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Hanakou Familiar AU

So in this AU the idea of a Familiar is a supernatural being in a partnership with someone as in bounding their souls, not only do they share each other power but also their emotions and memories but that part isn’t controlled but yes also in a common definition of familiar in magic is a supernatural guiding and serving the person

My idea on this is kou come across this somewhere when reading some scrolls on exorcism and using it to save hanako in some extremely dire situation. soooo after that they tried to figure how this is going to work for now on. And also bunch of shenanigans in or even outside of school and the slow building of romance between the two.

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Just curious, but what your thoughts and feelings of hanakou

I think hanakou is amazing, I love them so much it makes me look stupid! They are easily my favorite ship that doesn't involve Teru, Akane, or Aoi, and their view of each other is fascinating!!

People don't really pay attention to them and a lot about how Hanako impacts Kou's relationship with supernaturals and how Kou impacts Hanako's relationship with trust with hope, which both serve to sabotage each other, is lost.

I am too sleepy to properly gush about them, but as a tiny example, think of Mitsuba's introduction arc. Hanako would normally take care of Mitsuba himself, he believes there is no future for the dead after all, but he trusts Kou, Kou makes him have hope, so he let him deal with it in a more gentle way that goes against his usual beliefs.

That's what started one of Kou's main arcs: A decision Hanako made from respect for Kou's own beliefs. Which was only possible cause Kou went to Hanako for advice for exorcism in the first place.

I have an entire draft on them that I really need to finish and edit

I am well aware they aren't canon, but I'm still very sad Aidairo just... pushed them aside when there is still so much to explore.

Sure! Hanako have too much to work with, since he is the main character, so I’ll focus on the thing I love the most about him: His inexperience when it comes to caring about others.

Hanako put up thick walls between himself and his peers, rarely connects to others, be they humans or supernaturals.

Helping students and keeping them safe is his duty, his punishment to atone, not something he personally wants, his own personal view is far more ‘cold’, Amane’s empathy was destroyed after he became a supernatural, beaten down after sixty years of being dead.

What he tells Kou here is true.

He has shown time and time again, people’s life isn’t particularly important to him,  he’ll exchange one life for another without guilt for the person he doomed because of personal preference, and had destroyed yorishiros since the start of the manga, knowing of the danger of doing so, for his own gains.

Before the manga story starts, Hanako is alone.

He plays with the other mysteries but he doesn’t consider anyone his friend. He keeps a distance even from Tsuchigamori, unaware Amane’s moon rock is his old teacher’s yorishiro and only seemingly not talking to his old teacher much, only looking for him when he needs Tsuchigomori for something.

He is apathetic to practically everything, drowning in his own misery: Tsukasa is the only one that can break him out of his apathetic state, and he is the one Hanako keeps running away from. Hanako is the titular character but we never saw his boundary because he can’t face Tsukasa, his yorishiro, finding it much easier to hide and spend his afterlife in the bathroom instead.

Tsukasa was important to Amane, and while he is important to Hanako as well, Tsukasa is rarely perceived his brother, his presence is mostly treated as the personification of Hanako’s guilt. Hanako hasn’t tried to understand Tsukasa’s feelings or expressed worry about his well-being: out of all his comflicting emotions, his priority is usually to look away.

Hanako has spent a lot of his afterlife in this limbo of running away and not connecting with anyone, but eventually, he met two people he got very attached to: Kou and Nene.

He loves them a lot, much more than he loves himself.

He will try his very best to face Tsukasa, face the embodiment of the trauma he has been running away from for decades, to keep them safe.

Most of the time, Hanako fails: he is too terrified to act, he gets panicked or paralyzed, trapped in the past.

He can’t help when Tsukasa is his oponent.

Even outside his past, there are still things Hanako can’t help with.

The guilt and panic and pain of having no use for someone he wants to help hurt, but Hanako doesn’t run away from this pain.

He tries to help anyways, to reach out as best he can.

And Kou’s trouble linger in his mind, when the kid gets depressed again, Hanako will try to help him again.

He want Kou to feel better.

