Leaving Home - Blog Posts

Darling, none of this is your fault. They pushed you to the edge. It's okay to run from here. To start fresh. It's gonna hurt, but my love, it won't hurt forever. You fight to make it to the next day, and you feel like there's no future for yourself. You shouldn't feel the need to contemplate ending your life. You deserve to run. Run as far as possible, and don't look back until your lungs hurt and your legs are wobbling. Run until you can't hear the screams and tears of those you once looked fondly over. You shouldn't be tied to your abuse. You've tried to wait it out and change them. You can't.

Leave my love. Leave in silence if you have to. Just leave ♥️

Oh, to be able to leave

I'm gonna make it far away from here. They won't stop me.

I knew homesickness was a really thing, but no one ever told me how much it hurts.

On moving out

We are all still here together

The sound of my brother’s guitar still creeps into my room long after his 11pm curfew

Next year those fugitive notes will wind themselves furtively through other walls

This summer though, everyone’s shoes still sit on the shoe rack

The key hooks are full

We still buy sultana bran and jatz crackers and his brand of shaving cream when we go shopping

This summer feels like a full moon

Whole and round, like a cake nobody has cut into

Yet

It’s candles are flickering brightly

But I can hear the first chords of happy birthday

He will come back, of course.

But will he have grown while I’m not looking?

A tree falling in a forest full of people other people I don’t know

Schroedinger’s little brother

What will I no longer know about him

This bright creature, eagerly unfurling from his chrysalis while I still find myself wriggling, fuzzy and green

Curly headed rogue

I will send all of my nicest things with you

Pistachio cake and dandelion wishes and that warm staticky feeling when you get the harmony just right

Recount your adventures to me when you get home

Who knows? Maybe when you return I will have grown too

and we will show each other our new colours

leaving

what if when i leave

i hate it

or they hate me

and im homesick every day

and all i want is to be back

but

what if

i love it there

and i dont want to come home

and its the time of my life

it is so much harder to go

when i am searching for

every

reason

to

stay

Setting Sails - a clever man once said that a ship is always safe in the harbor, but this is not what it was built for. This is the logo I designed for a TEDx event about a year ago, back when I didn't realize that I myself would be setting sails so very soon. Leaving home never got any easier for me, but is so exciting, enriching and reminds me of where I really belong.