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Dean Winchester, Season 1 // Supernatural
Happy New Year!
Quick Destiel chibi sketch. ♥
This is an awful, but basic/idea sketch of a request from r00kiezart69. I would have cleaned it more, but my shoulder gave out. I learned I can't really draw people sitting in chairs......Sorry, I hope this works for you though. I'll try to find some time to adjust, clean, line, and color it over the next week or 2.
I Finished! ...I would have added more to Castiels wings...but my shoulder gave me a "nope" to that idea....-_-
I'm slowly but surely working on this...I've increased my work hours and that makes it a fair bit harder for my shoulder to keep up, as my job uses a lot of upper body strength/bracing.
I feel the need to line and color this now.....I've been working on this and what I'll be uploading in about an hour since yesterday afternoon....my shoulder really hates me right now...so I have to put a hold on this till at least tomorrow....because the other one is a sunday thing.
I missed drawing these 2. Sadly my shoulder hurts too much to do more then sketch right now.
WIP. I dunno if I want to add all of their clothes or just leave them in pants yet...and I have a number of small things to fix as I go...
Not sorry...but probably the last of the daily sketches.....as It has been 4 weeks, and I may or may not be a bit burnt out....
"But Sam said you like these outfits" ...more or less.
...I'm so done with the day I forgot to change the color...
Eh, Today ended up wincest. Best candidates for the pose and mood I wanted today.
I had planned on drawing Sterek today, but Destiel hit me harder just before I started drawing. So here it is.
I feel this is more of a mess then most of them...but maybe it's just my perspective of this one. Anyways. Todays Daily Sketch.
Todays sketch couple was suggested by marmar. She gave me 2 options...I was more comfortable with drawing wincest, but mostly for the familiarity of the characters.....I've officially made it a full week of sketching daily....each day a new couple...so far.
I don't remember how to draw proper lines and stuff or something...caus all I can manage are sketches right now...and it's frustrating. So you may just end up with a daily sketch, or something similar till I can find the ability to clean line and color them again.
...I apologize for the quality. Apparently I can't draw today. But I wanted to draw something with fireworks, and my husband casually said "naked people" when I asked for an idea other then fireworks to draw. I laughed, then drew this. I kinda wish I had started yesterday so I could have spend the time it really needed working on it, but I'm kinda....not motivated to fix it.
Genderbent Team Free Will.....I really have no idea what I'm doing. I blame walking in the mall with marmar and finding the pants "Fem!Cas" is wearing and laughing at the idea of cas wearing them...Thus this crapptacular sketch happened....I plan to try to fix it, as I can't look at it without sighing as it is....but for now marmar can't say I didn't start it. Now I'm off to work on the other thing she specifically asked me to draw.
....Another WIP because I can, and my next few days look like I'll be busy and free time will be sporadic....
I'm actually liking how this is turning out. I'm kind of just winging it with no references, no specific coloring style in mind, and I've been able to fix almost everything that really bugged me.
I'm sleep deprived.....and have no idea why, but I thought I would post this......mostly for teh lulz....and sturf....I'm sure I'll freak out when I look at this again tomorrow and spend a while fixing it.....but for now....Laugh and/or cry with me?
Why don’t they just kiss
Jensen's "Homophobia," the JIB Fiasco, and the Future of Destiel
“There wasn’t a whole lot of Dean and Cas storyline in Season 9. Personally, I kind of enjoy that. I think the whole Dean and Cas thing has gotten a little out of proportion. But that’s not to say… I think it’s a kindred spirit… I think Cas finds identity with Dean… I don’t think there’s anything secret to the relationship even though a lot of people wish there was. I certainly know that Misha and I don’t play that, so…”
Just reading some of those lines I can see where peoples’ thoughts went. Probably something like this (correct me if I’m wrong, but these are the exact thoughts that people have had that I’ve seen on the #destiel feed in response to this): “He doesn’t like Dean and Cas scenes! He was happy that they were apart! This makes me so sad. He thinks it’s stupid and out of proportion? I feel sick and hurt… Does he think that we’re like that too? Kindred spirits?! That’s such a no homo! It’s because he’s homophobic… He finally said it. I wish they had said it sooner so I wouldn’t have to go through all this hurt and pain. Destiel is sunk. Goodbye!” Now, I see where everyone is coming from, like I said before we take this seriously. But I feel sometimes that when conventions come around, we’re so caught up in the marvel of being in their presence that we don’t really listen to what they say (which is hilarious if you think about it, because all we do is analyze their characters to death). Now look at what he says and really analyze it. “There wasn’t a whole lot of Dean and Cas storyline in Season 9.” That is truth. There wasn’t, in comparison to the last season and compared to the rest of the stuff going on in S9. I know a lot of us were complaining about this, so what he says is truth here. But