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Will be starting the bonus stream soon!

Will be a bit late to the stream!

My computer is giving me so much sass today! >:T

MY SETTINGS FOR MY VTUBER MODEL RESET NAOOOOOO

Gonna be a wee bit late, my computer is giving sass >:|

But we are gonna watch book 5 of Twisted Wonderland tonight so grab some snacks!

Gonna be a wee bit late, my computer is giving sass >:|

But we are gonna watch book 5 of Twisted Wonderland tonight so grab some snacks!

Sorry everyone, im gonna have to cancel tonight's stream. I'm regrettably sick, and while that doesn't usually stop me, this time I can barely talk cuz of my throat ;-;

Idk if I'll stream tomorrow but we will see how I feel by then, hopefully better ;-;

Gonna be a wee bit late to the stream! Computer got updates but the damn thing is stuck on 100% installation :|

But we shall continue with our Twisted Wonderland watch party with book 4 so get y'alls snacks!

As much as I would love to stream tonight, the storms around us is getting pretty bad. Im gonna go ahead and cancel tonight's stream just to be safe.

If tomorrow looks good and there aren't any scary storms then I might stream on Thursday but if not then I shall wait for Monday with our regular schedule!

Sorry about that everyone, but please be safe!

Gonna be a bit late to the stream tonight! Trying to upload the Twisted Wonderland watch party vods but it's taking a bit!

More Twisted Wonderland tonight though!

I've made a Throne to try and slowly start getting my old stuff back.

Please don't spend money if you cannot afford it. I don't want anyone going into debt trying to help, your livelihood comes first.

Today's stream is gonna be a bit depressing.

This week has been genuinely harsh to me and mom, but today we had found out that a lot of our things back at the old house I had mentioned before is officially gone.

I barely held it together after hearing that, but on stream I ended up getting emotional while explaining what happened.

Im sorry to everyone that watches my streams to relax and get away from your own harsh realities, I just needed to express my deep sadness of losing a lot of items i might never get back. Some that had been given to me by my dad, such as books and knives he used to collect.

I genuinely don't know what to do anymore and after this week, I don't think I ever will. Im tired. I just want to rest and stop fighting what is just a losing battle with life.

Currently on stream im just trying to do a quick edit on the minecraft vod on youtube and pulling up a video for chat to watch so you guys don't have to sit there and hear my sniffling the whole time.

Hopefully I can bounce back from this but we will see tomorrow.

Thank you for reading and in sorry for bringing down the mood on stream.

Gonna be a bit late to the stream tonight, my computer is being a little shit >:T

Sorry everyone, but i'm not gonna stream tonight.

My mom is having a bit of a sick day and im having really bad sleep episodes despite having slept all of last night and the night before. I swear we'll finish Parasite Eve but just not tonight ;-;

HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!

(Cylestia is my mom btw! :D)

I hope everyone has a wonderful new year and happy holidays! Let's go into the new year head held high for we survived another year!

Image w/out words under read more :D

Yes the lighting looks weird and the mugs look off, but I still hope this makes everyone feel cozy and warm in the end! uwu

Gonna be super late for tonight's stream so if I don't stream at 7 like im supposed to, just know that im running late. orz

If I end up late tonight, it's because my computer is being a POS for some reason.

What I would give to have an actual computer at this point. orz

Heyo

So my luck must have ran out but I'm am super sick rn orz of course I get sick on the first of Christmas month 🥲

Idk if I will feel better soon but if I don't end up streaming tomorrow or even for this whole week, now you know why orz

So this week I'll try and upload the Medievil stream onto youtube to try and fill that gap so look out for that c:

Gonna be a wee bit late!

Was doing a scan on my computer and its taking it's time going through the 90%'s >:|

Character Info: Blue Ghost

I think it's time to finally sit down and give out info about one of the main characters: Blue Ghost. :>

Info under read more.

Basic Backstory Info:

She grew up in a farmer/hunter family who all practiced witchcraft. She has an older sister, and two younger siblings, a boy and a girl.

She died during the first wave of Witch Hunts in Germany when she was 21.

She had been infected by the (then) unknown illness, the Flesh Disease, which amplified her rage at the injustice of the Witch Hunts.

Upon death, her body was controlled by the illness while her soul was trapped within it.

She was saved years later by two witches and an ancient dragon.

Her soul was transferred to a doll's body before she could turn into a vengeful spirit.

Her rage and the illness' influence were held back by the draconic runes the ancient dragon placed on the doll's body.

