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EYESTRAIN WARNING: THIS BITCH IS BRIGHT‼️‼️‼️
TAKE THIS SHARK AS A BREAKER BEFORE YOU CONTINUE TRAVELLER‼️‼️‼️
Okay anyways, I finished the Scenemo Steven piece 😋😋😋
I honestly just felt like doing this because hes silly billy and if his ass was on tumblr he for sure woulda been one of those “rawr XD” mfers
I LOVE THIS FAT BOY RAHHHH‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️
Some things I found funny in science class
Guy I sit next to :hey (my name) what's biodiversity richness?
Me: read it, it's right there on the paper
Guy I sit next to: I can't, I'm illiterate
Me: you are in honors classes? I doubt that?
_
My teacher: ok, if you have the spring pictures on your desk, go ahead and throw those away-
Guy I sit next to: rippes the paper in half and eats one side
My teacher : what? O-ok then
You know what? Why not!
Is it even humanly possible to get 1.billion notes?
Errrrm
Could I have some help to find out maybe?~
Pls
@stormingchaos12 @mrchaosman @moonmoth-art @fandomhasrottedme @100percentevil
@anyoneelsewhogonnahelpmethx
Like, spam the comment area, reblog, etc, do whatever but let's try to make it to one billion 🎱 for no reason
✨minor life update✨ short and sweet of it: -Still in Germany -Don't have clearance from 4CL to disclose what I'm doing in Germany -I miss my cat so much -Got a new tattoo! long and savory of it: I've been in Germany for just about three weeks now, and will most likely not be returning to Chicago until late August/early September. Thankfully I left my cat in good hands and I don't have to worry about finding other people to look after her during this extended time away (but damn I miss her so much :'''') ). I don't have permission from the higher ups to talk about the stuff I've been doing with 4cast while here, but be rest assured things have been as hectic and unpredictable as normal with the lab. Other than that, I was dealing with some pretty rough TAPS episodes my first few days here - I think the stress of traveling (took me over 24 hours to get from Chicago to my initial assignment in Germany) and the new environment has been the cause. Haven't had much time to make some art out of it, but I guess the bright side is I have some good material for when I can get back to making collages? Giant butterflies and bees, big trees, melting disease. Not all of it has been pretty, and the frequent sleeping episodes did not help the jet lag. Regardless, doing better now and experiencing a more typical rate of episodes. Got a new tattoo, too! Forgot how much they hurt. Now I remember. But it looks really cool and I'm super happy with it! Hopefully I can make some more regular updates soon, but no promises. Just when things start to quiet down, they tend to get real rowdy again.
Okay I've slept off my edible and double-checked with 4CL. I am actually flying to Germany early July for work. God gives His silliest clowns His funniest battles.
"fuck it we ball" is for stress about the future "it is what it is" is for stress about the past and "this too shall pass" is for stress about the present thank you for coming to my TED talk
Guys I swear I will post doodles soon but hear me out on this song idea/analysis like last time
Thanks, I Hate It by Simple Creatures but it's about Starscream 's and Megatron's relationship (not romantically unless you view it as such) from Starscream's pov.
"Am I good enough for you" portrays that no matter how he acts, loyal, disloyal, submissive or resistant Megatron will always seek the opposite or still view it and therefore him as disgusting making him the perfect punching bag simply for Megatron's very own amusement. In every universe, with the main ones with this problem being armada and prime, he gets treated as somebody with potential by Megatron yet he also denies Starscream that growth.
"I don't owe you anything" is something that Starscream himself would only think in his anger towards Megatron but may have only truly processed those words as true after the war (in the versions he survives for a bit after, such as him in the Windblade comics). This reflects how he -and every other abuse victim- doesn't and shouldn't offer their abuser anything no matter how much your life is centred and controlled by them, they don't deserve you.
"But I gave you everything" shows the fact that Starscream sometimes and maybe in the beginning of everything did try so hard to please Megatron. But he didn't need to do all of that as it only buried the hole he was getting swallowed by even larger and more difficult to escape from.
"Watch you pile it up and sing - Thanks I hate it" summarises Megatron's mentality and actions when it comes down to Starscream. Megatron will rarely accept something he gives and when he does praise is rarely given which may mirror any abusive relationship (I view it as an abusive adopted Father and their dysfunctional son that becomes even worse with the abuse - though see it however you want).