nothing to get upset over. We already know this bit. “Personally I kind of enjoy that. I think the whole Dean and Cas thing has gotten a little out of proportion.” Now this here is his thoughts and opinions on the matter. This I think is where a lot of people got sad, because the actor doesn’t want their views to come true. He thinks that the Destiel thing has “gotten a little out of proportion.” That term “proportion” is the key word that tells us that he is not being homophobic. Proportion insinuates that there is a balance, something is proportionate. There needs to be a balance in everything including the Destiel ship. I think when he refers to it being out of balance, he is NOT referring to people shipping it in general. He is NOT referring to the fanart or fanfics. I DO believe he is referring to the fact that people are so protective over it that they are willing to send hate mail and cyber bully actors, writers, directors, and even executives over it. And I do agree with that. Cyber bullying is NOT okay. No form of bullying is. I think he feels comforted and relieved that on the show there is less fodder to provide fans with. He’s hoping that the intensity of the ship dies down a little so everyone doesn’t feel like they are- to quote Misha- “walking on eggshells.” That gets tiring. They don’t want to upset any of us. But we get upset when we are not told what’s going on... But we ALSO get upset when we are told what is going on. They can’t win with us. We don’t let them. And that’s stressful to a show that actually tries it’s best to cater to the fans and who actually LIKE us (from what we can tell… I mean what other show has so many actors that treat us like people?). He also laughs while he says this in the video (watch the full video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LGb86J2iXQs). He doesn’t sound disgusted. He doesn’t sound like he thinks it’s a bad thing. It sounds like he thinks it’s a bit ridiculous… you know… this huge positive and slightly intimidating reaction to the relationship that was never meant to happen in the first place? He realizes how it sounds though when he finishes what he says and because he doesn’t want to upset anyone, he tries his best to be respectful and says: “But that’s not to say… I think it’s a kindred spirit… I think Cas finds identity with Dean…” This again is his opinion. He’s not saying that Cas and Dean don’t have a bond. But he believes that bond to be less sexual and more kindred spirit. Now, go look up synonyms for kindred spirit… Right now. I’ll wait for you to come back. Find them? Good. THAT is HUGE!!! Essentially he says that what Dean and Cas have is an alter ego, a confidante, a companion, a friend, a “heart’s desire,” a help mate, a kindred soul, a lover, one’s promised, a partner, a true love, a soul mate. And for me, when I watched the video and saw that he said this, I was SO EXCITED. This is how I’ve always viewed Dean and Cas. Soul mates. Someone to be with forever, who get each other, and support each other. I feel that this is more beautiful than sex or romance. Cas also does find identity with Dean. Look at all the things he’s adopted that Dean likes and does. But don’t you also idolize the one you connect with most? I sure do. My husband is amazing and while I have my own stuff, I do admire him as much as he admires me and we sometimes adopt each other’s likes and habits.
And if you believe this, then what he says next makes all the more sense. “I don’t think there’s anything secret to the relationship even though a lot of people wish there was. I certainly know that Misha and I don’t play that, so…” There ISN’T anything secret to it. We already know Cas loves Dean and Dean loves Cas. That they would do anything for each other. That they would die for each other. That they are kindred spirits. This isn’t secret. The secret he is referring to, I believe, is the sex and the romance aspect that “a lot of people wish there was.” Dean’s never been one for romance and for him to have a secret romance with Cas I feel and I think he also feels would be OOC. It’s the same reason that the “I love you” was taken out. It’s not a no homo. It’s keeping him in character. Dean, I think (maybe if I’m remembering correctly) said “I love you” to Sam once. Once! Sammy, the person he cares for most in this world he has said it to ONCE (if that). It’s not Dean’s style to say he loves people. He just shows it by trying to keep them safe, by sacrificing his own needs for theirs. So romance for Dean is not something that I’ve ever seen happening. I mean, even with Lisa and Cassie? He was never mushy or gushy with them. So why would he be with anyone else? Canonically he did love them. Being romantic is just not who Dean is. Dean is not good at the “love and… love” thing. He said so himself. That doesn’t mean he’s not a romantic at heart or that he does not love. Just that he’s not the type to express it. The sexual thing… Dean has had one hook up recently and before that he didn’t have anyone for like a few seasons. Dean is pretty much done with sex. He’s done the do and it’s getting old when there is always the “adios.” So what he’s saying is there is no secret romance or sex life between them, not that there isn’t love. He’s not looking for sex. He’s not looking for romance. Dean is looking for someone to just be at his side. A kindred spirit. And that’s not secret. Side note: notice that he says “a lot of people.” He’s acknowledging that Destiel shippers are not a small part of the fandom. He