She then traveled and lived with the two witches that saved her.

Over the centuries, she tries to learn about where the illness came from and how it could even spread.

She finds out that there is a cult that worships the Old God that is causing the illness to begin with and that the cult is making the illness spread faster.

She finds out that she is one of the 'chosen apostles,' the Apostle of Wrath.

Of course, she stops the cult with the help of her other fellow witches and non-humans.

The old god is doing damage to the Earth, so she decides to use her personal magic to merge with the Old God to stop it for good.

She awakens from the cacoon 9 years later, fully merged with the Old God.

Physical Info:

Birthday: March 20, 1604

Death: November 10th, 1625

Age: 400+ years old

Alive Info:

Weight: 160 lb (72.57 kg)

Hair color: Dark Brown

Eye color: Gray

Doll Info:

Weight: Depending on the era. Her doll body has gone through modifications over the years that could cause her to be heavy or light.

Hair color: Black with hints of dark gray.

Eye color: No iris', blank milky white.

Scars/distinguishing marks: Black and white Draconic Runes that cover her entire doll body. Scar around her neck.

Abilities Info:

Magic:

All witches can learn all types of magic, but they all have one specific kind of magic that they get and truly master when they first unlock their magic. This is why titles are important.

Blue's personal magic is "Metamorphosis." This allows her to have anything go through a major 'transformation.' This can be both a metaphorical and a literal transformation.

She also has her sister's personal magic, "Crystallization." This is the ability to create any form/type of crystal in an instant and control it (ie making them float or even using them to lift something up). She obtained this after her death and consumed her sister's bones.

She has a large axe as well that she made longer using Crystallization:

Other abilities:

Even though she is technically a ghost, because of the Flesh Disease's threat, she cannot use the basic ghost abilities (fly, go through objects, possession, etc.) as she cannot leave her doll body.

Yet because of the Flesh Disease amplifying her hatred, she can go into a berserker-like state if necessary, allowing her to attack harder while at the cost of not being able to fully control where her hits land (and who her hits are aimed at).

After merging with the Old God, Ugogthanoth, she is no longer a ghost, but a creature that looks like a merge between a doll/human's body, black ink-like tentacles, and a butterfly. Because of this, she has three different forms: Her human form, her Apostle form, and her Old God form.

Her human form is just her normal doll look, while her Apostle form looks more like this: Apostle of Wrath (Blinded by Wrath)

Apostle of Wrath (Wrath Controlled)

While her Old God form is bigger than a planet and looks more like this:

Despite all of this, she stays within her doll body for her human form, but she can use her black tentacles by having them 'leak out' of her doll joints.

Weaknesses: If her doll body takes too much damage, she will be forced to shut her body down, causing her to lose focus quickly and not be able to use magic effectively. Not only that, but sand, snow, and water can all leak into the doll body, causing Blue to either sink and get heavy or have her joints freeze up and she will require maintenance.

Relationships:

Family: Her mother and father, Walburga Bauer (older sister), Ursula and Wilhelm Bauer (younger fraternal twins), and her butterfly familars.

Friends: Her closest friends are Mercutio Ferron (Witch of Fire), Zephyr (Witch of Gravity), and Knowledge Seeker (Ancient Dragon).

Acquaintances: The other group of witches that are investigating the Flesh Disease.

Enemies: The Wild Hunt. They are a large group of human hunters that hunt and kill witches and non-humans as they deem them all a threat to humanity.

That's all of the info on her for now. If I need to add anything else I will do so in the future. <3

Non-Edited image beneath break ;)

Me omw to suck the soul outta ya steal y'alls candy >:)

*waddles forward*

Once again, im gonna be a bit late to streaming tonight orz

Ayo gonna be a bit late to stream today, eating a bit late and whatnot

I think for tonights stream I'm gonna just sit and relax with some vids or something. I'll start SH4 on Monday so I can play through it without stopping the story for a whole 4 days :3

I'll try to work on the other SH videos, I've been busy from finishing SH1's video and my computer is running out of space hoarding these 4-5 hour streams 'owo!

Silent Hill 2 Ending

Ok everyone! Now that Silent Hill 1 is done, it is time for me to finally continue with this series.

But! Since Silent Hill 2 has multiple endings and you need to do certain things to get them, I'm letting everyone choose what ending they want me to go for when I start streaming on Tuesday, Oct 8. Vote quickly! The voting will end when I stream today!

