It's So Tiring - Blog Posts

my thoughts just thinking thoughts *thinking* my sadness talk talks talkin it's so tiring its tiring this is tiring mentally tired

i hate everything it's so tiring THEYRE STUPID no matter what Bites just ugh i don’t even care anymore I'm not making shit for her. I made a half ass card for her since she half assed in raising me I forgot it at our other parents house though I hate holidays in general. Easter. Christmas. Literally any holiday Its always the same I try and make everyone involved with each just for one day but they do something else I hate this fucking family Especially my mother I have such a love hate relationship with her she emotionally neglected us for years When we needed it the most due to PTSD and then she told us she was suspicious about our uncle (aka our rapist) but never did anything I know it was because we were all in a bad place and she was just in autopilot trying to survive But there was a chance. That we didn't have to go through the sxual abuse we went through from 2-5 I said I wouldn't blame her. But I honestly do. “Stay alive- life will get better!!!” They say “you'll get better!” They say And all we've gone through is more and more trauma I'm so tired of the optimism It's not going to do anything Most people forget us when they leave us anyways When have we ever been someone's first choice?