it is not as put together as I would've liked it to be. Vague ideas were mashed into a post after I ranted about aspects of his character to an online friend.

But, I've had some more time to think - this will be a bit longer, and cover some different scenes and ideas, as well as repeating some of the things in my previous analysis - in general, hopefully a more concise and enjoyable analysis of his character.

: IMPORTANT NOTE : To make it clear, I do not support stalking/obsessive behaviour - whatever the reason behind it may be - and I do not want to make it seem like I am infantilizing Donnie in this analysis.

The whole point of this analysis is that I like to be aware of characters' less-than-ideal traits and discuss what the root cause of them might be. The possible/suggested causes does not excuse this behaviour, rather explains it. And people should still be held accountable if they have made another person upset/uncomfortable.

Without further ado, onto the analysis.

I think Donnie's biggest issue is how he looks.

In the 2012 iteration, we never really see any of the turtles have a strong desire to be human, to change how they already are. Mikey sometimes doesn't understand that humans will be scared of him, (Like when he tries to return a cat to its owner, dismissing his brothers when they warn him the owner would be scared of him) but Mikey never has a big moment and lashes out like, ‘I want to be a human so I can make more friends!’

We also see Mikey wonder what he'd look like as a human in an episode after Donnie creates retro-mutagen, in which Mikey assumes he'd turn into a human instead of a regular turtle if he were to use retro-mutagen on himself. It is played as a joke though, as he is seen smiling in the scene following and doesn't seem to show any true disappointment/distress etc towards being how he already is - a mutant.

Raph openly declares himself as ‘handsome’ in Season 1, Episode 2 - so that rules out Raphael, and I don't remember any scenes with Leo being upset or having a negative view attached to being a mutant but please correct me if I'm wrong.

Interestingly enough, Donatello seems to have the most trouble coming-to-terms with the fact that he's a mutant and can't change that out of his brothers.

Outside of being a mutant, it is implied that Donnie already has a fragile self-image anyway.

Remember the episode Turtle Temper? I think it's the third episode of the first season. But at one point, the other turtles are instructed to shoot arrows at Raphael while he has to try and avoid them - Splinter makes it clear, however - that the others are allowed to insult Raphael.

I've seen a content creator say that the insults they throw at Raphael could be more internalised opinions they have on themselves rather than genuinely thinking these crude things about their own brother - think of it like bullying, in the sense that you're often told ‘bullies like to make fun of others because they're insecure themselves’.

People often take out their anger about their insecurities and place them onto other people if given the chance.

Leo says, ‘And you're always whining, poor me, nobody understands me.’ While this is easily applicable to Raph as an insult from Leo, Leo has also had his own fair share of moments where he has gone to Splinter complaining that the others aren't respecting or listening to him, that they don't understand the burden he holds as leader.

Mikey tells Raph he moves like a bloated buffalo. In other words, you're slow. You can't keep up.

And Donnie says, ‘Oh! You can't keep your back straight during Omote Kote Gyaku! And you're ugly!’ I think the first part of this insult is what really hints this is more so them projecting views of themselves than genuinely insulting Raphael. Donnie, out of all of them, is most likely to feel insecure about his height, a lot of teenagers can feel awkward or uncomfortable as a result of their growth spurts, tall individuals are also more prone to slouching.

Donnie also probably spends quite a lot of time hunched at his lab desk, which could also contribute to his posture. I'm pretty sure he is also called ‘scrawny’ in an episode by Karai, but if not Karai, some other character, and Donnie responds, ‘And I'm not scrawny! I'm svelte!’

Raph has also insulted Donnie's looks before, and, although it is unclear if it's a common occurrence, knowing Raph's character it has most likely happened on more than one occasion.

Donnie : And why do you keep grabbing me by the face? What is wrong with my face?!

Raph : Do you want me to list the reasons alphabetically or in descending order of grossness?

So regardless of being mutated or not, it seems like Donnie just has a generalised lack of confidence and some issues surrounding how tall he is.

But onto his issues regarding being mutated.

Donnie might’ve previously not had any issues with being a mutant. Before, it might’ve been just a general lack of confidence, as I have already said. Before April, his brothers would've been the only thing to compare himself to. He lived in a home with only mutants for fifteen years of his life - so had normal teenage issues of going through puberty and insecurities. Tons of people dislike their growth spurts, which is why Donnie's issues at first might seem like normal things for a teenager to worry about. Donnies biggest issue was how scrawny and lanky he saw himself.

But when they meet April, there is a glaring difference.

Suddenly, there is somebody in his life who isn't a mutant like him. It becomes abundantly clear to Donnie that from somebody else's viewpoint, their biggest issue with him wouldn't be his tooth gap or his height, but the plain fact that he's so different. Inhuman. Out of the ordinary. A mutant.

