Where Every Scroll is a New Adventure
Please go check out chapter one first!
TW: SH, Suicide attempt, hospitals
The hospital was freezing, and my whole body hurt, but I couldn't focus on that. I couldn't focus on anything else, knowing that Kakashi had just saved me from fucking killing myself, and now he knew everything. The door to my hospital room opened slowly, creaking along the way. Kakashi entered the room and slowly walked over to my bed. I made sure to be facing away from him; I didn't want to look at him because I knew I'd cry; I don't like crying. "Sasuke? Are you awake? The nurse said you were."
Kakashi's voice was soft and far too kind; he was pitying me. I hate pity so much, my father never gave me pity. Not when I would cry because my body hurt from training, not when I told him that the training was too hard. He never pitied me and he scolded my mother when she tried to in his place. I ignored Kakashi, hoping he'd just go away.
"You really scared me Sasuke. You scared all of us, Naruto and Sakura are waiting on the lobby. I didn't tell them how you ended up like this but they'll figure it out eventually."
No, no, no, fuck. Goddamnit! I hate this, I hate people worrying about me. I hate being attached to people, I hate it so much. Why can't they just leave me the fuck alone. I just need to kill my brother and then I can die peacefully, this attempt was just a moment of weakness.
"Sasuke... If you want me to leave I will. I'm not going to make you talk, but if you never talk to anyone you're never going to get better. You're exempt from missions until you get better, no more training either." After his last statement, I heard Kakashi's footsteps and then a door opening and closing.
That was the final straw. I let the pathetic sounds I'd been holding in escape, tears streaming down my face as I curled further into myself. I curl my fingers around the sheets under me as if I'm going to slip away.
I hate this so much, I know I'm sick in the head, I know there's something wrong with me, I don't want to get better. I need to stay feeling like this, it's the only way I can defeat him. I need to be sick. My hands slip to my arm and my nails dig into my pale skin. I dig at not fully healed cuts and bright red starts to trail down my arm. I dig deeper and deeper until I hear a voice. A familiar, scratchy, irritating voice.
“Sasuke?”
Summary: Sasuke had always been uncaring about his life and body. He was always the first to jump to self-sacrifice or even stab himself during a mission when things got too hard. Sasuke's behavior worried Kakashi to no end. He saw his younger self in that boy and he knew exactly what his younger self tried to do. TW: attempted su!cide and $h!
Chapter One: Sasuke hadn't shown up to a get-together the team was having about a mission. They waited for hours to see if he would turn up but nothing. Kakashi’s worries grew by the minute no matter how calm he looked on the outside. Naruto had been annoyed at the start and just wanted to get going, but with time, he became worried for his teammate. Kakashi knew Naruto would never admit his worries but he saw the boy tapping his foot and slowly complaining less. Sakura was chewing on the inside of her cheek, a nervous habit she had that Kakashi never failed to notice. It was way past the meeting time and Sakura convinced Kakashi to check Sasuke's home. They all walked there together but Kakashi made the kids stay in the front yard just in case. Kakashi knocked on the door, but there was no answer. He could've kept knocking, but he worried about what would happen if he wasted more time. He slowly opened this old wooden door to Sasuke’s home. It was pitch black inside, the black-out curtains on the windows not helping. Kakashi flicked on the light and was met with the very thing he had been fearing. Sasuke's body was lying on the bed in a pool of blood. Kakashi scrambled over and pulled the boy's body to his. He felt Sasuke's cold pale skin under his trembling fingertips. He checked Sasuke's pulse, he was alive. Kakashi let out a breath he didn't know he was holding in. Blood trickled from the corner of Sasuke's mouth, staining his porcelain skin. He cradled Sasuke's body in his arms and pressed him close to his chest so he could hear the boy's breathing, reassuring himself he was alive. The older ninja stood and jogged out the door. Sakura and Naruto were still standing outside. They both froze when they saw Kakashi holding a bloody and lifeless Sasuke."What happened!?" Naruto screamed, "Is Sasuke alright!?" Sakura followed up."There's no time to explain! We have to get him help!" Kakashi didn't stop running, only once glancing behind him and seeing his students running after him, panic evident on their faces. Waiting for Sasuke in the hospital was terrifying. Sakura was crying in the seat beside him as he rubbed her back to try and calm her. Naruto was up and angrily pacing around the waiting room; he was crying, too. Kakashi hadn't told them what Sasuke tried to do yet, he didn't want to make it worse. He'd tell them after Sasuke woke up. After what felt like centuries a nurse came out to inform the team that Sasuke was stable and call Kakashi back to talk. The nurse explained to Kakashi that Sasuke had overdosed and they had also found deep scratches and cuts littering his body. Kakashi kept calm the entire conversation, but inside, he felt his heart break with every word.
I wrote this late at night and didn't really revise it. Please let me know if you'd like more chapter!