"No you're never satisfied" is Megatron's constant berating and thirst of Starscream's agony.
"Now you wanna run and hide" resembles how in the many times Megatron has been redeemed he has never apologised to the person he influenced and corrupted the most. The exception of this was Earthspark but even then Megatron was warning everyone how Starscream is worse than he ever was. He showed care for the other decepticons well being yet was inconsiderate of Starscream's. He's too scared to face the truth of his actions or view it as important to his path to peace, therefore hiding himself from his second in command as if everything will be dropped and sorted out.
The point is- Starscream should be accountable for his actions only if Megatron will be as well and if we brush everything he's done then we should do the same for Starscream. Yet Megatron should still face him either way if he truly is a "good guy". Starscream deserves that closure even though he thinks that killing and taking his place will ease everything it wouldn't.
explain your gender in 10 words or less without using boring words like “male”, “female”, “nonbinary”, “masculine”, “feminine” or “androgynous”.
go!
Fun fact: even moving out of an objectively harmful environment is scary. Change is scary. I can't really neatly define what I'm feeling as depression, but there's something that has me pausing before I enter my room because of just how empty it is. More and more my parents are getting used to the idea that I'll be gone; I guess I ensured that by picking up a house sitting job and staying weekends elsewhere so I could get to work on time, but still.
I get my new key on Thursday.
I'm excited to have freedom and be able to exist without having eggshells under my feet, but it's also so terrifying. I haven't been able to get out of bed on days I don't have work, just because there's no schedule, no one to enforce it. What am I supposed to do?
It'll all be OK, eventually, but right now it's a lot for me.
Here's to freedom, let's pour one out for childhood.
As an ex-Catholic:
fuck it we spout heresy
*reblogs*
as much as the concept of Jesus being a fairly normal lad has its charms, im personally very intrigued by the idea of him being just… extremely weird. not even in a mystical sense, just…….staggeringly BIZZARRE.
you go to the well to get some water, and here’s Miriam’s boy, staring at the sky, completely still. his expression is unreadable. you hazard a hello and ask how he’s doing, and he slowly, unblinkingly, lowers his gaze on you (he’s 8 and is missing his frontal teeth, not that this is making you any less uncomfortable) and says “I cannot speak of the state of my being, Nathan son of Saul, my brother, but rejoice for the water you shall take today will be as pure as the soul of the children of Heaven”
…you start sweating
NO I CAN'T RUN OUT OF TIME!!! I NEED TO FUCK IT WE BAAAAAAALLLLLL!!!!!!!
we're running out of time to fuck it we ball....
“Ah how good that we only live once! Had it been twice, I wouldn’t have fuckin’ handled it”
drawing Ukraine into Ukrainian memes as self care (original under the cut)
i mawst apologeize fowr zhe lack of origgginal cowntwnt on zhis blog lateaealy, art hasn’t been arting and life not exactly lifing either. also my birthday is in less than a week and the very idea is terrifying.
прікол я спочатку думала що ʼхуй потягнувʼ типу…буквально потягнув. як мʼяз(?). не знаю чи це щось про мене говорить.
Do you like putting characters through the horrors? I sure do! Read my fanfic!
Its a ii objectified au. If you haven't read objectified the comic go read it! Super good.
My story's got a lot planned. It's not super romance focused and mostly centered around plot. I'll probably continue to be posting art here abt it lol I'm hyperfixated on my own work dawg
height difference difference is takeinf me out
Obey me ship names suck ass actually. BARBSIM?? That's stupid as hell It's obviously Simatos. Hell I'd even take Barmeon. But barbsim? Repulsive.
Rant under the cut 😭
WHY DOES OBEY ME FANDOM NOT FOLLOW THE REGULAR FANDOM SHIP NAMING CONVENTION???
BARBEEL???
BAR
BEEL
?
ITS BARZLBUB OR BEELOTOS. LOOK ME IN THE EYES AND TELL ME THOSE AREN'T CUTER THAN BARBEEL.
((I actually really like barzlbub wait omg))
Like, Barbeel isn't even the worse case of this.. Dialuci is the og shit factory, why are we slapping the first few letters of their names together?
It's always been [start of first name] x [end of last name] ,, [top] x [bottom]. This is the way God intended why are we like this, am I old? Is this how ship names work now and I've lived too long and seen the world change for the worse? Are we cooked?
