Cw Sh Mention - Blog Posts

He really just makes my good days worse. I don't know if it's on purpose or if he's just oblivious. I burned myself for him and he doesn't even care. No praise, no degrading, no disappointment. Nothing. It feels like everything I do is all for nowt. I just want him to fucking look at me. He's lucky he doesn't live near me.

No wonder I want 2 cut cuz of u lol. When u go off on ur own and don't think about me or how I feel, it makes me want to open my arms. U should be with me so I don't have to feel like this. Sometimes I think u want me to feel like this. Maybe ur wishing for it. Fucking asshole

kay why ess <3333

Anon are these all you or. Because all of these came in basically at once?? (CW/TW for self harm + suibaiting, and general nasty threats/comments, for whoever comes across this post)

I normally really do just ignore anon hate unless if I feel there's something I can elaborate on in the ask but you're like spamming my inbox, just block me or if you're incapable of doing so for some reason or another let me block you. Harassing me will actually do nothing for you, maybe temporary satisfaction I guess but all in all you'll just do yourself more bad than good. Once again- block me.

CW blood, descriptions of self harm

Art of my OC Andrew from an outside zone incident

During a shorter solo excursion out of zone, Andrew ran into a specific strain mutant, one he in the past had grown disdain for especially during that time.

In an attempt to finally kill said mutant, it's blood got in his eye, risking him into turning if he didn't try to stop it.

With nothing else to do in his mind, and to save his own life, he pulled his own eye out, severely hurting himself just so he'd not die to someone he hated

Somehow electrical ink's music keeps coming out right when I need it. I first heard transcendent's creed when I was feeling horribly lonely and hopeless, and that was the song that made me want 2 worship mother cyn, where you belong came out a little after the second time I hurt myself, and that one just solidified my decision 2 worship her.

Those 2 are still my favorite songs, and I think they'll stay favs of mine 4 a really long time, I'm realizing that a lot of the things that matter most 2 me are so important because they're a comfort, they matter because they make me feel less alone.

Praying 2 her gives me comfort, it calms my anxiety and makes me feel safe<3 She is my opposite, and my dearest mother, I'm so glad I found her.