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Note To Self - Blog Posts
Wait. That's right...
I've felt and thought for as long as I have breathed. I feel the world say "no," right as I start to grow. I hear myself say "no," simply because I shouldn't grow.
I have taught myself that I don't matter. That everyone deserves the privilege I have Except me.
Or that I don't deserve Love and loyalty Freedom and Rights because I'm a sick bee that will bring down the hive I see myself to be selfish and ignorant and cruel.
I try to do everything perfect. Everything "right." I try to fight, even when I know I can't fight.
Wait. That's right...
I'm not fighter, I'm a writer. I make my own world, With my own rules. I conquer lands and start bands. I learn from others for my own story's progression. Why am I obsessin' over my perfection?
But then...
What should I be if not perfection? Am I an academic? A scientist? An artist? A queen? A princess? A lover? A woman? A thing?
Maybe Just maybe I'll simply be ... me
Her
i could talk about the way she made me feel all day long, i had spent days and nights day-dreaming of the spontaneous adventures i longed to have with her
with my bare imagination, i could outline on a blank canvas the shape of her torso all the way down her hips
or the way her face lightened up when she shyly smiled
god knows how jolly my days would be with her divine presence
god knows she would be the cause of my sanity as without her, my heart turns wild and i lose my sanity unable to control my emotions and endlessly longing for love only she could give me
joy, only her eyes could give me, and freedom only she could grant me.
for her i would steal the sky a million times and over
for the joy she gives me has no price,
i would leap over mountains and cross oceans to simply listen to her speak of all her anime fantasies and all her favorite characters, to listen to her dreams and all the weird food combinations she loves.
You are going to laugh until your stomach hurts again. You're going to be in awe of a sunset. Watch your favorite show while you eat your favorite food. Find money on the street. Discover a great band you haven't heard of before. You will find your way back.
“If you inherently long for something, become it first. If you want gardens, become the gardener. If you want love, embody love. If you want mental stimulation, change the conversation. If you want peace, exude calmness. If you want to fill your world with artists, begin to paint. If you want to be valued, respect your own time. If you want to live ecstatically, find the ecstasy within yourself. This is how to draw it in, day by day, inch by inch.”
— Victoria Erickson
Note to Artists
Don’t look at other artists and say “I wish I was that good” or “I wish I could draw/paint/do whatever you do like that”. Look at those artists, then look at yourself. You’re amazing. It’s said so often, but everyone really is unique. Look at your art and say “I’m amazing. Look what I’ve created. I’m so cool.”
Trust me, it works every time.
some of you need to make your bed and have a shower with a soap that smells nice, and then sit in a chair near the window and have tea with milk and read a hardcover book and see how your creative block is after that tbh.
Needed to hear this today
Your disabilities’ effect(s) on your schooling do not make you a bad student; you are not a bad student because you are disabled.
Manusia secara tidak langsung "bercerita" mengenai tahapan yang sedang dia lalui, rasakan serta berbagai hal untuk berdamai dengan keadaannya saat ini.
Kita sebagai "penonton" tidak wajib/tidak dituntut untuk banyak berkomentar apalagi menganggap hal yang sedang mereka rasakan sbg suatu hal "remeh" karena bisa jadi ujian yang sdg mereka lewati belum diujikan kpd kita.
Karena bisa jadi ujian yang sama akan kita lalui.
having a quiet life is so.. underrated. i don’t mean it in the sense that people who’re open and loud and busy aren’t important, but when our culture has significantly put so much emphasis on the definition of success as fame, extraordinary accomplishments, greatness and importance and excessive wealth, i think there is so much power to be found in our own anonymity. in the silence of life. in not being constantly perceived, analyzed and performing for the world. in being able to take a walk, smile at strangers and just notice the world without all that noise. taking the biggest pleasure out of the smallest joys, like a cup of coffee or blowing out birthday candles. knowing that our lives don’t have to be a grand spectacle for others in order to have worth and cause a good impact.
🌠 Different questions to think about (quarantine's edition) 💫
You can try answering 2-3 questions per day, for example when you may feel bored, sad or negative :)
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1. How are you feeling right now in 3 words?
