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🎀Why🎀 can't🎀 I🎀 just🎀 be🎀 those 🎀 anorexic🎀 girls🎀 with 🎀my 🎀knees🎀 to🎀 my🎀 chest🎀 next 🎀to🎀 my 🎀bath🎀 tub 🎀making🎀 sad🎀 depressed🎀 tiktoks?? 🎀
HUH TELL ME FUCKING WHY
The universe saw its opportunity to nerf me and did not hesitate
she makes me laugh when I feel as if I’ll never see the sun again
you know you’re down bad when every song is about her
I want to be booped but im too shy and socially anxious to ever interact with anybody :(
You ever just... Have that URGE to have a pen pal. Like, yes, having online friends is cool and fun and nice and all but I miss the long-form communication that comes with letters. I want someone I can write an elaborate letter to about all that has happened the last few months, only to recieve their letter a month later with all their little details of their past few months. I want the knowledge that somebody chose the paper, chose the pencil, chose the envelope, and put in all that effort just to tell me how they have been.
sometimes i wonder if i’m asking for too much when i wish for someone to love me the same way i love.
I was always a golden child, or so they thought. I wanted people to be proud of me, so I burned myself out since the tender age of five to make people fucking proud, so why do they take it for granted? Why can’t I shine as I did earlier? Why can’t anyone tell me they’re proud of me? I feel fucking disgusting, laying in bed all day and not doing anything, but that’s fine right? I’ll always be the one who when gets a C, she “Fell down” “Didn’t try hard enough”
FUCK YES I DID, IF YOU CAN’T FUCKING SEE HOW MUCH EFFORT I PUT IN, YOU CAN JUST GO AND FUCK YOURSELF. NO ONE APPRECIATES MY EFFORTS ANYWAY, SO WHY FUCKING BOTHER? WHY SHOULD I KEEP TRYING IF YOU TAKE IT FOR GRANTED? EVEN HELPING PEOPLE FALLS ON DEAF EARS! THEY REFUSE TO LISTEN EVEN IF I PUT UP WITH A VALID ARGUMENT, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG?
I've never felt like this... fuck I miss him.
Were keeping distance because were both not ready.
my scars haven't even healed, and i don't think they're going to heal anytime soon.
Hes not ready to be open and trust me
My mind is a constant battle, and even when we were "together", I couldn't mentally handle it.
I'm really not ready, and neither is he, and it fucking sucks because I think he's the one.
ik its only been a short time, but I think I love him.
but it doesnt matter. he's gonna move on soon, but I never will.