In ‘Mutagen Man Unleashed!’ Donnie says, ‘I'm worse than a nerd - I'm a freak! We're all total and complete freaks-’ This shows that Donnie went from having individual and relatable insecurities to believing that simply being a mutant inherently means you are ugly.

Especially when you consider the fact that, individual-traits-wise, Donnie and Casey both share the same traits, they both have issues with their teeth, and they’re both scrawny and fairly tall - realistically Donnie should believe they're on somewhat equal grounds of ‘unattractive’ qualities, but Donnie seems to believe Casey is naturally at an unfair advantage because he’s human.

As I said, Donnie has begun to associate his very being with ugliness, and so sees Casey as a threat thinking April will lean more towards Casey for the sole fact he's human. Donnie doesn't think that perhaps Casey's behaviour or the way he treats April is what might potentially win her over - when Donnie is ranting to Mutagen Man about why April might be hanging out with some punk kid (Casey) the conclusion he comes to is ‘because he's human, that's why.’

With a smile on his face and a look of anger in his eyes, the way he phrases it and his expression almost comes across as, ‘I knew it.’ It's like he's self-validating his presumptions at this moment.

Donnie tends to get scarily territorial over April, even going as far to try and forcibly push the two apart when April and Casey hug at the beginning of ‘A China-Town Ghost Story’, seemingly oblivious to the fact he could also possibly harm April in his shoving.

If he genuinely loved and cared about April as a person, he'd be more concerned about the fact he could hurt her - instead his eyes are on Casey this whole scene - his competition, the threat, the thing that might make his fears a reality.

Looks are a very important part of gaining a partner in society, Donnie might not love April as a person. Rather, he sees her as a piece of evidence that could potentially soothe his insecurities. If he wins her like some prize, it'd be like saying, ‘Look! I'm not ugly after all because someone wanted to be my girlfriend!’

If he loses April to Casey, it’d be confirming his idea that mutants, as a whole, are ugly.

This whole root cause of his obsessive and almost protective nature over April and wanting to keep her away from Casey really comes to light in the Season 2 episode, ‘Fungus Humungous’ where mutated fungi spreading across the sewers make our heroes hallucinate their worst fears.

Donnie has two scenes displaying his fears. The first is one of April, with sharp teeth and white eyes, and is a lot bigger than him. Which creates a feeling of inferiority, ‘Levels’ is a technique used in theatre. It refers to the use of different heights and positions to convey certain messages. It's often used to indicate status or communicate character relationships.

Here, it's a perceived relationship that Donnie has between himself and April. Donnie doesn't think mutants and humans are equal, Donnie truly believes that mutants are smaller or not as important as humans and his fear represents that visually by the way his vision of April quite literally looms over him.

Donnie doesn't think mutants are good enough. It's like the nerd not being good enough to hook up with the pretty, popular girl - reflecting back on what Donnie said earlier - ‘I'm worse than a nerd, I'm a freak.’ If we think of it on a ladder of ‘not being good enough’ he thinks being nerdy puts him below on that ladder, but right at the bottom, worse than being a nerd, is being a mutant. And that's why his vision of April is so ginormous. She's right at the top of that perceived hierarchy that Donnie has built up.

This vision of April calls Donnie an ‘ugly mutant freak’ it's unlikely April actually thinks this, but it's what Donnie thinks she does.

The next scene we see is a vision of a bunch of tiny April's kissing Casey.

I think it's noteworthy that the ‘ugly mutant freak’ part comes before the kissing Casey part. The two scenes are quite literally split into ‘Words’ and ‘Actions’. In the first scene, April has a sharp tongue that is used like a whip, going through Donnie's heart and subsequently breaking it.

‘To have a sharp tongue’ means being critical of someone, speaking in a way that is unkind though often clever. I think this shows that, over anything, it is April's words that break his heart more than her actions like kissing Casey. Mutants being seen as freaks is his actual biggest fear. He just doesn't want those fears to be confirmed - which is why that scene of April kissing Casey comes after.

This fear of humanities' dislike and rejection towards mutants existed before Casey came into the picture, he just became a threat and therefore added to Donnie's worries which is why Casey makes an appearance, but he isn't the main problem.

The first scene is what truly makes Donnie crack, he starts screaming, runs away, and shouts that he ‘doesn't want to hear anymore.’

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In Season 3, an episode titled, ‘A Foot Too Big’ when Donnie starts to apologise for his behaviour, he says ‘I'm just… a mutant.’ The word ‘just’ implies that being a mutant is all Donnie has boiled himself down to, he doesn't think his other traits are worthwhile, like him being loyal, inventive, and funny because at the end of the day he thinks nobody will be able to see him outside of being a freak and therefore doesn’t care about other aspects of himself.

