I Wake Up

Still stuck at 53… at least my strength remains the same as when I started I guess FREE ME FROM THIS JAIIIIIL😫

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🐛

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ gado-gado with 2 krupuk + 4pcs of tofu goreng + 1 ice Americano Snack~ 2 ice Americano Dinner~ nasi goreng with 1 krepek

Total:~ 1300

First day of the trip and so far I’m doing pretty well :)

My final goal is to still remain the sociable, always smiling friend 🌼 Faking 3@ting like I don’t fear it and laughing with the people I love None of them will notice and I’m so fine with that I don’t want to stop caring for them, they deserve the entire world I will not become the mean b!ch or the ghost of the friend group I didn’t r3l@pse because of them so they don’t have to suffer from the sh!t I put myself into I accepted the love they gave me and started trusting them without questioning their sincerity Having them entering my life is the best thing that ever happened to me They are the reason I didn’t r3l@pse sooner, always showering me with endless affection I really thought I was healed for good but I just can’t handle myself alone more than 1 MONTH APPARENTLY The funniest part is that they don’t even know that they were my biggest support I only need their presence and voice to feel better 💐 I’ll achieve this and step out being the best version of myself For me and for them🧚

Faking the spark that is fading ⭐️

My period make me say my deepest feelings lmao

Please stay safe everyone, at least try to not lose yourself to the point of losing and hurting the people you love.. they don’t deserve it <3

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🦋 m3t@bday edition

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ chicken mentai rice + 1 ice Americano Snack~ 1 Sourdough chia cranberry + cherry tomatoes and vegetables crackers + chicken cheesy sausage +1 bottles of vitamin C orange water + 1 ice Americano + whole bread with Greek yogurt Dinner~ egg and cheese on slice of whole bread + green salad + 1 green tea

Total:~ 2000-2300

I really tried this time and I finally reached for sure the 2000 (I would normally need 2100-2300 for maintenance so it’s a win hehe) Since I would have never be able to do it in just 2 meals I tried the snacking small portions method and it worked pretty well

DAY 21

My nose (number one ALWAYS)

My freckles

My wrist

My biggest flex right now is that I have a meat bread in my bag and I’m strong enough not to 3@t it

Make me feel in control weirdly

FØ0D DAIRY

Last 3 days

Add more coffee and u good ☕️☕️

Sat≈ 1800

Sun≈ 1200

M≈ 1800

Tuesday coming soon..

DAY 26

Art.. that include painting, installation, performance and writing

Biology and science, especially micro and macro world🧑‍🔬

Sport, I’m currently in the gym but that’s only because I can’t afford swimming class and horse riding hahahahaaaa (give me money lmao)

Politics

Doing to much sudoku for my own good

Making fake scenarios in my head and talking to myself

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌺

Total of the day :~ 1000

As always don’t count like I do lmao, I made a huge meal full of protein because I was lacking of it

Idk what to expect from the sc@le and it’s k!ll!ng me right now

I’m so scared