I Am Not Ashamed - Blog Posts

guys i am genuinely going Insane

Me Too

#MeToo. Why?

Because just because someone goes on a date or flirts with you, they do not owe you sex.

Because she was wearing a skirt does not mean she wants to be harassed.

Because it does happen to guys and girls, men and women and everyone in between

Because clothing doesn't make it anymore or less likely to happen.

I was wearing my marching uniform with shorts and a T-shirt underneath. If you tell me or any other survivor that we were "asking for it" or that "you should have stopped it" or "you secretly enjoyed it" I will personally break your nose. No questions asked

Are you okay?

I get asked this a lot. The answer, truthfully, I'm not sure I can give. I'm trying to be okay, so I don't burden others with my issues but I'm only suffering more by lying to people. I hide behind a smile because it is easy. If I push it down and bottle it up. I am ordinary, not really going anywhere in life. All of my dreams have been crushed. My best friend is getting my dream job and I cannot join her because I medically cannot. I mean her no hate. If anything, I'm proud of her and will support her until my dying breath. But I was still a punch to the gut. I am about to go into Dept because of student loans. I lie to the faces of the people I love most in the world because I can't be stronger. Everyone has their own problems to deal with and I don't want to add to them. I am trying to better myself. For them. Because they deserve the best. But I'm not sure that's me. So I have to be better. There's a girl I know. She's beautiful. She's smart. She's a great person. There's a girl I know. She's prettier than me. She's smarter than me. She's a better person than I am

There's a girl I know

She has it all figured out. I wish I could have her confidence. I wish I was her. I am jealous of this girl. Why am I not her? Why /can't/ I be her? There's a girl I know. I love her so.....

I wish she was me. I wish I was her 

Am I okay? No. Maybe one day I will be. But that day is not today. I am working on it. I will make you proud of me. I swear it to you. It may take a lifetime, but it will happen.