Mentally Ill Shit - Blog Posts

I don't rlly understand why I don't fit in with anyone :/ everyone just becomes boring, or is mean to me, or treats me in a way I don't want. I try to keep an open mind about my friends/people, but I want friends that are decent people. I want to surround myself with good people, because they would be good, and maybe I'd figure out the correct way to live and act around people, but everyone's who's bad has found there way to me ╯︿╰

I THINK I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I SWITCH UP ON PEOPLE SO QUICKLY NOW !!!

(this applies more for people I know irl rather than online)

So yk how sometimes you have fake arguments in your head ? I do that but have full conversations. But it can be very specific.

For example, I always think about what will happen in my therapy sessions, and since I hype myself up about what it's going to be like, I get disappointed and upset when my therapist seems to be going off my script

It happened today with my teacher. I built up the courage to go up to him and ask about the test and if I could do it earlier (since I was leaving school, before the time of the test) and the second I asked, he looked uninterested and plainly said I had to do it tmrw. It wasn't the reaction I had thought he would have (nor was it the one I wanted, I think he's a bitch for being uninterested, there was like 4 kids in the class and he was doing nothing, so it's not like I inturputed him or anything)

Anyways, I think that's the best way I can explain this XP

cries because I lost track of who everyone was and now I forgot your main

WHAT THE FUCK ??? AM I REALLY THAT FORGETABLE ????

AAAUUUUGGGHHHH WHY DO WHENEVER I POST ART IT BARELY GETS ANY NOTES BUT WHEN MY FUCKASS MOOTS POST ART THEY GET SO MANY NOTES, WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG ?!?!?! IS MY ART JUST THAT BADD AUAUAGAHAAUAUAHAGAHAHAHAUAHAHAGAAHAH

talking to people who don't cvt or just aren't really mentally fucked is such a jump scare sometimes

(especially if you jokingly say 'imma kms' and they take it seriously + get concerned 😭)