Where Every Scroll is a New Adventure
I dislike Dazai
I dislike his stupid jokes and his silly behaviour. I dislike how he acts as if he is superior to most other or how he treats them. The way he sees life or his stupid jokes about killing himself makes me hate him. The fact that he sees no reason to be or sees no meaning in this life makes me hate him. The amount of value he gives his own life make me hate him. I hate how relatable he is.
Dazai always found comfort in Sakunosuke Oda and Kunikida Doppo. He trusted both greatly. I hate how fond I feel of those two characters.
He felt saved when next to those two men, as if he had finally seen that small light by the end of the tunnel, a reason to exist, even if just for a little longer. I hate how much he values them even if he had lost all hope in humanity before getting close to them. I hate how I find myself trying to get attached with someone that way.
These two men saved Dazai, they both looked after him, cared about him lots. I hate how I cannot find someone to save me like they saved him..