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how about a spritz of queer religious trauma induced lyrical analysis for your day ?!?!??!
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*NOTE - this is not the interpretation anybody probably intended from this song, this is just my own personal joy found in it*
here are some lyrics from the song hallelujah, specifically the jeff buckley cover (not that it matters but.. it does):
I am a queer woman who was raised in the church and now has an ambiguous relationship with religion as a whole. And man, these LYRICS!! They fill my soul.
"Baby, I've been here before / I've seen this room and I've walked this floor"
I see this partially as a call to younger queer people, as an "it gets better, ive been there". But I also see this as a message towards those who are currently religious. I was deeply pious at one point in my life (before a lot of thinking and feeling went down). I know how.. everything works. I was you. I understand your church more than you know. Don't exclude me or cast my feelings to the side because I am not involved in it anymore.
"You know, I used to live alone before I knew you"
My journey through religion (and out of it) was a very, very introspective and intense one. Walking out on that felt like living alone. Learning independence and identity was a grueling, but beautiful thing (and heck, I still am).
"And I've seen your flag on the marble arch, and love is not a victory march.
I've been to a few pride parades and love them- this is not a dig at pride for me. It's a recognition that everything is... so much deeper than pride. Pride is what happens when you are alone at night and telling yourself that you are, truly, okay for being queer. Pride is what happens when you hold your partners hand in public despite being scared. Pride is wearing what you want because it makes you feel good. It's little. Not explosive. (Most of the time).
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.
Pride is to be found in exhales of air, sweat, blood, and tears. It is filled with hardship- with the screams of protests that have gone on longer than we've been alive. The most human hallelujah is not a sweet one. It's the sigh of relief when you come out to somebody and they dont.. leave your life forever. It's the trauma that comes from years, and years, and years of hiding and fear and hatred. And the realization that you have survived and you stand here still today to continue fighting. THAT is hallelujah. And some may never understand. But you do.
Winning at betrayal.
I still feel her ghost inside me. numbing sting,I thought would subside by now. I wore my self out. you burned me down. and I was happy. down that road we always drove.I loved it then, but wish to forget it now. those songs we sang never meant more. all that I was somehow turned to ruin, and into nothing... and no more. swept and trampled under the rug. my morals walking out the door behind me. back turned. I didnt care.I dont know how. but all I have to blame is love. no no. it was you my dear. that wasnt love. but I still swallow that knot of rage. that gulp of pain. willingly for you. theres no more I can do. No not for you. no not for you. even if I wanted to. but Im confused. like cattle. I was herded. left undone and deserted. I was more than scared. and Im still scared. a golden tongue a raised right hand, blasphemy. I never even knew. why, just explain to me. just one time. time to put my writhing mind at peace. its ok. ill be ok. its ok. now I keep you as memory, like a melody I cant shake from my history. a tale better told as fantasy end tragedy. or maybe played out on the big screen. but not to me. no not to me. I hope one day... just so you know.. it was the end of that life. and as weak as I am I didnt do it. Always stronger than I think and more than youd credit me. With no one to guide me I flew into the sun. I am not your savior. a knight with no armor. but a castle around my heart. but theres still ways in. though Ive heard it haunted. The sun will shine again and burn away the shadows. leaving only scars. no pain. just reminders of the hardest battles never won. to remind you how you lived through everything you thought would have you come undone. and with that you realize. Ive already ...
27/02/22
Thâm tâm lại tự trách giây phút em nể bản than mình quá nhiều,
Em để bản than mình hóa liều, quá liều.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sq12F5nn-LU
27/02/22
Tự do như làn khói như điếu thuốc chưa từng cháy
Thả mình về đại dương như dòng sông chưa từng chảy
Vùi mình trong bóng đêm như chưa từng có ánh trăng
Đôi bờ vai lại buông lơi như chưa từng có gánh nặng.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAlCEiAvnw4
26/02/22
ngày 100, quả chò như rơi thật chậm
bức thư đầu tiên em trao, là một chiếc thiệp hồng đỏ thắm.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4PIcKL18kY
25/02/22
Nơi màn đêm muôn loài cây đang hít thở,
cho hỏi nếu là sương em có muốn nương nhờ?
Khi mà anh như chồi lá đang chớm nở,
xanh thật xanh với tình yêu và ước mơ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6vkQ7D2Vb8&list=RDd6vkQ7D2Vb8&start_radio=1
25/02/22
có một thứ chẳng hề mất là tình yêu
nó vẫn luôn tồn tại, nhưng có đến một nghìn kiểu.
họ yêu bằng kiểu của mình, nhưng người yêu là của người khác
vậy thì đau bằng cách của mình, hay là đau bởi cách người khác?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vILjz7a1pzY
21/2/22
Và ta xin đánh đổi một rừng tia nắng để lấy chút hơi ấm của em.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y576-ONm5II
kiss me, like long ago kiss me, i’m still yours kiss me, i loved you father john misty kinda described my mood today cuz it was amazing but now i want to cry because...i saw him...and i miss him, and...he kissed me and that made me so weak. i was fine. i knew i was fine. i was getting over it. i was getting over him. and just...now i’m not.
Maybe I’ll see you in another life, if this one wasn’t enough.
Florence + the Machine / How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful
Wahhh this is cool >:0
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"Dont Call It A Comeback! I've Been Here For Years!" - LL COOL J "Mama Said knock You Out" - 1990