Undiagnosed Chronic Pain - Blog Posts

I need the world to know that compression gloves are MAGIC (for me)

Like I've had joint pain mostly in my legs for like 3-4 years now and it started in my hands which is TERRIFYING but compression gloves make it almost completely go away!!!

Also they look cool which is a bonus (holy shit my skin is paler than I thought-)

Hey, I've never posted on here before but I don't know what else to do. I'm trying here and reddit.

I want to ask u guys for advice.

Mainly on the topics of:

Dissability(mainly undiagnosed cptsd or bipolar, neurological and possible ortho in my knees) + ptsd and ~fibromialgia~

Remote jobs

OHP

So I have been working at a restaurant that is very busy as a host, bus, where I bus tables and greet people + get them drinks. It's complicated, but long story short my boss got burned by my ex parents (part of the cause of the ptsd and cptsd) and is understanding of my situation with them. She works us on a skeleton crew all year round because of us being in a small tourist town, where the summers are busy and the wunters are a flood of layoffs due to lack of customers. So she keeps on only what she can during the winter ALL YEAR. which when we have 3-4 waitress/host busses for the restaurant with multiple large rooms it is intense on even the most able bodied and minds.

Basically the trade off is he'll in the summer for job security in the winter.

Which i would totally be in for, except my body and brain don't seem to be down for the ride of 36hr weeks >:[

And I'm worsening, fast. Especially with the secuall assaults related trauma, making it increasingly dangerous for me to drive to and from work, which is almost 30 min away.

I want to quit so bad, I technically already have and said that I'll try to work 2-3 weeks more, mostly out of guilt.

The second main problem is that my ohp, oregon Healthcare could be taken from me if I quit a job without already securing another. Which I have not.

I'm going to keep applying to Amazon, and other large companies and a few small ones for a remote job and search a but on the area to for an office job (which would not be ideal, but still better).

But I'm quitting today, school just let out which means even more than what I already have had and I'm pretty sure that I met my replacement yesterday.

I honestly don't know what to do, I'm legally homeless and couch surfing and have to wait a week or two to even try to get my fafsa approved. (Which I might be able to get a job at the community college, IF I take at least one class)

I want to get a degree like paralegal, but thats after I fix my credit.

Lil vent:

It's so frustrating when it feels like my body and mind are holding me back from who I should've been... I should've been the person who worked hard despite her past and made a good savings and future for herself. I'm trying to get into a therapist and pursue a specialist who can help, but if I loose my health insurance I'm screwed. Gods, this sucks.

But seriously, the heck am I supposed to do ʕಠᴥಠʔ

Heya, sorry to be a bother but for the emergency requests could I get Ratchet, Rung and Blitzwing with a s/o thats mental health is taking a skydive due to multiple undiagnosed chronic pain problems? So sorry to bother you,,

I personally have to deal with this, so I get how you feel :(, but I'm not very familiar with it, like; I don't really know what it was so I did some research! I also have never heard of Rung, so I also did some research on him and now he is my child. Like; he is so precious and cute!! Anyways; I hope you enjoy this, and I’m so sorry for the delay, I’m working on two emergency requests at the moment and trying to get them both done as quickly as possible, so I’m so sorry! I hope your pain doesn’t hurt you too much, I couldn’t find out if it can go away, but I hope it does!

(Note: I’m so sorry this took so long! School ended up hitting pretty hard and I need to move out of my house in 14 days and I have nothing packed so I’m stressing✨✨😳)

TFA Ratchet!, TFA Blitzwing!, and Rung! with a S/O! with undiagnosed chronic pain:

Ratchet:

He has no idea what’s going on, but when you barely acknowledge him and just lay on the couch; unmoving; he gets slightly worried.

He’ll move quietly closer to you to see a stern look on your face, glossy eyes, and you staring into the abyss.

He gently moves next to you, moving down to your eye level, studying you. You barely move your eyes to look at him before slowly rolling over to face the couch. He noticed you grunting slightly as you did so.