He may have said “He is kind of like you, isn’t he, No.2?” but he doesn’t care about Yako or her attachment to Misaki, his attention is on Kou the second he finish his request: interested in his reaction, not her feelings.

He is selfish though, he cares about their feelings, but he mostly listens to his own, which is most obvious to see with Nene.

In the clock keepers arc he mentioned he kept Nene’s lifespan secret because he wants her to live her best life in blissful ignorance, but he doesn’t make her the priority, he makes himself: He is aware she hates toilet duty, no one enjoys being forced to waste their evenings cleaning bathroom, but he likes it.

And he rarely enjoys things, so he can’t let go of it. He can’t sacrifice this hint of joy for the sake of Nene living “her best life”

He adores spending time with her, and since he has very little self-worth, he is convinced she would never spend time with him by her own volition, he needs to use the cleaning duty as an excuse.

Is why he gets so happy when she calls him a friend.

This love, this care, is something Hanako really wants from her.

But is also something Hanako doesn’t think he deserves.

He can get frustrated by how much they love him, by how distorted their view is, as if he is a ‘good ghost’. He loves their otimist, and he get annoyed by them, he loves them but he is constantly looking down at them for it. He loves them but he hates himself.

So he sabotage himself.

He tells Kou and Nene point blank his bad traits “I am dead already. I don’t care if someone dies or not. ” “I killed someone and you shouldn’t excuse it” “I am selfish, I care about you Nene, and not your best friend.” are things he only tell Nene and Kou, as if he was screaming. “I am not a good ghost” even if he will never  tell them “Leave me alone, stop visiting me.”

Hanako is constantly fighting between clinging to what he loves, regardless of how much his behavior hurt them, and telling himself he should want them away from him.

Both of his attempts to save Nene involved being away from her, either trapping her in picture-perfect until she forgot about him, or exchanging Aoi’s lifespan with Nene’s, saving her but making it so he can’t see her again, and she would eventually forget about him.

The more Hanako’s love for Nene grow the bigger the lengths he is willing to go for her, even if at it core, his love remains selfish, he knew Nene wouldn’t be happy with his solutions, but he doesn’t care, cause she will live, and she will live by his own hands.

He acts like doesn’t know why he does this a lot of times:

And to some degree, he truly doesn’t know.

Hanako has many mental blocks when it comes to admitting vulnerability, even to himself. He looks anguished when he confesses to Nene that he wants her to live.

Which is a purely Hanako wish.

Hanako never had a wish, not outside his “wish” to atone’, which he constantly refears to as punishment, not something he personally want, just something he deserves.

 Even as Amane he had gave up on his wish.

So wishing for Nene to live is a very new feeling.

This wish makes him go against his duties as No.7 and his quest to ‘repent’, but he can’t even care because he really wants her to live. And is not like going against “god’s will” is what trouble him, since he destroys yorishiros the second he got the chance.

He can no longer deny he is smitten with her.

We can see this all consuming care with Kou too, even if it is more subtle it’s still very present, and just as impactful in his afterlife.

Nene is someone he loves but very rarely rely on, she is his special someone, he’ll go above and beyond to do what he believe is best for her, ask anyone and even if they disapprove of his actions, they can’t deny he is clingy, always ready to rescue her.

His view on Kou is different, he is someone he ask to fight and help. Is not that he doesn’t trust Nene, exactly, but he had the “I’ll keep you in the dark mentality” from the secon they met, while he never planed on treasuring Kou, he just saw enough potential, or use, in this exorcist kid, to occasionally rely on him.

Hanako plans for Kou only involved a vague “he can exorcise me later” idea, but he ends up genuinely caring about Kou after he stand up for him agaist Teru the young exorcist arc. 

It’s no longer just “this boy is so funny, and I can both make fun of him and use him”, now Kou is his friend.

Just compare how he treats Kou when he is in at Yako’s boundary, and in Hell of Mirrors.

He has gotten the habit to be honest with Kou, he is always counting on him on little things when they are together, and it hurts so bad when Kou fail, because Hanako trusts him, and he hasn’t trusted someone in such a personal way in 60 years.

