Every Word I Say

My ribcage is a bombshell

It's compressing the air I breathe

In danger of sudden ignition

By my heart which violently beats

Deadly Depths

Endless ocean of mercury

Unfathomable waters

Devouring the hearts

Swallowing the souls

Not a single ray of light

Ever hit the bottom

Not a single entity

Ever returned to surface

This treasure’s a reflection

Danger - Keep Away

And in times like this

I'd really wish

To bring my belongings

Into the basement

And forget about them

Again

Own up, understand your feelings and listen

or your feelings will own up your vision

obscure your whole view with a dense fog

and completely take over your future decision.

Tears drop heavily

Deep growling in the distance

Infinite moments

Sometimes

I collapse

Every part

Inside of me

Breaks down

And I lose

Every sense

Of Time

And belonging

The only

Feeling left

Of an impending

Doom.

Verzweiflung

Wolkenbedeckter Himmel, Donner und Dauerregen

Haben uns aufgegeben, können uns kaum bewegen

Immer nur drauf doch kein Bock drauf zu reden

Isolieren uns im Schädel und machens uns bequem

Zwischen Spiegelscherben und gebrochenen Seelen

Zu oft schon gescheitert - hoffnungsloses Leben

Anxiety runs deep

While awake

While asleep

A staircase too steep

An end seems

Out of reach

Die Welt um mich versinkt in Kummer,

weiß' nicht ob ich wirklich leb'.

Ich hab' keine Smartwatch die mir

versichert, dass ich Puls hab.

Keine Kraft mehr zu schwimmen

und die Wellen drücken mich runter.

Braucht mich nicht wundern,

Insgeheim wart ich auf ein Wunder.

I don't know who I am,

What to do,

What is real.

This anxiety and depression

Devour me day in, day out.

Every step outside

Is a struggle

A fight against myself

And I hate it, hate myself,

Despise myself.

Isolate even more

So that the world

Won't see my worthless being.

If I had one wish

It would be

That I'd forever

Disappear.