When April kisses Donnie at the end of this episode, he doesn't even seem to enjoy it like he usually does. Which is odd for Donnie, as he normally gets excited or gloats about being kissed by April to Casey. I know people say he's confused because April has a habit of leading both Donnie and Casey on, but I think the words she says right before she kisses him is what confuses him.

‘You're not just a mutant, Donnie, you're my mutant.’

The whole point of the episode is that Donnie is supposed to get a taste of his own medicine, where Bigfoot is following Donnie around. But Bigfoot is a monster. Donnie’s behaviour is being parallelled in a monster.

When Donnie is told, ‘now you know how April feels’ by Raph, he partly comes to the realisation that April feels like he is clingy and love bombs her with gifts, (Like how Bigfoot follows Donnie around and consistently makes Donnie soup) but Donnie also acknowledges that April is being followed around by something inhuman and that might play a part in making her uncomfortable.

If we, as the audience, are meant to look at Bigfoot as a parallel to Donnie, that should also include Bigfoot's other traits and the way other characters act toward her that prove Donnie feels ugly.

Bigfoot wants to look better and feels ugly. When she believes she is not good enough for Donnie, she asks April to help her give herself a ‘makeover’ before trying to show Donnie affection again.

Other characters, such as Leo and Casey, also make fun of how Bigfoot looks, with Casey asking, ‘You think she's his type?’ As a crude joke. Donnie has had his looks made fun of before, and his brothers seem to share similar sentiments that Donnie doesn't have a shot with April and thinks of his crush to be a waste of time - the other characters react the same way to Bigfoot's crush on Donnie.

And so when Donnie apologises to April, he not only feels the need to acknowledge his overbearing nature, but also to apologise for simply being the way he is, knowing she might feel embarrassed or uncomfortable that a ‘creature’ that has no shot with her is drooling over her and following her around.

After all, Donnie felt embarrassed when Bigfoot kissed him, and all of his peers laughed at him.

When Donnie was kissed in Target: April O’ Neil, it was directly after Donnie was thanked for his actions in saving April, and it made him feel good about himself in general, shouting ‘I looooove being a turtle!’ which is a rare instance of Donnie showing a positive attitude towards being how he is. Being loved in itself and being thanked for something understandable made him feel confident.

Donnie believes April likes Casey for being human, so when April says she likes him because he's mutant - for what he is, not who he is, it confuses him. Donnie thinks April doesn't care about who Casey is either, but Donnie thought he'd never be on equal grounds with Casey in terms of what he is, again, because he thinks mutants are lesser than.

He believes and everyone else around him believes that because he is a mutant he had no chance, at the beginning of the episode Raph said, ‘She's a girl, you're a giant talking turtle.’

Donnie believed who he was didn't matter because he thought what he was would make people dislike him.

And in April's words, who he is still doesn't matter, but she's showing a positive attitude towards him being a mutant. That's what confuses him so much.

April doesn't forgive Donnie’s apology for his obsessive behaviour, she forgives his apology for being different. April doesn’t say something like, ‘But you’re smart, loyal, determined,’ before kissing him, she says, ‘You’re my mutant’ before kissing him.

Donnie has never received positive comments from April about good aspects of his personality, or even comments about enjoying spending time with him - times Donnie has been kissed, hugged, and/or received comments of praise from April has been directly after acts of service where Donnie puts himself in danger for her wants/needs;

(Operation: Breakout, Season 1, in which Donnie goes on a solo mission to rescue April's father) When Donnie works tirelessly to resolve her wants/needs, (Donnie's several attempts to make retro-mutagen for her father) or when Donnie has literally almost died, (waking up after Donnie came close to dying in Dream Beavers, and after coming back post being molecularly scattered in ‘The Power Inside Her’)

This creates an extremely negative correlation in which receiving affection comes after self-sacrificing behaviour, putting her needs over his, or near death experiences, especially when you consider how Donnie's more tame and realistic attempts at affection are met with abandonment, dismissal, or odd looks.

When Donnie tries to offer hugs to April, she looks at him oddly, and Donnie quickly switches to ruffling her hair, and he seems to go stiff and looks anxious/awkward after. When Donnie calls her a nickname she agrees to ignore what was just said. When Donnie makes her a music box at the beginning of ‘A Foot Too Big’ she makes the excuse of needing to train and leaves Donnie by himself instead of addressing the issue if she didn't like the gift.

Hugs, nicknames, and gift-giving are met with negative responses that create negative feelings in himself as well.

