Where Every Scroll is a New Adventure
So, I've had the most roller-coaster of a ride with religion. At this point, I just don't care. They're all real. They're all there in the world, and when you die, you go to where you believe. Because I've had enough about religion because there's too many in the world and it's confusing.
But that's not the point. So I decided to put up my Hades, Aphrodite, Loki, Apollo, and Hermes alters up.
Before I decided to do that, I brought some 18+ dice for some fun, and just why not, and that was before I decided to put the alters back up.
Explain to me... why I felt drawn to giving Loki those dice, with the explanation of how to use those dice on his alter with three fidget toys near it and a (porcelain?) goose with its head smashed??? He/They/She/It (whatever Loki identities as) is really showing their chaos already!
So for two to three days I've been not able to give incense offerings or light their candles to the deities who I have alters for because I've been using a gas lighter and it's empty now and I have a fear of using matches. So, in return, I've done a drawing/prayer offering on a piece of paper that has taken these days to do one individually for them all. While this has been happening, I've been worried that they are disappointed in me or upset, but then I had to remind myself, and i'm still reminding myself that they know we're human. They know we're doing our best. They know we can't do everything. They i have assumed have figured out that I have an addiction to my phone and have a huge trouble using it for less than 10 hours. Humans make mistakes, humans can't do everything, humans can only do what we can, they know we're trying our best, and that we can and will try to make it up to them later about it.
So Loki's original candle that I had for him was very small (as it has melted obviously) and I felt bad seeing it two days ago? So I told him I would get him a new candle, I did, and his flame on the candle was incredibly small. It was barely there, so I was freaking out. I was asking him if he was okay, if he had a bad day. (Loki and Hekate don't really do any communication with me it's more if I feel drawn to something or a yes/no, which pops up in my head). I did a drawing of him and wrote a small prayer on that drawing for him, hoping he'll like it and his flame would go up. It didn't for the record.
Then I put the original candle back, deciding he might want it back, and his flame was still small. After some time later I told him that if he's had a bad day, I hope tomorrow will be better for him and that if I had offended/hurt/upset/insulted him without realising I do apologise as that is never my intention.
I thought 'Loki if you forgive me, please give me a sign,' but then I realised he doesn't HAVE to forgive me if it was my fault. He could have just had a bad day for all I know. But he doesn't have to forgive me. He can just accept what happened and move on, and that's okay. One of the first things I have told him was 'I'm not going to force you to do anything', and I'm still going by that.
It's okay to have a shorter time with deities if your tired or you've had an eventful day and need some time to recover, they will understand.
I have a routine with Loki and Lady Hekate, at 5pm I devote an hour for them both. But yesterday so many things happened and I walked to get dinner, then my sister offered to watch a movie with me (that never happens) and I agreed. By the time when that was all done, it was 7pm, I was starting to get a little tired.
I gave Loki a new candle as an offering and to keep my promise I gave him the day before. I didn't give neither Loki or Hekate a incense offering because it was late and I just wasn't up to it. I meditated for four minutes, then gave Lady Hekate a glass of milk for an offering. I wished them both a good day, apologised that I didn't do some of my normal routines with them and then blew out their candles.
I felt bad but then realised they knew we're human. They know we can get tired and lose track of time. They know we have people in our lives and other things that require our attention as long as you make it up to them later, then you can relax. Just breathe, they understand.
If anyone asks me in the future why I believe in Greek gods, norse gods, Egyptian gods, and any other pagan gods are real, I'm going to tell them this. One, there are so many people talking about their experiences that it's hard to believe it's not real. Secondly, there are so many stories about them that makes it hard to believe someone just randomly made them up. Finally, I just offered a glass of milk to lady Hekate after I felt drawn to offer that to her and when I gave her that offering her candle for a few seconds went up and wild and I instantly knew she liked it and was excited. That made me feel good to know she liked it and was happy and made me believe even further that the gods from the past are real, all of them are.
So I understand why we have alters/shrines for deities, and I have two separate ones for Hekate and Loki.
But how about also having an alter/shrine to ourselves? Worship ourselves like we would the gods? We are spiritual beings, and I think we deserve our own worship as spiritual beings but also as self care and self-love to ourselves. (Especially if we struggle with that!)
I heard about someone saying to image your a demon in a humans body that you have to look after but what if we made a shrine/alter for ourselves and treat ourselves with that respect and devotion we show to a deity?
I'm thinking of trying it and seeing how it goes.
You are energy, your soul is energy, your consciousness is energy, and your subconscious is energy. Energy can not be destroyed, and it can't die. You have a vessel, a physical body which can die, but YOU, Your energy, your soul can't truly die. YOU are eternal. Your body isn't.
When someone dies, it can be good to remind yourself that their energy, their soul, and their subconscious/consciousness won't die. Their body will, yes, but the essence of their souls, what makes them who they are won't die. Death is only a transformation. It's not the end.
I think my beliefs that when someone dies, you get to choose where you want to go has helped with that just a little. For examples: If you believe in Norse paganism, you'll be able to live in Valhalla and feast amongst the gods if Odin believes you lived a life worthy of that. If you have a polytheistic belief, you will go to the underworld and get a coin as payment for Charon, who will take you across the river Styx. If you believe in Buddhism or in reincarnation, you'll get reincarnated over and over again until you achieve peace or because you want to experience life again and again. If you're an atheist, then you can live into the void or come back to earth as a spirit if you want to, etc.
Anyhow I hope this has helped someone out, like it has me.
HELLO MY BABES/LOVES/CHILDREN/THANES/KINGS/QUEENS/DEITIES/JESTERS!
My name is Kai, I am 17 years old. My pronouns are: They/Them. I am a Gender fluid, Lesbian and Asexual person who has been into spirituality since I was twelve, when I first saw my late sister's spirit. I am a medium, although I do have trouble at times communicating and seeing spirits. I also identify as a witch and a shifter. My religion is something that I don't know the name of but just my beliefs: That all gods/deities are real, but there is a hierarchy.
1. God, the universe, Brahma, Allah are number one and just the same being but go by different names to attract different people.
2. Jesus, Budda, avatars in Hinud, any messiah.
3. Any gods and goddesses from any religion and Lucifer, Satan and Lilith.
4. Angels and Demons and Fae, mermaids and dragons
5. Angel guides and ancestors (whether human, animal or alien)
6. Spirits, ghosts
And that when we die, we just experience the Void unless we believe in a specific afterlife for ourselves. All religions have some similar things but are all a bit different to appeal to different people because a number one creator would understand and know that just like students in school, people learn things differently.
I am an Empath, medium, Witch and pagan. I've been a Witch on and off since I was 12. And I've been an empath and medium since I was 5.
This blog will be a mix of poems I've written, my thoughts/beliefs/encouragement with deity work, deity worship, witchcraft, spirituality, shifting realities, self-love, and care.
I worship: Lady Hecate
I used to worship: Loki, Hades and Persephone
If you are rude, disrespectful, homophobic, transphobic, anti-shifter, racist, and/or close-minded, this blog is not for you. I would request for you to go and find someone else.
Anyhow, I hope this blog finds people who are meant for it, and I hope whoever reads this has an amazing day. If anyone has any questions for me or want me to share my thoughts on a specific subject that falls into what this blog is for, I will be glad to answer any of your questions and/or post my thoughts on the manner.
My DMS are ALWAYS OPEN TO YOU AS LONG AS YOU HAVE GOOD INTENTIONS
-Kai