Hanako is more comfortable hating himself them his friends, so he usually doesn’t let his dissapointment in Kou linger. Focusing most of his negative thoughts on himself.

Kou isn’t infallible, but he is the one Hanako trusts the most.

Hanako used to trust Kou almost blindly, holding on to the feeling, but once he is let down, he gets so hurt, he resents the feeling.

He is a contradictory character, cause it feels like he hate Kou at times, but he can’t stop caring about him. He only got attached to two people, he can’t pretend Nene or Kou “aren’t important”

He will try to be logical all he wants but his emotions speak louder than his logic.

We know Hanako lingered in Mei’s fake world because his deepest wish is to be human with Nene. So even though it is a big red flag for Nene to see Hanako as her classmate Amane, the supernatural couldn’t resist playing pretend.

Just for a bit, just for a taste of a normal life with her.

He is consistently selfish, and irrational when it comes to Nene. And while behavior with Kou is less and frenzied than how he act with Nene, he still deeply affected by his emotions

Kou can’t be discarded, he is important in his wish, the other half of his reason to want to be alive after years of just accepting his death.

Even may have made up his mind about not going anywhere, he still refuse to follow everyone to Mei’s exit, to the moon, but he wants Kou and Nene to always come to him.

Cause even thought Yashiro was his focus, an Mitsuba took most of Kou’s time, Hanako does make it very clear he want Kou there too. He even try to knock Kou out like he did with Nene the second he notices Mitsuba failed and realize Kou want to run away.

He risked Kou being in this world, indulged Mitsuba in his dream to be human and live a normal school life by the side of friends, which is a wish Hanako has shown to actively disapprove of in hell of mirrors (and is also same wish as the one Hanako have expressed in this arc), because Kou is part of his wish.

His motives for wanting to trap Kou until he lose his memories are unclear but his anger towards Kou for giving him hope after years of nothing only to realize his hope is false is all over picture perfect.

And Hanako is a coward, he discount his anger on Mitsuba, doesn’t explain anything, take Nene, and leave Kou confused.

Hanako only loses his patience and tell how he feels when Kou is in his way, and Hanako needs to beat him if he wants Nene to stay. The one thing that he’ll always prioritize above all else is Nene after all.

There is a certain determination to only focus on Nene after picture-perfect, not take Kou as seriously.

And what kills me is that Hanako’s attempts to distance himself are very half-hearted.

It fails.

No matter how real his anger, his care is just as real, if not more so. He is still eager to play fight with Kou and spend time with him. Their overall dynamic isn’t very affected.

Is always “Nene” and “Kou” and “everyone else”. Even when Kou isn’t in the scene, Hanako thinks of him.

There is this idea Kou is important, an implied “If I can’t save Nene, Kou will be the one to save her”, even with all the reasons and proof he has that Kou can’t do something as big as alter her fate, part of him still believe Kou can do it. Is a part of him that is illogical and Hanako hates it, and doesn’t want to deal with it.

So he focus on Nene’s lifespan, he became obsessed with it.

He has always been possessive of Nene. In any chapter they are together he is touchy and flirty and so openly attached to her he is insane.

He knows he is in love.

He also knows he is the ghost of a dead killed and feels like Nene deserves better than what he has to offer, but he can’t let her go.

He knows he is a bad person and feel like Nene deserves better but he can’t let her go. Even when he is determined to grant her wish, to make a ‘no turn back’ decision, his determination crumbles the second they are face to face, his logic dies and he is just… Happy to see her again.

Even if he knows his plans failed, even if he knows she will die, he just… like seeing her.

His love is openly selfish and doomed to not last, which is something he understands and doesn’t know how to deal with, but just like he can’t force himself to truly hate Kou and stop believing in him, he also can’t force himself to stop loving Nene and desperately trying to find ways to make her live.

He is a mess.

I just wanted to try this au from kous pov (what’s happening to him in the middle school division, heavily inspired by the reblog I had gotten from that post, it had me thinking and I haven’t posted anything in a while).