Edit: THE VOTES ARE IN! I shall be going for what I think is the best 'Good' ending for Silent Hill 2! Thank you everyone for voting! :D

It's Spooky Month!

It's happening, the best time of year! To celebrate, I will be streaming during October over on Twitch (or Youtube depending on if Twitch hates the game I'm playing) and playing a bunch of spooky games.

Streaming Schedule!

The current plan is to stream on Monday - Wednesday, from 6:30ish pm to 9:30 - 10 pm (depending on where I am at in the game).

This is so I can rest up properly and join @dysiver's streams as he's also playing scary games during October! :D

Games List!

These are the games I have planned for this month. This list could change depending on certain factors (how fast I complete the games, if they bug out, if I can keep up with my own schedule, etc), but this is the gist of what I want to play:

Silent Hill 1-4

Medievil 1 & 2 (PS1 Classic ver)

Haunting Ground

American Mcgee's Alice

Goetia 1 & 2 (2 is buggy so we'll see how far we get.)

Devil Came Through Here trilogy (Downfall, The Cat Lady, Lorelai) (Might record off-stream to censor the games)

SCRATCHES - Directors cut

Parasite Eve (with a twist)

Of course, things could be changed around if my computer can't handle running them while streaming. In those cases, I will try to record them off-stream and upload them onto Youtube.

Speaking of, don't feel bad if you can't watch any of the streams during the entire month! I will be uploading all the vods onto my Youtube channel as soon as I can. Later down the line I plan to edit them so they can be more fun to watch. :)

And that's it! Hopefully, this will be a fun Spooky month for everyone!

It’s Spooky Month 🎃

Time for the return of the Succubus costume uwu✨

Update

Hey everyone!

Sorry I've been absent for the past..what? a couple of months? Shit has just been happening so I haven't had time to stream, make a video, or even post anything orz

So to catch everyone up on what's been going on, my room is slowly getting destroyed by water.

So I'm still sleeping out in the living room since my floor is starting to warp like...really badly. So bad that I have to walk on the floor beams so I don't fall through my waterlogged floor. On top of that, the hole that the raccoon created is still not completely fixed. Me and mom had checked the room a couple of days ago and there’s some mold slowly growing on the ceiling not too far from the hole. So even if everything was fixed I still wouldn't be able to sleep in there.

A family member did come over to make a temporary fix for both the hole and floor about a month or so ago, but the temporary fix for the hole just fell off a day or two ago so now I smell wet installation every time I walk in.

On top of that, the water is spreading into the hallway and bathroom. So we have to watch our step everytime we go near my room or the bathroom least we will start to sink.

So I’m gonna have to pack my belongings and move them somewhere else least they accidentally get waterlogged, fall forward, or through the floor.

But there is some good news to share.

I never really said all of this out in the open like this but basically Mom had a heart attack about 3ish years ago, she had gotten heart surgery and what not but the surgeon fucked up somewhere cuz not only did she still feel pain from the surgery, but the bottom part of where they had made the incision never healed causing more problems. It’s been like this ever since she got the heart surgery. On top that, just recently an actual, honest-to-good wire that they had used to keep the ribs together became loose and had started to poke out of the hole that never closed on her chest.

We had been trying to get this fixed for the past 3ish years, yet almost every doctor we talked to didn't want to actually do anything and kept telling us to go to different doctors, plastic surgeons, or back to the original surgeon who did this to begin with. The main problem was that the original surgeon that had done her heart surgery in the first place had retired, the plastic surgeons outright said ‘we can't do anything until you talk to a heart surgeon,’ or another doctor didn't want to touch her in fear of a POSSIBLE lawsuit. ORZ

This was twice as frustrating since the closest hospital that treats this sort of thing is an hour long from our house, and my very easily motion-sick ass didn't help things either.

We had only just now found a doctor who could help take the wires out and clean her wound so it could heal properly and not cause any pain to her. I'm still unbelievably pissed that it took this long for an actual doctor to finally help us instead of sending us off on another wild goose chase that would last for actual months. Thankfully, everything went as planned, the doctor made sure to clean everything up. Right now, she's out of surgery and is catching some much-needed Z’s. We would have gone home today, but her right eye was hurting so badly that we opted to stay at the hospital overnight.

That's what has happened these past few months. Sorry if this post looks like the ramblings of a madman, I haven't had a a decent night of sleep these last couple of days so my vision is a bit blurry. >_<

Full Body Art - Blue Ghost

I completely forgot, while I do have a full 3D body model of Blue (which I will show in a later post), I have a full-body image I drew years ago that shows what she should look like.