He doesn’t know what to say honestly, so he just says the first thing that comes to his mind. “You ok kid”? It’s all he could think of, with concerns lacing his voice.

You let out a muffled ‘no’ before slowly turning back to him, face in pain. “What’s up kid”?

“I have undiagnosed chronic pain”.

He is confused at first. Bless his spark, he is trying his best to understand.

After a bit of explaining, he finally understands and honestly, feels bad for you.

“Well, I can fix it, right? Or your human doctors can fix it”? You shrugged. You honestly didn’t think there was ever a solution it the constant pain and suffering; or at least, it was very hard to get rid of.

He does understand though, knowing that Cybertronians also have diseases that cannot be reversed, but he isn’t happy that you need to go through this alone.

He assures you that you will always have someone to talk to, and can tell him if you want the base quiet, and he’ll shut everyone up for you.

He will also bring you little snacks or blankets if you need them, or will even go out and get you something If you randomly decide to want something.

He also have icepacks and heating packs on demand.

He cares for you and wants you to be as comfortable as possible.

Blitzwing:

He is honestly offended if you just lay down and ignore him.

He’ll call you out for it, but will be met with silence. He will march over to you, ready to verbally attack you, but stops when he sees your face in pain.

That strong, angry exterior changes so fast, and he is by your side in an instant.

His personality’s are fighting for control, all wanting to know what’s wrong or what happened. Random was the first to speak. “Meine Liebe! What’s wrong”!?

You just groaned in response, making his wings shift down slightly; wishing to know what he could do to help.

He moved close to you on his birth, taking you in his servos gently, and held you up to his face. You shook slightly, clearly in pain.

Your teary eyes met his icy ones as you mumbled out “undiagnosed chronic pain”. He is not as shocked as expected, having to deal with it himself, and knowing the pain and emotions it brings.

His face switched to Random, who (surprisingly) didn’t have anything to say. He just warmly smiled and laid on his birth, you in his servos.

Despite your pain, you smiled warmly, curling up into his warm servos.

You heard another switching sound before Icy’s voice spoke up.

“Just rest Meine Liebe. Rest your body”.

Like Ratchet, he will drop everything and even will disobey Megatron to get you what you need or want.

He loves you, and will do anything to make you happy and healthy. Like seriously; he will do anything for you.

Rung:

Robo Jesus is very concerned when you don’t show up to your scheduled session with him.

He knows all about you. Everything. He knows your problems and he helps in anyway he physically can.

He would simply sigh, before getting up and leaving the room, making his way towers your habsuite (forgive me if that’s not correct, I’ve never read MTMTE).

He would walk in and find you on top of your many pillows, your body draped in a heated fleece blanket.

He would walk over slowly, before sitting near you, moving his hand to gently stroke your side. You awoke from your painful sleep, to look into the beautiful blue eyes of Rung, a small, concerned smile on his face.

“We can have our meeting here”. He was a very understanding mech; he had to be for his job; and you where glad he was. You wouldn’t move but you would look up at him, talking him about your problems and pains, and he would just listen and pet your side; giving you an amount of comfort.

He won’t allow anyone to bother you if you are having a bad day or if the pain is to much. He would guard your door and would sometimes hold off appointments for your health.

He cares for you. So much. And it’s honestly quite adorable. He is always by your side, getting you everything you need. And he is afraid to lose you, so he sometimes seems like a lost puppy when he can’t be with you when Rodimus or Whirl need him for something.

If you want cuddles, he is yours. He will activate his holoform and be by your side instantly, holding you close to him gently, as not to hurt you. He is always so warm, so when your cold it’s a win! He has snacks in his drawers in his office, and they are always up for grabs for you.

If you are feeling bad about yourself or if your body hurts, he is there, kissing you gently and whispering how important and beautiful/handsome you are to him.

He loves you. Don’t forget that. Well-you won’t be able to forget it, due to him reminding you every 30 seconds.