It’s Easier To Hide It When You Do Weightlifting Lmao People Will Just Assume That You Got L3@ner By

DAY 19

Yes a couple, and they all reacted differently

My family was worried a lot especially my parents, they tried to do their best

My best friend at the time scolded me (it was funny not in a harsh way)

One of my dear friend noticed and told me out of nowhere “you gonna 3@t right?”

Some of my other friends understood because they were struggling or struggled with something similar but kept an eye on me just to be sure I was okay

I have this friend that I love so much but don’t see that often, who told me that the fact that I was leaving for 4 months was worrying because maybe I could rel@pse… they couldn’t been more right AHAHAHAH do they see the future or something??

DAY 13

Really don’t know, maybe video and blogs.. ?

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💋

Breakfast~ tofu, steamed vegetables, rice, salad, and fruit and coffee Lunch~ vegetable fritters, tempeh, beef, steamed vegetables, sambal and coffee. Dinner~ rice, mashed potatoes, broccoli, steamed vegetables with tofu, an omelet, fruits and coffee Snack~ 2 coffee and 1 stomach medicine

Total:~ 1700

Proud of meeee for not stuffing my plates and prioritising vegetables and proteins hehehe

I wake up

No bloating

No sadness

And the light defining the h!ps bønes that’s start showing

What a great great day 🧚

I feel bad about what I @te.. Not because I feel stuff or hate my bødy but just cause I @te

I feel light and comfortable but just the fact that I took the liberty of having slightly more than what I was supposed to does not feel good at all

Trying to convince my dumb brain right now that I did not eat more than usual, just not on the same time but it not willing to understand apparently

DAY 28

Right now I’m just restr!ct!ng and sometimes f@sting when I feel like it I didn’t change my sport routine since it was already settled and I like it as it is

But I used to do a little bit of everything.. I was stuck in the cycle of ⭐️ing, over exercising, b!ng!ng, purg!ng again and again and again until last year Or maybe it was 2 years ago?? I don’t remember, my notion of time is kinda messed up lol A little mix of b3d and m!@.. lovely

Omg I so love the gym

Lmao i just thought about summer, I’m working in a restaurant next to the beach during this time and the good point is that I’m gonna move every day like crazy and dancing/partying every night but the bad side of it is that I will only survive on pizza and alcohol hahahaaaaa

I’m mean it’s the vibe and I shouldn’t be scared because, even with my poor summer d!3t, I always somehow loose w3!ght during this period. If it worked before why would it be different this time? But I’m still afraid.. I’m starting in 1 month and a half

I’m thinking one pizza a day + couples of drinks (and probably some extra snacks added) should be my maintenance actually 😭 I won’t have the time to count my daily intake anyway

Idk if I’ll be able to journal during this time because it gets really busy during the season so if I disappear, it’s probably because I’m doing fine, just busy. Also I won’t be able to w3!ght myself during this time but I will try to continue m3@sur!ng myself to track my progress or maintenance (and reassuring myself too let’s be honest here lmao)

Bonus points: my boss shows 3d patterns but don’t really link them to it. She always making small remarks and constantly comparing herself to me so I don’t know how I’ll be able to handle it this year.. I mean the cheque is good soooo yeah MONEY HAHAHA

My head is spinning, it feels like I’m dancing with the stars

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🐊

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 1 egg Lunch~ spicy cheesy sausage + 1 apple Snack~ 1 ice Americano Dinner~ homemade protein sandwiches (it looked prettier in my head lmao) + Greek yogurt and fruit (1/2 apple and some red grapes)

Total:~ 1200

I feel better than yesterday, I was able to r3str!ct myself a little bit more but finding the right balance with protein 🌼