Vroid is excellent don't get me wrong, but the amount of things I need to add to the model outside of Vroid is a lot. o(-< Like nails for example! I'll have to make the long nails in Blender then attach them to the model in Unity. >:T

Ok so interesting event that happened yesterday.

So I had been awake all night ereyesterday (I have a really bad sleeping schedule) and I had wanted to play the summer event in Genshin with mom, alas mom's computer had a large update that took almost all day to finish.

So I waited and eventually, I fell asleep on my books again (long story). I woke up a bit later, figuring that I should put my computer and desk away so I can lay down properly instead of sleeping on my books. So I do so, I lay down and I end up falling asleep again.

ONLY TO WAKE UP FROM MY ROOF CAVEING IN FROM A FUCKING RACCOON FALLING THROUGH IT.

So here I am, half awake from this sudden cave-in of the furry kind, with this fucking raccoon looking just as lost and confused from falling through the roof as I was. I panicked because I knew that while raccoons are cute and fluffy, they are not the best animal neighbors.

So I yell for mom to quickly close all of the doors after telling her a raccoon just fell through my roof. She comes back and we try and get the ball of chonk out of my room, and to be fair we did success without the little guy getting mad, but then he was stuck in the hallway.

Tbh idk what fully happened because mom had closed my door after the chonky trash nommer left but apparently he had somehow got on top of my dresser in the hallway and then fell and knocked a bunch of shit over, before running past the open front door, into the living room, and into her room.

So now we have a fluffy chonker causing chaos and mayhem in her room and we have no idea wtf to do. This all happened around 8:30ish at night btw.

So we try making noise, keeping the lights on, using vinegar to try and get it out of the room, we tried to use brooms and find him but we end up not finding him because this bitch just straight up disappeared. We have no idea if he is still in the house as I am writing this post, and trust me she looked all over that room.

So ok, we open the window, yeet open the screen, and then close the door so the fluffy menace can at least leave when we aren't trying to find it, that's the best we can do besides calling animal control which, we don't have money for.

So my stressed ass was getting tired again (my stress reaction is to fall asleep), but I felt legit gross and was stressing over the fact that I might have installation all over me (the hole is close to where my head was resting at) so I take a quick shower before I get to work cleaning my room of wet as hell installation. Listen, I know I needed to get my ass into gear and do some spring summer cleaning, but this was not how I wanted to do it Q_Q

Also yes, I wore a mask and gloves so worry not. It didn't help how gross it all was. Me, being scared for my health cuz that shit went everywhere, decided to sleep out in the living room with mom (who also had to sleep in the living room). Suffice it to say this was a very weird girls' night >_>

Me and mom had been up almost the whole night and only got any sleep around 3:30-4 A.M. and woke up around 8-9 a.m. so if this post seems disjointed that's why o(-<

Long story short a trash disaster broke through my roof mission impossible style, caused chaos, doesn't elaborate, then hoodini'ed into another dimension before we could find him, leaving me to clean up ceiling bits like a confused spouse after their partner came home slam assed drunk and just passed out on top of the fridge.

Introduction

Welcome to my blog. A friend of mine suggested this website, showed me the ropes, and now I'm here. Since I haven't used my real name in decades, you can just call me Blue. I am a witch that died centuries ago, and long story short my soul was transferred to a doll's body after being infected with a disease that was created by a Lovecraftian nightmare hellbent on making Earth part of its body. I am ready to do this...blog thing. Also, if you notice anything odd just ignore it.

OOC: I stream whenever I can, but when I do I try to stream on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 8 p.m. I like to play old and indie games so if that is your thing come on by my Twitch. I also occasionally post videos on my YouTube as well :)

I also have a summary of Blue's backstory if anyone wants to read it. Just know that It's long and it's told from Blue's perspective.

RULES: -Please be 18+, I'm not a Lewdtuber by any means but I still don't feel comfortable with minors following me.

-Please don't ask personal questions (e.g. where I live, how old I am, etc). Some questions are fine but the real personal ones I just won't answer.

-Obviously don't be rude, hateful, yatta yatta you should know how to act like a decent person by now.

-When I post art, all I ask is to not have them reposted anywhere. I know my art isn't amazing but I still want to say it just in case. I'll add any more if I remember anything else, brain no work o(-<