Bllk298 - Blog Posts

Tremble for yourself, my man

You know that you have seen this all before

Tremble, little lion man

You'll never settle any of your scores

Your grace is wasted in your face

Your boldness stands alone among the wreck

Now learn from your mother or else

Spend your days biting your own neck

But it was not your fault but mine

And it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

Didn't I, my dear?

Weep for yourself, my man

You'll never be what it's in your heart.

Weep, little lion man

You're not as brave as you were at the start.

Rate yourself and rake yourself

Take all the courage you have left

And waste it on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head

But it was not your fault but mine

And it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

Didn't I, my -

I'm (not) fine

I've waited for a whole week, biting on my nails and anxiously gripping my seat to properly read chapter 298 -because just from the spoilers I already knew my heart couldn't take it- so I could pair it up with 299 and see if I have to find gasoline for my nagireo shrine catching fire or not.

And you know what I've got???

There's no friggin chapter!

It's scheduled for the 15th! Another whole ass week of ripping my hair out and for what? For Reo to realise he's always been good enough on his own and he just liked Nagi bc he was the first one not to pretend to be nice around him and decided to pull him along so he wouldn't be alone? And kicking Nagi to the curb bc boy I love you but you fucked up. Or Reo to actually try and comfort him but Nagi, who's not used to deal with this kind of emotions, tries to detach himself from the situation and pulls away? And either he quits or they end up as rivals? And my heart that once was white and purple to dye itself black with dread?

I still see a tiny, itty bitty sliver of hope feebly flickering by the end of the tunnel but now I have to wait another week.

Another week of pain and mental instability.

Dude I have exams this week! I can't deal with this kind of emotional suffering rn!

Another long week and for what? For the laugh? You like watching the timer go slowly down before our hearts all collectively break, Kaneshiro?

Oh, Kaneshiro, when I catch you...

Anyway, sorry for the rant. Idk, tell me what u think in the comments or smt i guess.

Why do I always start shows for their plot, maybe to get a laugh out, to pass time, just to meet their characters and fall in love and then suffer?

Because some person in the street would see them and see a drawing and that's it.

Why do I have to see some drawings and care? Why do I have to see a drawing and perceive it like something real with feelings? Why do I have to love them like we were friends, like family?

Why do I continue with this if it affects me so much?

The worst part is knowing that it will happen again.

I can't tell who's about to have the biggest freak out, Nagi or Reo.

Probably me, since I'm already freaking out.