knows there’s a lot of us out there. And as far as him and Misha not playing their relationship like that? I believe he’s referring to the fact that he’s not playing like Dean has secret sex and snuggle time with Cas. He’s referring to the fact that he’s not playing Dean as wanting to bang or cuddle with Cas at all (because like I said… Dean isn’t looking for sex or romance… he’s looking for his soul mate). That doesn’t mean he doesn’t play Dean as loving Cas and having a special bond with him. Now in reference to when they take things out like the “I love you” and the naked Deans… I don’t see this as them being “no homo.” It was written there. They wanted to go for it! This to me seems like a case where the writers are eager to give us something that we want (because they love us) and the actors are trying to keep their characters, in character about it. I think this is what Jared meant when he said, “We didn’t want to make the episode seem like it was… like we’re hinting towards something. Because that would have ruined the show to make it about something it wasn’t about.” Now this can definitely be taken as “he thinks gay relationships would ruin the show.” But again that’s not how I see what he meant. Putting pictures of naked Dean would have hinted to us that Cas was sexually attracted to Dean and that Cas and Deans’ relationship was going to be a large part of the show. Cas is in love with Dean, but we haven’t seen anything saying he was sexually attracted (yet). And they didn’t want to lead us on about how big a part their relationship is in the show so they cut it. I mean wouldn’t you be upset if you got that scene and then the rest was downplayed, because there’s just not enough room in the show to really expand on that? Cas isn’t looking for sex either. He’s not looking for romance just like Dean. He’s just looking for Dean himself. Nothing more, nothing less. Personally, I don’t think they’re setting Dean up for a romance with Cas… I think they’re setting them up to be soul mates. Soul mates don’t have to have sex or hold hands to be in love. They don’t need that because their love is stronger than physical affection. Most importantly, and I feel a lot of people miss this… is that physical affection isn’t something that either of them need. Their needs as individuals are not physical… They’re emotional. They’ve always been emotional needs. Emotional can be physical, but what they are looking for is someone who accepts them and loves them unconditionally. Someone to be with them forever. Dean doesn’t do romance and Cas doesn’t know how. So they show each other their love in manly gruff ways of sacrifice and sharing pieces of their lives. And that’s how they best fill each other’s voids. It’s not the same way that we usually show love, but this is the best most in character way the actors feel that Dean and Cas would show.
Now that bit about ruining the show? He’s not saying that Destiel would ruin the show because they’re gay. He’s saying that it would ruin the show, because their relationship is not what the show is about. It’s a small part of a bigger picture. I can’t say the show is about two brothers’ anymore. It’s more than that. It’s about saving people, hunting things, free will, survival, and finding happiness somewhere in the middle of that. So Dean and Cas’ relationship is a very small part of a larger picture, even though it is there. They still find times to throw us hints now and again when they can, but by throwing out huge hints to it would make the show into something it’s not… the “Will-They-Won’t-They Dean and Cas show.” Or just the “Dean and Cas Show” if they ever went through with it. To bring them together and do their relationship justice, they would have to do character development based on their relationship after it was made canon and again… there’s just not time in the show for that. It would have to be something small, sweet, background, and soulful… kind of like what we’ve been getting in S8 and parts of S9 and I'm guessing in S10. WE WOULD LOVE A DEAN AND CAS SHOW and if we got everything that we wanted (declaration of love, kiss, dates, consummation, etc), that’s what it would be and that’s not what Supernatural is. So they give us small bits here and there, but ultimately that’s all they can do for now if they want to be true to the show’s purpose... ...To kill things (including our favorite characters). lol
And again, to clarify. I AM NOT TRYING TO CHANGE YOUR OPINION ON ANYTHING. I am stating what my thoughts, opinions, and beliefs on this matter are. I am sharing, not dictating or telling people what to do. I will offer the notion to stay positive and love yourself and treasure what you believe in, because that’s really what matters but it’s up to you to do what you will with that. I think we’re a stellar community who sometimes fights like family does, but overall love each other and I feel that we should support one another… especially those that have fostered this fandom to begin with: the creators, writers, cast, and crew of Supernatural.
Congrats if you got to the end of this! It was 10 pages long and I hope that if you were feeling down about anything that was said that maybe this made you feel at least a tad bit better? :) If not, I gives you a cyber cookie. They’re delicious. Just take a byte and imagine how delicious it is! Okay I’m done being corny. Anyways, I hope all of you feel better and try not to take things too hard. You’re wonderful people and don’t let anyone convince you differently!!