Kou’s life in the middle school part of the summer camp was going to be miserable, the entire summer was like a never ending horror plot of a crappy scary movie. Maybe he was being a little dramatic, sue him. The summer camp was known for its many scary stories and rumors,a 13 year old by the name Mitsuba Sousuke is said to haunt the lake at night and if you are to swim there at night he will break your neck and you will drown an agonizing death down the lake, he is said to have drowned in the lake in the middle of the night unexpectedly slipping on the deck, hitting his head and breaking his neck in the summer of ‘75, another one is that a ghost Hanako-San haunts the infamous cabin 101 (nobody ever tries to get that cabin, cause all the students that either died later on or ran out screaming for there life). Hanako was said to have commited suicide in that same cabin in the 60’s. Many rumors spiraling around that.

Lucky Kou cause that’s the cabin he ended up getting, but his new ‘roommate’ was no match for him, by terms that no matter how hard Hanako tried (to which Kou found out wasn’t a girl) he couldn’t scare him. Later on, Kou learned that Hanako was actually was a very goofy and smiley ghost. Kou later on met Mitsuba (who had his same cabin when he was alive) because he and Hanako played cards along with the Mokke and gossiped and complained about all the other ghosts haunting the middle school part, which he found out that the middle school division was the only place haunted by the ghosts and supernaturals of the entire summer camp (and the lake, and the hiking trails are full of Mokke if you can see them)

Kou also found out Mitsuba wasn’t as scary as the rumors, in fact he was cocky and annoying. He found his summer camp quite enjoyable until he experienced his own horrors, seeing his brother try to kill Akane many times (for some unfathmable reason, Hanako seemed afraid of Akane but at the same time he admired him, Mitsuba’s eyes sparkled in admiration as well but when Kou questioned it he quickly denied it) the pretty lady with the large ankles that he sees walking down the path in front of the cabins at night that always flashes him a smile (he never sees her in the daylight) and finally, the weird boy who looks strikingly familiar to Hanako named Tsukasa, he’s plotting something, he keeps following him everywhere and soon enough the loud speakers throughout the summer camp every day or so keep reciting the same sentences.

I once again have another terukaneaoi au (I love these losers so much) it's a camp au with a bit of a twist. (not really tbh)

It's the summer of 89 and all the parents are excited to send all their children to summer camp, which Aoi and Teru happened to get sent to (Kou comes along as well but is quickly separated by Teru because of his age, the camp is massive and is divided up by grade school, middle school, and high school) Aoi and Teru both have a goal set in mind, both don't quite know each other despite going to the same highschool but both are determined to kill one of the high schoolers in there camp and choose the same target, Akane.

Teru has a messed up mind, he's sadistic and violent and he hides behind a carefully built facade of a kind and thoughtful person so he can keep others from suspecting him, he's an exorcist, he's exorcised humanoid supernaturals, and he's always wondered since a young age what it would be like to kill one of his kind, the kind he has to protect. Aoi is the same way, she parallels Teru even if they are different in ways, she's watched horror movies, never seemingly reactive to them, she used to kill small animals and scrap them in an empty book when she was a young child. Her mother seemingly worried sent her to therapy and pressured her to be normal, she needs to kill something bigger, her curiosity is simply too much to handle and she wonders if they will react the same way when killed like in the movies.

They figured camp would be the perfect place to kill someone at, and so they chose carefully, meticulously, as after day one they decided Akane was the perfect target. He seemed quite quiet and reserved and they quickly tried to become closer to him, and tried to get him to trust them, (Teru and Aoi bumped heads many times, sharing glares as they begged for Akane's attention) They quickly realized he might have not been the best target, he was suspicious and wary of them, on the border of disliking them (although he was more fond of Aoi) he was very helpful and usually a lot of people were talking to him or asking for help, he was constantly surrounded by people, going back and forth to people. He was athletic and a lot stronger than they expected (They were both sure he'd be quite tricky to kill, but both thought a challenge could be fun)

So, they both kept trying, they eventually became a known trio within the camp, Teru and Aoi started trying to attempt to murder him many times without him knowing but withdrawing because the two were becoming quite attached to him.

Happy pride month (part 2)