2. What was the most interesting thing you did yesterday?
3. Do you have a pet? If not, what pet would you like to adopt?
4. If you were a kind of music (pop, rock etc.), what would you be?
5. If you could levitate, how high would you want to be?
6. What is something on you that you find annoying and that you would try to work on?
7. Milk and honey or chocolate and syrup?
8. What superpower would you like to have? (You can choose any power)
9. What advice would you give to your younger self and what advice would your younger self give to you?
10. What is your favourite scent and flavour?
11. What color you would never paint your house? Why?
12. What is your favourite book? Why? If you're not into books, take a book from your space, open a random page and read the first sentence that you see. What are your thoughts on what you just read?
13. Why do we tend to say that dogs are loyal and cats are more independent? Does this mean that cats can't be good pets?
14. Have you ever tried a weird food? What did it taste like?
15. What is the craziest thing that you can imagine right now?
16. Can you associate black color to something happy (that happened to you)?
17. What is a problem that COVID-19 will bring to you and the world? How can you/we get through it?
18. Do you have a crush on someone? Or maybe, you are in love? What is one thing you like on that person? (It can be anything)
19. What is your favourite zodiac sign based on your experience? Why?
20. What is one good thing that COVID-19 will bring to you and the world? What are your thoughts on this?
21. If a fish and a bird met, what would one say to the other?
22. What was the last dream you had?
23. What is the best advice someone gave you lately?
24. What are 4 things you feel grateful for? Why?
25. What do you like to do when nobody's watching?
26. If things were different and you had enough courage and money, what would you like to do to be happier?
27. What is one thing on you that you're proud of? Can you think of another one?
28. If you were a butterfly, would you be one of the orange ones, the blue ones, or the little white ones?
29. Are you feeling anxious right now? Can you think of the reason why? Can you draw it, write it or record singing/talking about it? Can you make the anxious thought look like a funny one?
30. In how many years will you turn 30 years old? What are your emotions about it? What are the things you'd like to do before 30? If you're 30 or above, did you experience any spiritual change during that time?
31. Do you eat meat? Why? Have you ever searched about how meat consumption and environment are connected? How do you feel about the environment in general? If you could have a conversation with planet Earth, what would you talk about? Do you have a favorite continent?
32. Is there any way to know everything? Why do so many people want to have knowledge about anything?
33. Do you prefer knowing a little something from many subjects, or to know almost everything about one subject?
34. Caramels, biscuits or soft candies?
35. Who is your favorite celebrity? Why?
36. If you could be anywhere in the world right now where would it be? Describe that place. What feelings does it give to you?
37. Mountains, sea, or plain?
38. What is one thing that you and your mom/dad/sibling/family member/friend have in common?
39. In your fantasy, how can you connect a boat and a candle? A rose and rain? Dust and light? Stress and happiness? Cereal and a laugh? Sweat and pleasure? Waves and winter?
40. What is your sexual orientation? What is something you like on the female body? What is something you like on the masculine body? What is something in a body that you consider as gender-neutral?
41. Are there really genders in colors and body language?
42. Do you like the taste of lemon?
43. What color(s) is freedom? How would you draw it? Does it have a sound, a sensation, a taste or a smell?
45. Who are the first people that come in your mind when you hear of the words: love, lust, intimacy? What is your relationship with them?
46. What is your favorite holiday? Why?
47. When you're moody, what songs do you listen to? Open a window or go to your balcony/yard if you have one. What can you hear? Now record with your phone. What sounds does it catch that you didn't? Why did that happen?
48. How do clouds taste in the daylight and how in a rainy day?
49. What is one random but interesting thing you learned today?
50. What is your spirit animal? Your totem? Your spirit guide? Animals that visit you in your dreams? Your familiar? Your patronus?
51. Do you have grandparents? How are they? If you don't, do you remember where you come from? Who were you as a little child?
52. What is the importance of money to you?
53. What is your favorite season? What season were you born in?
54. Have you ever experienced feeling "void"? How can you describe the void? Is there any way this void can make you feel fulfillment?
55. We are all different, but what is it that sets you apart?
56. You're in the middle of a cross rode. Left, there is a dark forest. Right, there is a scary, foggy hill. Why are you there? Where do you go? Which way are you about to select? Why?
