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febuary 17, 2024 — just for tonight

my curtains are closed

writing down poems i could compose

the music is slow, we're going with the flow

and i can't help but ask "what are you thinking?"

"nothing," you say, but i know things aren't easy that way

but i'll let it be, i can wait, it's okay

we don't have to talk about it

as long as you stay, we can forget about it

sometimes i still get sick

anxiety's a blood sucking tick

i say something stupid and you say life's a dick

and for a month, we'll do anything but stick

so tired of trying to be

trying to get make it in life just to be free

feeling and fearing things we can't see

why can't we be just you and me?

but until then, i'll let the silence envelop

the noise outside makes your ears swell up

so we'll make a place to dry your tears

and even just for tonight, you can let go of your fears

— reddestofscarves, 8:10 pm

i wish to kiss you

in places the sunlight from the window doesn't reach

at the wrong moment to breach

on the dented mattress and pillow

in the heart you will never let me know.

- reddestofscarves, 10:23pm on febuary 8, 2024

febuary 3, 2024 — night time is a past-time

darling, the moon and stars know your name

every night i sing about it with shame

and every sonnet i write is the same

will you ever forgive me again?

in the dark of night, these terrors lie

creepies that crawl and bats that fly

something i can't face, in the clouds i'm still high

'cause my greatest fear is saying goodbye

but i used to bike in this neighbourhood of mine

lately all that's passed the streets is time

so it goes and the churchbells chime

i'll have to accept i'm out your light of lime

moon's not out tonight, maybe i'll be fine

maybe this time i won't dream you're mine

moon's not out tonight, maybe i'll be fine

maybe this time i won't dream you're mine

- reddestofscarves, 10:07pm

did jesus, in his mortal body and all-knowingness, ever feel crucified by his own followers' dedication?

how was i supposed to know that to love beyond bounds doesn't guarantee reciprocation?

how deserving was i to be faced with the decision of drowning in my deep-seeded altruism or in my unconditional adoration?

- reddestofscarves, 12:36am on january 27, 2024

there is a hole in my heart

it's bleeding, the veins come untangled

my arteries are exposed

still, it morbidly pulses, even in death's clutch

and it's shaped like you.

- reddestofscarves, 9:33am on january 20, 2024

and even if i was a cloud

made of condensed water and humid vapor

i would've loved to fade away

by your warm amber rays and lightyear burns

if it meant i'd be the only thing you'd ever touch.

-reddestofscarves, 5:35pm on december 23, 2023

december 23, 2023 — holy

it was easier to believe

in tales of adam and eve

even though i could never find

the god they said was so kind

i'd grown used to it all

the gentle hoax the church befalled

a blind-faith religion or a cult of sacrifice

either way, it served only to pacify

so when you spoke the illicit truth

that you loved me despite my being a sleuth

you forgave the sins that were not mine to repent

and every dime, for you i'd spent

you showed me the truth of love

and it felt holier than any angel from above

— reddestofscarves, 1:35am