Self sacrificing behaviour is met with positive reactions from April, as well as positive reactions from those around him as the action usually resolves some sort of problem (like Donnie rescuing April's father, the creation of Retro-mutagen) and even Splinter telling Donnie to ‘never give up hope’ in regards to pursuing April.

So Donnie now has two things to associate kisses/hugs with:

Self sacrificing behaviour.

Being a mutant.

And he doesn't understand.

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I honestly think Don Vizioso is a physical manifestation of how Donnie feels. I always thought it to be a bit weird that a villain and a main character shared similar names, as Donnie has also been called ‘Don’ in the series as a nickname before.

Don Vizioso believed that mutants are freaks of nature that don't belong, a scientific mystery to be studied, which is scarily the same ideas that Donnie has about mutants.

Don Vizioso’s restaurant is the only building we see in the whole series with a ‘No Mutants’ sign. Donnie has a preconceived notion that the whole world is against mutants, in truth, barely anybody knows about them to say that’s true. All that hatred for what mutants are and the belief that mutants shouldn’t be accepted anywhere is all contained within Don Vizioso’s restaurant. Contained in Donnie’s mind.

I find it no coincidence that Donnie is the one to be put into a dehumanising situation and almost be dissected by Don Vizioso.

‘Vizioso’ translated into English, means things like depraved, vicious, immoral, and the next time Donnie has a run in with Vizioso, how is his actions perceived? Immoral. Vicious. He's quite literally going on a killing spree to face his own ideas, to confront Don Vizioso, his own anger and violence.

When Donnie is about to kill off Vizioso, Leo tells him to not lose sight of who he is, which makes Donnie pause.

Donnie believes mutants aren't ever going to be accepted by humans, that they're freaks. And nobody wants to believe that, he wants to erase those violent thoughts toward himself and other mutants by killing Don Vizioso, a manifestation of his own opinions - but if he kills, he is just going to prove what he thinks humans assume mutants are. Vicious monsters.

And that isn't who Donnie is, Leo reminds him of that. Maybe those negative thoughts of him being a freak won't go away, and maybe humans would actually think they're monsters if they ever got exposed - but if Donnie feeds into violent behaviours he's making those thoughts into true statements.

Donnie knows a killer isn't who he is, and in that moment Leo reminds him of that, he comes to terms with his mindset and realises he has the power to change how he thinks in a more healthy way, deciding not to kill Don Vizioso.

If you're part of a minority/marginalised group, you may struggle with things like internalised homophobia, racism, and ableism because of the way the society around you has built negative stereotypes around those groups. You may hate your own thoughts and hate the world for making you think that way.

It can be hard. If you act out in violence, unlike white, or straight, or able-bodied people, you are more likely to have your differences blamed for your violent behaviours. You feed into people’s stereotypes and negative ideas of certain groups unintentionally. If you struggle with internalised ableism, racism, homophobia/transphobia, the first step is coming to terms with your mindset, and finding a healthy way to accept who you are, and know that stereotypes and preconceived notions don't change you.

Never lose sight of who you are.

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END SUMMARY:

2012 Donatello is a character with a complex and negative perception of who he is, with many things contributing to that fact.

At the end of the day, Donnie doesn’t seem to actively be after love or April as a person, rather simply a feeling of equality and confidence in general.

He wants to prove his thoughts that mutants are ugly wrong by gaining April as a girlfriend, aware that in society looks heavily contribute to having a romantic partner. Donnie seems to be afraid of humans rejecting mutants in general, but because April is the first human he has a personal relationship with, it’s shown through her.

As for equality, in relationships it's expected that you are treated equally and that no one is superior or inferior to the other, you both have equal say. Donnie is shown to feel that mutants are inferior and not good enough for humans, as shown by how much larger April is than him in his hallucination, and may also crave some sort of feeling of equality by getting into a relationship with someone he deems to be superior than him.

Donnie has also claimed April as some sort of thing to own, in the episode, ‘The Gauntlet’ by saying ‘There's a creature out there trying to hurt my April’ but apologetically changes it to just ‘April’ after he notices April's raised eyebrow at the choice of words. However, when April calls him ‘my mutant’ in ‘A Foot Too Big’ she doesn't stick around to see if he even likes it, or still wants to be in a potential relationship with her after the apology, quickly walking away.

And Donnie definitely doesn't seem to like it, being left confused and upset.

LEAVING NOTE : Thank you for reading, and I hope it was a bit more in - depth and well explained than the last analysis! I just want to say this isn't an attack on April’s character either - the writing isn't great in 2012, each character has noteworthy flaws and I don't think one character's behaviour is ultimately worse than another, including April's. Both her and Donnie are flawed, just like other characters, and I love them both.

Donnie while saying 'Because he's human, that's why.'

Donnie, at the end of 'A Foot Too Big.'