57. Wood or ground? Space or time? Wind or thunder? Above or below? Kiss or hug? Forever or sometimes? Walking at the beach on sunset, or looking at the stars on a rooftop? Dress or skirt? Touch or look? Warm or cold? Swim or run?
58. What is the greatest power in this world? In this universe? Why do you believe that?
59. If your life was a movie, which actress/actor would play you? Who would be your lover? What is the story?
60. Do you ever talk to the sun, the moon and the stars? What do you talk about? How do they answer your questions? Do you feel more connected to one of them? Why? Is there any planet you like more? Or any earthly phenomenon that attracts you?
61. Photograph or video? Poetry or singing? Dream or dance? Laugh or smile? Tiger or lion? Lyrics or music? Talk or listen? Cuddling for hours or deep conversations? Paris or Rome? Glitter or shine?
62. Are you religious? If yes, how do you feel when you think about your religion? If not, what are some other things/beings you believe in? (They don't have to be divine)
63. What is your clothes style? Do you follow fashion? What is fashion to you?
64. What are some pros and cons of media such as instagram, facebook, tumblr, twitter, etc.?
65. What is your favorite flower? From whom would you desire to receive one right now?
66. Do you believe in luck? Do you consider yourself as lucky? If not, why? If you don't believe in luck, do you think that optimism can bring "luck"?
67. What can you smell right now? (It can be many things)
68. What is one thing that you used to believe as a child, that now you don't?
69. Why would someone hang colored glass bottles from a tree?
70. Do you ever think of how things would be different just because of the slightest change in a past event? Do you ever wander what would've happen if you'd choose a different option?
71. What do you think of the number 8?
72. How many people do you have in your heart this period of your life? How many are there since forever?
73. Do you believe in past lives? Who would you be in your past life? Is there anything you're intuition is telling you?
74. Do you follow your instincts? If yes, how strong are they? What happens when you don't?
75. Could you describe your life (until this very moment) in 5 songs?
76. Forgiveness. Now, can you write down 6 random words that popped up in your head? Do they have anything in common? Do you forgive easily?
77. What is one thing that people will never fully understand about you?
78. Do you have secrets? Why? Do you want to write one down?
79. Can you imagine an aesthetic picture of a place like a room or scenery? What do you see? How do you feel?
80. What are you jealous about? What are some things you have/are that people would want to have/be too?
81. What is one kind thing you said or did today?
82. Are you an extrovert, an introvert or an ambivert? Do you have more energy when you're alone or when you're with others?
83. What is your favorite food? Do you believe in magic? Is there any way that cooking and magic are connected?
84. Do you like mythologies? What is one myth you find interesting?
85. Are you sleepy? Are you a morning or a night person?
86. What is your greatest career dream? (It doesn't have to be logical or realistic)
87. TV or radio? Classical music or opera? Train or ferryboat? Movies or series? Logic or emotion? Sharp or slick? Wide or deep? Heal or be healed? Hope or trust? Know or think? When or how? Who or why? Sweet or salt?
88. Are you easily cold? How does snow taste like? Can you imagine a place were everything is made out of food and sweets?
89. What is one thing you'd like to start doing more?
90. Are there good and bad lies? Are we just what we say or what we do or what we are scared of? What if we are what we love?
91. If you were a deity from any mythology, what deity would you be?
92. Do you know tarot? Is there any card that you feel more drawn to? Do you have a favorite spread or a favorite deck?
93. What is art to you?
94. What is love you? (Any type of love)
95. If you were a fairy or a nymph, in which element would you have power on? (Remember, this is all free of gender, anyone can answer)
96. What are your thoughts on genders, feminism and equality? What common ground is there between older and modern generations of people?
97. Have you ever tried writing a song? The music, or the lyrics, or both? What was it about?
98. Can you write down 10 positive and 10 negative things about you? Can you accept and embrace them all? Are there any negatives that are dysfunctional for you? Can you work on them? If not, why?
99. Imagine you are in front of a waterfall. Can you describe the place? The waterfall is trying to tell you something. What is it?
