'No one gives a fuck about my nightmares, But it's nothing you should worry yourself about.'
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Latest Posts by digital-dissociation-blog - Page 8
Me:-eats something-
Stomach:“GET IT OUT OF ME!”
Me:“You’ve had this before and you were fine!”
Stomach:“bitch what did I just say!? IM REJECTING IT!”
I’m bitter!
im having a weird day
do a bro a favor and reblog
Despite the fact that I occasionally compulsively overshare, people somehow still manage to know nothing about me
Now this is funny.
me: Fine. Don’t talk to me. You think I need you to message me all the time? Ha. I don’t even care. I don’t even care, not even a little. You want to ignore me fine. Go ahead. I don’t even care. You think I need your constant presence and attention. Laughable. I was alone way before I even met you. Pure childs play. Don’t even @ me. Don’t even bother saying anything to me. I don’t need or want it anyway.
me 1 minute later: *sobbing* I’m sorry please don't leave me. Fuck I need you. Where are you. What did I do wrong. Was it something I said two months ago? Have you left me like she did, ghosted me?? If I attempt to reach out will you block me?? What did I do?? Im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sor- me 1 minute after that: *trying to think rationally* He’s probably just sleeping. Hes probably busy with schoolwork. Or babysitting. Or the bank. Or family stuff. Or- me 1 minute later panicked: But he always messages you morning. Even when hes busy. He would have let you know. He would have said something if he was going to be away...What if something bad has happened?? What if something horrible has happened to him?? What if hes hurt?? What if something happened to his family?? What if hes suicidal and not telling me and I’m going to lose him??? Oh god oh fuck oh no oh fuck oh god me: What if hes just ignoring you? What if he just doesn’t want you anymore? What if he hates you? What if you pissed him off and didn’t realize it? What if- me minutes later:.....Fine. Don’t talk to me. You think I need you to message me all the-- and repeat forever.
Wow my bpd is acting up fiercely this morning. It’s so...annoying. The paranoia...it’s sickeningly overwhelming Like I see you’re online, you’ve been online for a while, you haven’t even looked at my message. Did I upset you? Did I do something wrong? Do you secretly hate me? Are you... leaving me...?? Who is stealing you away from me? Is it them? God it gives me such anxiety in the deepest pits of my stomach. Its such a feeling that screams “You need to be perfect! You’re not perfect! BE BETTER BE BETTER! HE’S GOING TO LEAVE YOU” I need to be perfect or he’ll leave me for someone better. I’ll be replaced in an instant if I slack. It makes my skin crawl... I just want to cry so fucking bad. I want to break down. I want you to hold me so tight and close, and tell me you’re not going anywhere, ever. Never ever.
Please don’t leave me, I love you. I really do.
via weheartit
my feelings for you are obvious, like ink on a piece of paper. your feelings for me are uncertain, like the changing constellations in the sky.
Beawings (via wingsandwhiskers)
I love him and this is not the scary part. He doesn’t love me and even this isn’t the scary part. The scary part is that I won’t be able to love anyone else like I love him
JustScribbledWords (via justscribbledwords)
Reginald Hargreeves @ Klaus
I can’t look at the night sky the same anymore. It makes me sad that It only makes me think about her and you.
I think its time to find a new world with a new sky.
Creating long continuous daydreams to try and go to sleep: great
Creating long continuous daydreams when you’re bored as fuck trying to pass the time: great
Creating long continuous daydreams on a Friday night and realising you’re single and are fantasising over a fictional world and no one actually cares about you: not so great
I only want human contact from the person I’m attached to…other than that I’d rather be alone.
you should experience this. via
https://www.vitaminwater.com/hit-refresh-for-exotic-mango-island-pic/and-20fl-oz-of-tropical-oasis/wow/wish-i-was-there/enhanced/e/the-hot-key-is-command-shift-r/electrolytes/be-sure-to-hit-refresh/but-not-too-much/you-have-to-give/the-page-a-chance-to-load/
Told all my friends I was going to bed and ended up having anpanic attack an hour lster with no guts to reach out to anyone :”) I feel like im dying ans my brain is convinced Im dying and I feel two seconds from bursting into tears and calling my FP to have him calm me down..But I wont. Ill just lay here suffering in fear because I just cant bring myself to do things..
Music always moves me in such a way, nothing can compare. It makes me feel so alive, sending me to other worlds.
chronic pain [ID: Two boxes with drawings in them,the first one is an arm outstretched with an x-ray like bones inside of the arm and hand. The bones have flowers and plants in them. The box under has a drawing of a torso with again bones showing with flowers in them.]
“You walk at home? Do you even need your wheelchair?”
Yes, because walking in my own house is different than walking class to class at school. I don’t carry a heavy backpack at home. I’m not on a tight schedule at home. I can sit on the ground at home. I can ask my parents or siblings to help me at home. I can crawl on my hands and knees at home. I can lie in the middle of the hallway at home. I can sit on counters and tables at home. I can bear a lot of pain at home. I can show that pain at home. I can collapse in the middle of crawling up the staircase at home.
Don’t tell me or anyone else where or when they need to use their mobility device
Can parents stop acting like providing a child’s basic needs is something to be earned? So many kids grow up traumatised because they were made to feel guilty about the existence they never asked for
Chronic Illness flare clinics need to be a thing.
They need to have holistic chronic illness clinics. You can go to them while you’re in a flare. They have low sensory rooms with soft beds and low light tv’s. Have doctors to administer flare reducing meds/pain meds, but also have holistic professionals like massage therapists, acupuncturist, mindfulness workers, physical therapists, chiropractors etc etc.
Basically so that you’re entire body and mind can heal because the reality of this is mind and body health need to be aligned.
This is especially necessary because going to an ER for a flare can be so terrible and increase the intensity of the flare. It’s so bright and you have to wait for hours to be seen by doctors who let’s be honest don’t specialize in chronic illness, and are trying to jam in as many patients as they can because of being over capacity.
This is what healthcare would look like if it was designed by the sick.
Doctor: So there’s nothing we can do from here…
Me: (having done hours of academic research on the subject)
There is no specific amount of time a switch can take. Some systems switch in a split second, some switch within 30 seconds, a minute, five minutes, or even hours! It all depends on the system and the reason for the switch.
-Casper
brain: it seems like problems are happening. would you like to pretend they’re not and think about fictional characters instead?
me: yes please
anyone else ever daydream for 6 hours straight and then after ur just like nah let’s scrap that and do it all again but slightly to the left
To the next random entitled guy who decides that after just meeting me, sending me an unwanted disgusting cock picture is a good way to get my attention after being busy for a couple hours;
I will cut that pathetic wad of diseased flesh off your body, smash it with a meat hammer until its perfect to roll into a pointed shape, freeze it until its actually hard in a useful way, not to mention sharp, preceed to then cut you flesh deep groin to sternum, stab it deep into your trachea, and while watching you gurgle and drown in your own blood will i lean close enough to whisper in your ear “ Is this enough attention for you sweetheart?”
Because if you honestly think that any of those actions you do are excusable, quirky, or even charming, you are gravely mistaken; and you should drown on your own blood if you think that sexually harassing anyone with the sight of your disgusting little hob nob attention-entitled narcissistic prick is the way to keep a conversation going.