I know the fandom won't bend itself to meet my arbitrary want but ,, why is it like this? ... Diasim...😭
Only exception is Solodeus. Fucking perfection, no notes, live laugh love.
That awkward moment between being born and dying
HELLOOOO SAILORRR!!! 🙏🙏🙏🥰🥰😘😘😍😍
jayce i love you and your pretty eyes
I am making a post! I’ve been lurking on this hellsite on and off for literal years now! And sometimes I will have post ideas! But then I’ll be like “nonono THAT can’t be my FIRST post! My first post has to be SPECIAL!”
So yeah I’m just throwing something out here now so the next time I actually have a post idea (which will most likely be about whatever my current hyperfixation is btw) I can just post it. New year new me or whatever.
Devils Night By Penelope Douglas
My thoughts on the devils night series
Trigger warnings: All tws from DN series, sa mention, grooming mention, this is not a positive post. Note: Credits to @pro-logue-epi-logue for giving me the motivation to write this (girl I was about to write a whole essay in your comments) this is the first and last time I talk about this series because I swear it gives me a headache. Also, i think there might be too many heart emotes here (╥‸╥)
So, i read the DN series a while back (all the damon-winter content had me hooked and they, at least, did not disappiont but more on that later). This series was not what i expected for one, and for two i literally did not expect it to be a series at all. My opinion is probably biased based on my liked and disliked characters, if you disagree, scroll.
I'm dividing this into two different sections, the books and the characters because as a writer myself, (and someone who has analyze and review books thoroughly as her 2024 goal) i think the two deserve to be viewed separately as much as they do together. This is by no means meant to hate PD this is again just my personal thoughts on the series.
Also, I read this series some time ago, so my memory isn't very fresh. Feel free to correct me (gently).
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ THE BOOKS ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
ღ Corrupt [Erika Fane and Micheal Crist]
❤︎❤︎❤︎♡♡
Three stars for the first book in the series. Why? Well, to be honest, it was boring.
I think, while the book was boring, it held potential. Everything was setup nicely, and I feel like everything went just downhill from here.
Rika, at least in this book, was an okay character to me. She was a lost girl (understandably so), she wanted to live a little, get into trouble (like every highschooler in a piece of media not written by a highschooler). Even her obsession with Micheal was understandable. The plot was nice, it was mysterious, kept me hooked and didn't bore me (too much). The pace was a bit slow for my taste but by the end of the book i knew why it was slow and i enjoyed it.
The writing left a bit to be desired, but i think that that's just a me problem. I like a very certain kind of writing style which involvles a lot of deep thought from the characters and a lot of internal monologues (this style gets executed flawlessly by Trisha Wolfe, in my opinion) but I understand that characters from devil's night (at least Rika and Micheal) aren't people who'd have that kind of thought process.
Overall the book set a pretty good stage for the rest of the story to unfold. Rika felt relatable, Micheal was okay (a little dumb but he's not the brains of the group) unless of course we mention the grooming but we'll do that at a later time.
My only complain was that, in the begining the book felt very confusing but again, that might've just been me. I loved the aesthetic the story was promising and the atmosphere built by the story telling was mesmerising and immersive.
ღ Hideaway (Kai Mori and MOTHER Nikova Banks)
❤︎❤︎❤︎♡♡
Banks carried the book on her back, I said what I said and I will not be taking it back.
Anyway, so three for this book too because this book had potential but it was ruined by PD's favoritism for Erika. Listen, I understand self insert characters and even I have some in my stories and I love them more than life itself but I don't think Penelope accomplished what she wanted by shoving Rika down everone's throats.
The writing and pacing was all over the place. Rika was in scenes that had nothing to do with her and overall i think PD jumped too fast to some scenes and took way too long for some others.
The book would've been so much better if PD's editors or beta readers would've helped with the pacing. As an author myself, i understand how hard it is to not include your favriote baes in everything but that's why we have editors. So, this one I'm not holding onto to PD enitrely. (Despite the injustice Banks was done.)
ღ Kill-Switch (Damon Torrance and Winter Ashby)
❤︎❤︎❤︎♡♡
Boring ahh, virtually no plot whatsoever, my girl winter was done so dirty and overshadowed by Erika and Damon throught the entire of the book. #SoftWomenCanBeJustAsBadassAsTheCunningOnes.
