Thesadboisclub - ℭ𝔢𝔫𝔬𝔟𝔦𝔱𝔢 ℭ𝔬𝔲𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔢

Being with someone who wants to learn about your past history, not to punish or hurt you, but to learn how you need to be loved

MY DEAREST L…

It's 5am and my throat is so tight right now and I have work today and I have to go in or I'm getting fired I guess this is my life hmmm.....yay funn...

My Dearest L...

I have this smoking habit that I'm trying to stop, but then I don't know why I'd stop when we're all going to die one day. do I have to stop because I want a few long years to live or should I stop because I want to be old enough to see my grandchildren? then comes the question will I ever have grandchildren? I'm single right now, correction I have "someone" but I don't know how long it's going to last cause it a long-distance R-ship and everyone knows how they tend to go. My longest one was I think a year long. I know this is going to sound bad to me. but don't judge till you know the whole story boys and girls. but I have this boy I started seeing before covid and I was already in my online R-ship but this guy was here in my home town and he knew I had the online boyfriend but I am yet to tell my online boyfriend about him, not because I don't want him knowing I just don't know how he's going to act knowing I have 2 boyfriends and NO I'M NOT A PLAYER.....I'm just poly and my online boyfriend knows I am. but now the boy that lived close to me. went home to Mexico for x-mas and he has not come back, I talk to him everyday. he told me he'd be back at the beginning of Jan but now it's the middle of Feb and I have two online R-ships and I'm left cold and alone in bed at night in the....dark...with my panic attacks...and my nightmares...to suffer all alone...in a cold beddd.

MY DEAREST L…

Get this last night around 5:45am I came home from a little meeting with L and we had some rough head on my part... it was really eye opening but it turns out it's all fun and games till someone almost dies, yes that's right I legit almost died this morning when I came home. so what happened is that I irritated my throat and when I went to eat a donut it was too dry and didn't go down but then I thought that I couldn't swallow so I stressed and my throat LEGIT fully closed up on me and I couldn't swallow at all!!! it was so scary I thought I was going to die... I rushed to the ER on my sleeping pill yeah I had that in my system they thought I had a bad trip on weed. can we just talk about how stupid doctors kinda are, like come on do you really think that I'd be here right now if I thought that it was only a bad trip? LIKE HELLO!!!! I can't fucking swallow bitch, she looked at me and said can you breathe? and I was like yeah I can then she followed up with okay like I take your vitals so she check my oxygen and my heart rate and my blood pressure, then came back and said that I'm fine I just must have swallowed something down the wrong hole and that's why it feels like something it stuck there, then she opened the door and sent me on my way... grate job now what am I supposed to do if I go home and I can't swallow again? then she said to call 911. well, that way my day. how was yours?

My Dearest L...

it’s time is driff off into a dark slumber agian...

My Dearest L...

Dose anyone else listen to sad love music on V-day??

My Dearest L…

Well, today was actually a great day. Man was I tired when I got up this morning, but I didn't let that stop me from going out today. I got up put my hair up and put on some makeup and left out the front door. Off I went to store after store. The sun felt so good on my skin!!. OOOHH!!! you guys might or might not be happy to hear that Mexico is going to come home soon!!! so he says, I believe it when I see it XD but other than that today was a really great day. I loved it!!