Bpd Things - Blog Posts

did i sit and stay,

like a good dog?

just how you asked?

my teeth bared,

so you’d mistake,

a grimace for a smile?

back to putting in the hard work, mapped some of my parts!

5.30.23 - Profit off the Psychiatry. (excerpt)

My parents don't like the smell of the incense i burn. Its religious. They complain about it behind my back, like they do me.

tonight the black hole where my heart is supposed to be feels as if it will eat me alive.

three hours later and i was in literal tears about how unfair it is that i have to work so hard to be a person. this Borderline shit got HANDS

i stg this shit is just Big Puppy Disorder. like wag wag wag my tail over this new friend, he is so nice and he is so nice to me and i want to be his puppy and make him happy too :3

i’m like some braindead golden retriever wtf is going on.

i just think it’s silly that my parents were a little sucky and now i’m a 19 year old with a personality disorder and an emotional support stuffed animal

to that one person

no revenge bcz one day ull realize i only had the purest intentions towards u, i never hurt u, all i did was love u, n i hope ull realize it n that itll haunt u for the rest of ur life

you might not like me anymore but ill always love you. ill never meet someone who is as amazing and pretty as you, and, in turn, youll never meet someone whos even a little bit similar to me, and i hope that fucking haunts you.

nothing hurts more than when you are in love with him & he is with someone else…

hi loves. i am not feeling so well.

send me some asks or comments?? pls? idk lol…

bury me with you.

i want to be as close as i can be to you.

forever & always.

i wish i also had a piece of you.

so you would always be with me.

they don’t understand you, my beloved.

but i do.

i want to spend my life devoted to you.

i am having those thoughts again…

i just want to belong to someone…

any applications??? ❤️

I’ve grown tired of trying to gain your attention, it’s obvious that you do not reciprocate. I deserve better.

we all love him, we just express it in different ways.

i wish he cared for me as much as i cared for him.

I tried my best for you.

Trigger Warning

i laid down on the hard sidewalk, staring at the stars while tears filled up in my eyes.

I impulsively messaged a old fp & while he instantly responded with positivity like he always has.

Simultaneously, my current fp messaged me back, responding to my response of his story on insta. 

I don’t even know why I’m crying, sure, maybe it’s because my dad has cancer, my childhood friend/bully died the other day, my uncle is in the hospital after being found unconscious on the floor, we are being kicked out our apartment, and im here weeping over stupid shit like why doesn’t he love me back…

I want to be able to go on top of a mountain and scream to the world that I am yours.

But, it will only be possible if you accept me as yours.