Last Nights' Episode and Why I'm Excited! :D
I know some are upset at the fact that besides the hug, there really wasn't much Dean/Cas interaction and I understand your frustration. We love this ship so much (sometimes more than we should :P who am I kidding, is that even possible?) and we want to see it represented so badly in every scene that they're in together. I personally am not upset by last nights' episode, if anything it made me more excited for the last two episodes. Here's why :) Part of the reason I don't think we got a lot of Dean/Cas cutesy stuff is because of the MoC. It's been making Dean, not Dean. That inwardly nerdy and super squishy guy in S8 and the beginning of S9 has been fading away, mostly because of the mark. The same thing happened to Cain I'm sure, until Collette. So if Dean was squishy with Cas last night, I personally would have actually found that a bit OOC and I would find his berserker transformation with the mark very inconsistent and less believable. It also sets us up for a reverse!crypt scene. If Dean was to be normal without the blade and only crazy when the blade is in hand then that would mean there is a still an integral part of himself that is surfaced and would most likely make any connection to the blade easier to break (as easy as knocking it from his hand), but with the blade changing him as a person as a whole even without the blade, makes it more like a mind control situation (similar to that of the S8 crypt scene). P.S. If Cas breaks his connection to the blade while Dean is in full MoC mode I will literally cry tears of happiness!!! The other reason I'm not really upset is that there was A LOT of important plot and character stuff they crammed into that episode last night. That stuff needed to happen and I think in doing so, it gives us more room in the last 2 eps to work with, which I'm assuming are going to mostly focus on Metatron and the MoC. These two things I feel are going to be very Team Free Will centered so there should be quite a bit of Dean/Cas interaction and will hopefully lead into some sort of Destiel type of thing. I don't for see them being separated for too long during this time. Cas is worried about Dean, and Sam and Dean are going to be helping Cas with the Metatron stuff, especially since Abaddon is out of the picture. Side note: I have somewhat of a feeling that if they make a reverse!crypt scene in these last 2 eps that they're going to have another open ended question like last seasons' "What broke the connection?" except it's going to be like "in your face obvious" what they mean and there will be no way for them to interpret it any other way, reiterating the fact that their connection to each other is very important and then one of the character plot arcs in S10 will be dealing with their realization of what that connection truly is. Anyways, not trying to change people's feelings on the episode (everyone's free to feel what they feel), but these are just my feelings on it and frankly I'm so stoked for the next to eps!!! :) ::crosses fingers for Destiel::
I Can't Get Enough of the Crypt Scene
I love the crypt scene for so many reasons. My favorite line though is: "It's me." The way he says it implies that he knows that he's special to Cas. "Hey! It's me! The guy you're in love with you have a profound bond with!" (Though with less enthusiasm and more angst than I wrote). He's admitting that there's a connection between them there with those two words. Then he cements it with the "We're family. We need you. I need you." The "we're family" brings Cas into the personal rather than the practical. He's family, not a tool. "We need you" brings Sam into the equation. Sam and Dean need Cas on a personal level. Then "I need you" denotes Deans affection for Cas on a personal level. This reiteration means that Deans affections for Cas are different than the ones that Sam has which is basically a confession that he returns Cas' feelings. But I always get hung up on the "It's me" because it shows that he's aware of how Cas views him :3 I hope we get a reversal this season!!! It would be beautiful!!
A Life Partner for Dean
Ugh, these two break my soul sometimes! Just thinking about what Dean's looking for in a love interest. I think most of us can agree that love is a prominent theme currently and that there are a lot of indicators pointing to the fact that Dean is thinking about having someone in his life. Someone to love. Personally, I feel that at this point in his life Dean is not looking for your typical love interest, especially after that episode where he attended the chastity group and said some pretty interesting things about his one night stands and always with the "adios." Dean has had a life time of sex and one night stands. Sex was always one of his fun "go to" things to do. Something he enjoyed, but now that he's older and after some poor experiences and the weight of always being alone after, sex doesn't seem that important to him at the moment. There has been a distinct lack of it in the past few seasons to kind of support that. I feel that Dean is looking for not so much someone to just love.... I feel Dean is looking for a life partner. Literally, a partner in crime for life. I think he is looking for someone who accepts him for who he is and who won’t back away, someone strong and who he trusts, someone who appreciates him and who he connects with, someone who understands him, even empathizes with him in some ways and won’t make him change, someone who wants to, can, and WILL spend the rest of their life with him. I just see him wanting someone in his life who will ride off into the sunset with him, quietly in the passenger seat, enjoying each others' company while Baby plays some rock. Someone who when he's done reading something, he goes to switch off the light next to him and glances over and someone is there, sleeping. Someone who he can count on to be there with him for the remainder of their life. And I just can't help, but picture Cas in all of this. :( I just picture the two of them... They'd be the kind of couple you meet on the street and you can instantly tell they're together and that they love each other on the deepest of levels, but they give no indication otherwise. They don't look at each other, they don't touch each other. They don't need to, but there just seems to be this unseen entity surrounding them, bonding them together profoundly and you just know. And they know. Ugh, sorry for my feels, they're just killing me!!! As always, don't take anything I say to heart. Just my ponderings, reflections, and feelings. :)
I have a Dean Winchester cap