This, ugh, I can't figure out if i want to put this in the books or characters. But god help me, the idea of feminism is flawed asf with this book is not great. Now, I don't know whether that idea came from PD or the fandom, but characters like Winter and Emory are constantly overshadowed by either 1. The men in their lives or 2. The other "badass" female characters (Alex and Rika, I'm so pissed because I wish I could add Banks here but my girl barely gets any screentime)
Overall, it was just Damon and Winter's love story before getting into the finally book. Not too much to say about it. I already said what I had to about the actual main character being overshadowed by Rika who, surprise, is not supposed to be the FMC of this particular book.
ღ Nightfall (Will Grayson and Emory Scott)
Warning: My opinion is going to be biased asf here because I'm someone who suffered physical abuse as a child.
❤︎❤︎♡♡♡
One star because in this book there was only 1 star, that was the star of the show, Emmy.
I'm kidding. Two stars because, yeah. This book held a lot of potential but I think either PD just doesn't work well with series or she was rushed to do this because all the potentiometer went into a fiery drain.
Actually most of everything was okay. PD could've solved the plot very easily by making Will's plan succeed but the moment Alex popped out of her little hiding spot, I cringed. So hard. (Cue me trying to keep my emotions in check while writing this)
This wasn't Alex's book and she shouldn't have been there. And I felt so SO bad for Emory throughout the entire book. I liked past Will but present Will irked me to no extent. It's like PD saw the vision of the character arc of "sunshine gone dark" but she kind of missed.
As someone who suffered emotional and physical abuse, this book was slightly triggering (grrh, Alex) but overall two stars.
One for not messing up Emmy's character and two for building good character relationships with Emmy and her two sidekicks in the story. (I forgot their name I'm sorry, Rory and Micah? Or something similar?)
The plot, the pacing, the resolving. Everything left me wanting more. It just wasn't right.
˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ THE CHARACTERS ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
Going to try and summarise my thoughts on them with as little words as possible so I don't ramble
ღ Erika (3/5)
She was understandable at first, she could've been a great example of someone who's kind, empathetic but still can be strict when necessary but the writing of the books failed her. I can understand why she turned the way she did at the end of her arc (Micheal literally groomed her and felt insecure when he couldn't control her anymore) but I think she's a strong character despite being annoying most of the time. I like that she looked out for the girls (a little bit, before the writing failed her and she turned into a pseudo feminist pick me who thrives from male validation) Deserves to break away from Michael's grooming and become her own person.
ღ Micheal (3/5)
Boring, boring, boring. Groomer. His personality got more drained the more the books went on. Manchild.
ღ Banks (5.5/5)
One of the only two people with brains. Literal the strongest character in the series. Can't relate to her but I wish I could. She survived so much. Kai doesn't deserve her. Someone needs to make her happy, like actually. She deserved so much better than what she got.
ღ Kai (4/5)
Boring but not as boring as Micheal. Has a personality, ig. Has (some) braincells. (Thank God the asain genes didn't fail) He should've listened to what Banks went through. Does not behave like a very healthy partner from what we've read.
ღ Winter (5/5)
My baby. She deserved so much better. Underrated opinion, she's actually so strong. Takes everything life throws at her with a smile. The sweetest badass ever. I will defend her with my life.
ღ Damon (5/5)
My baby (derogatory). I'll protect him with my life but I'll punch him first. Actually probably the only guy with actual brain and the only one who wouldn't cheat on his wife, given the absolute chance (imo). Manchild (affectionate). I love to hate him and hate to love him. Call me Winter cuz I'm blind to his red flags.
ღ Emory (She's so amazing she broke my scale and I swear I can treat her better than Will)
Screaming, crying, throwing Alex against a WALL for what she did to my baby. She's so me. I understand her. She deserved better than Will but I'm glad she gets to be happy at least.
ღ Will (3/5)
He treated Emory horribly but past Will was the cutest sunshine ever. He deserved better. Manchild (derogatory). Idiot (derogatory). I'll fight him (affectionate).
[Not going to give it for Alex or Aydin becuz they're not main characters but Alex gets negative seventeen out of five because she's a bitch (no, not a bad bitch. Just a pick me bitch who told a recovering alcoholic she preferred him drunk) <33]