My Quotes - Blog Posts

“Why do you keep looking for the comfort you’ll never receive?”

“It’s the hope that I ever will find it that keeps me going, even if I already know the answer.”

"I am always jealous. I am ALWAYS jealous. No matter how much I have. I am always wanting more. I can't be filled. I can't be enough. I can't get everything. I want more. I want more. And I have so much love, blessings, accomplishments, money, talent----more than I deserve for free and I still chase for more. I still scoff at other's happiness. I still wish for their failures. I pray for their downfall. I want to see them get beautifully destroyed, just because I don't want to see them succeed. I still want what they have even if in reality, I don't need it, I want it so they can't have it. I am so petty, so mean, so ill. No wonder no one likes me. I am filled with so much hate and despair and spite that I could never ever have enough"

~one of my unfinished novels. <3

Made a horrible poem (because it isn't a poem more of a thing i wrote) about love. Here it is:

Love is a smile that lasts all day long

Because with the simple thought of you

I remember joy and warmth

Love is remembering your favorite food, flower, and color

And smiling when i see them

Because now i find you in everything

Sometimes when you laugh

I see all the other times

And i think about how much warmth and happiness

A simple sound can bring me

Sometimes days aren't simple

Sometimes we cry

But it's times like those

That make your smile afterwards

The brightest

And when i can't remember

how to smile

You remind me

If i've forgotten to eat

or take a break

You fill my heart

And when you hold my hand

And my heart

Close to yours

I feel like home

This is love

But mostly

This is you

"Delve into the shadows of sadness, shine a light to find truth." - me lol

"There are no laws, only limits." - My philosophical brain

Wait i just realized how wrong this sounds. I don't mean break the law i mean you shouldn't think something is impossible because it's never been done before.

Uh basically bees. Bees fly though they shouldn't be able to, basically that.

Quotes from gaming

Made by @sketchbook-gal-xe

Bonus image

Dante and Virgil in Hell, William Adolphe Bouguereau (1850)

Excerpt from prologue :

Death does not knock. She comes unannounced, barging in brutally and leaving behind an inert body. Adanna never expected death to leave behind her father’s corpse, sprawling in the middle of their great chamber, letting his putrid scent spread through their little household. No blood and no disease — just gone. This is what alcohol did to a man — or so the old lady living on the street used to say. How could Adanna have known she was right ? No one ever listens to the blather of the seniles.

A deceased man could not speak anymore, could not lie, nor drink, nor hit. The only thing her father could do was lie there on the ground with vacant eyes, facing the ceiling, his mouth partially open, emanating a breath that held no warmth. The overwhelming smell lingered in every corner, clinging to her hair and the dying plants. There was only one reason why she hadn’t gotten rid of the body sooner : a need, sharp and gnawing, was driving her mad.

Rotting flesh is bitter, Adanna realised— far too late, after a few days.

Kneeling in the mud, retching the sour tang of decay still clinging to her tongue, she cursed the moment her teeth had sunk into cold flesh, driven by an odd curiosity, urging and impossible to justify. Patience always made for finer meat— or so she thought. But, Death was imminent and thus it demanded immediate consumption.

Thought ?

#day1 : sharing random quotes from my book

Choas of thoughts

Sitting alone in the dark brooding night

The party in full swing yet she's left out

The nicotine in her system

Along with dreams and hopes

But she's never satisfied

Now she can't hear her thoughts

Because in her head chaos is rooted

Turning to leave or to leap into desperation

But she's fine because she knows

She knows the sting of thorns of love

She knows her drugs

She knows her love

All the pills she is high on

All the nights she'd spent crying

She knows her addiction

She knows her desperation

So she is going back

Back to where she started of.

Before death, I must live.

If you were a puzzle piece and I was a square, I would ruin my edges just so we could fit together.

I was never a human. I was just longing and melancholy that was shaped into one.

And now my tears won't stop because I'm melancholic tonight. Because I feel incomplete tonight.

I hate when the voices around me fade because I cannot stop wondering if i even matter.

And maybe when the thrill fades we'll realize how we were never too far from drifting apart.

I have many regrets but oh my love, I'm afraid you will be that one I'll never be able to forget.

Would you still love me if I was a phantom dancing in the castle you stumbled upon accidentally, with my blue dress flowing like a river and my hairs billowing in the midnight wind? Would you still love the apparition of me after 1000 years I waited for you? Would you still remember me...

My nightmares making my life miserable, I cannot speak. The house is silent, cause the screams of agony die on my lips.

So much agony in your heart. Offer me a plate of your pain for it hurts me to see you suffering alone. Darling, let me suffer with you.

Home isn't always a place where you live. Sometimes it's your best friend who wraps you in her arms and you know everything will be alright.

I don't believe in heaven or hell but if there's a hell, I'll meet you there.

The Tsunami falls apart when your lips meet mine.

And when I told you I loved the city, you set it on fire. Now I'm afraid to hand you my heart.

Bury my bones when I die and let the tree grow over it. The branches will still shiver at the sound of your name.

If I were to tell you all that hurts, if I were to open all my scars again, Oh darling would you let me bleed in your hands?