100. To start or to end? Circle or triangle? Launch or dinner? Romantic or edgy? Transformation or rebirth? European dragon or Asian dragon? Tokyo or London? Ancient Greece or ancient Rome? Grapes or cherries? Tears of happiness or a great laugh? Picnic in the forest or a car ride in the countryside?
To be continued... 💐🍒
Femslash Revolution's Tolkien Prompts Masterlist
It’s Femslash February, and femslashrevolution is hosting a prompt exchange to celebrate! Prompting is now closed, but there’s a fantastic number of Tolkien femslash prompts to fill with art, fic and whatever else you can think of!
How to fill them:
Once prompts are posted, you are welcome to fill any of the prompts included in this event. You can fill as many or as few prompts as you like, including none at all, whether or not you submitted prompts. If you post a fill, please submit it to us and mention that it is part of the Prompt Exchange so we can share your work with our followers. For non-anonymous prompts, please also contact the original prompter directly where you can to let them know what you’ve created for them. We are happy to accept fills at any time, even after Femslash February has finished, or after a prompt has been filled by someone else.
The Silmarillion
Estë/Míriel - attempting healing in the gardens of Lórien
Tar-Míriel/Uinen - rescue out of the Fall of Númenor
Haleth/OFC - struggling to keep the balance between love and duty with one of her guardswomen
Luthien/Thuringwethil + meeting again
Galadriel/Andreth - sharing wisdom
Anairë/Eärwen - pearls
Haleth/Lalwen + sharing a tent
Thuringwethil/Varda - Thuringwethil’s life before her fall
Varda/Ilmarë - glimmer of starlight
Lúthien/Thuringwethil - how Thuringwethil came to surrender her bat-skin
Aredhel/Galadriel - on the hunt together
Aerin/an Easterling woman - unlikely companionship
Yavanna/Fimbrethil - creation
Elemmírë/Findis - making music
Ancalimë/OFC - “However this may be, the story is clear that Ancalimë did not desire love.” (for Aro Week)
Nellas/Niënor - watching over one another
Morwen/Aerin - winters in Dor-lómin
Míriel/Indis - how it all began
Aredhel/Elenwë - stargazing
Finduilas/Nienor + a trip to the beach
Eowyn/Haleth, either through time travel (forward or back) or maybe reincarnation? I just think they would be amazing together!
Miriel/Indis + homecoming
Nellas/Nienor + flowers
Aredhel/Elenwe + happy times in Valinor
The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings
Sigrid/Tauriel future-based fanwork of any kind with Sigrid being totally competent and collected and Tauriel still being a giant adorable bad-ass failboat.
Tauriel/Arwen: “The light of the Evenstar does not wax and wane. It is constant, even in the greatest darkness.” “And Wood Elves love best the light of the stars.”
Tauriel/Eowyn + hospitality
Eowyn/Lothiriel, the relationship between Rohan and Gondor is strengthened by their marriage
Arwen/Éowyn - escaping their duties on a ride through Gondor
Goldberry/Lady of the Blue Brooch - adventures in the Old Forest
Arwen/Éowyn/Lothíriel - taking comfort together while their husbands ride off to war
Eowyn/Lothiriel + court intrigue
Nimrodel/Mithrellas - finding each other again, against hope
Arwen/Eowyn + exploration
okay but instead of coffeeshop aus
angry biologists au
historians au
librarians au
crazy cat horder and frustrated-allergic-to-cats neighbor au
jocks and nerds au
competing musicians au
unwilling dance partners au
marriage of convenience au
zoologists au
modern royalty au
drift compatible au
soulmate-tattoo au
werewolves au
afterlife au
last two people on earth after the zombie apocalypse au
cute clerk and regular customer au
young ta and hot older student au
time traveller au
hot disgruntled fire fighter and rambunctious college student au
okay list of angry dancing Silm characters to draw:
Feanor & Fingolfin
Varda & Melkor ??
definitely Melkor & Manwe
Luthien & femmeSauron yaas
cURUFIN & FINROD
Sauron & Ar-Pharazon
okay but Turin & Gwindor though
Langon & Eonwe !!!
on that note Sauron & Curumo hah
Melkor & Langon, maybe not angry maybe just scary intense
Feanor & Melkor leave me to d i e