When I actually get my shit together and work on getting a service dog in this life, I am probably gonna try and get a german shepherd and name them Remo or something similar cause yeah.
When I get my shit together, I will probably be asking for donations, but I want to know more before asking for money. I am unsure of what program I am going to use exactly, I have an idea, but idk yet.
I should probably try and get diagnosed anxiety [cause I haven't been diagnosed, but it's definitely obvious] and maybe look into OCD and PTSD more? I know I have trauma and shit, I just don't know if it's PTSD levels or whatever. And the OCD I am unsure if it's just the AuDHD combo or OCD as well.
If anyone has any advice about any of this that relates to America, please feel free to give the advice.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it)
I'm bored and can't sleep [it's a little after 4 am where I am lol], so here's a thing about me that I'm kinda surprised I haven't talked about yet, lol.
When I was Zuki, I had a service dog [in this life, I also need an SD, I'm gonna probably post a separate thing about that at some point], he was a german shepherd named Remo (meaning strong one or something like that lol). I miss him as much as I miss anyone else from my canon, maybe a bit more than certain people, but I feel like that should be understandable, he helped me actually live life, yeah I still had problems but they would've been way worse without Remo. He helped me actually be able to do more than I would've without him, as service dogs do lol, but still.
I'm really bad with words and shit and it's late/early, so that's likely not helping. But just yeah, thought I'd share this, not sure if anyone even really cares, but whatever, lol.
- Zuki Shay Lup! :3c
Yessss!!
Spoiler for Flash under the "keep reading" thing.
However, Frost and Caitlin do end up in different bodies, sadly.
It's honestly kinda disappointing in a way that they do this (at least it is to us) but yeah.
- Shay ๐พ | & maybe a DC Arrowverse related fictive; Curren ๐นโก๏ธ๐พ
For the first two seasons of The Flash, all we see is Caitlin Snow. A Killer Frost appears in season 2 but she's a different Caitlin from an alternate reality. In season 3, it's revealed that the main Caitlin has powers and becomes Killer Frost herself.
It's a little unclear how Killer Frost works in season 3. Is she another personality? Or is the transformation just changing Caitlin's mood to make her angrier and "colder."
Season 4 confirms her as a whole other person though. And it shows Caitlin and Frost having internal conversations with each other just like other systems. Caitlin and Frost gradually learn to accept each other throughout the series, and you can see Caitlin letting Frost regularly front to live her own life in season 6.
Yeah! Send us asks!
Also, we are gonna add another question to this whole thing for us.
21. How does your plurality affect your alterhumanity?
Also, you can send other questions in our asks if you want!!
- Shay ๐พ
Kintypes?
What do you prefer to call yourself (therian, otherkin, nonhuman, etc)
How did you find out you were alterhuman?
Favorite kintype?
Most recent kintype?
Least favorite kintype?
What are your reasonings for being alterhuman?
Do you wear gear? If so, what kind?
Any advice to new alterhumans?
What're some things you do to affirm your kintypes?
Strangest thing you do to affirm your kintypes?
What are your goals to affirm your kintypes?
Do you do quads?
Funniest way you found out a kintype?
How does being alterhuman affect your day to day life?
Does being alterhuman affect your religious beliefs?
Do your mental illnesses affect your view of your alterhumanness?
Does being alterhuman affect your gender?
What is your favorite thing about being alterhuman
What is your least favorite thing about being alterhuman
PS. I know not everyone resonates with the word kintype and I'm sorry for using it I just didn't know what other word to use
Reblogging this means that you want people to send you asks!
We haven't posted in a while, lol.
Pretty sure there's also some posts in our drafts that may or may not get posted at any point.
This is just the whole post, lol.
- Shay ๐พ
Any beings have tips for artists? Both digital and traditional (on paper/whatever) tips are appreciated.
Edit: We are kinda mostly asking cause we wanna be able to do proper commissions maybe instead of just asking for donations for pur service dog.
- Shay ๐พ
Tw: sexual assault mentioned, trauma/ptsd, I think that's it? All of this is pretty much just past life, and it's not explicit, just mentioned by name.
Anyone else who experienced trauma in a past life that they haven't experienced in your current life, how do you deal with it?
I haven't ever been SAed in this life but I am pretty sure that I was at least once in a past life [maybe multiple past lifes, Zuki is the one that I am meaning rn]. And I have no real idea of how to go about dealing with this.
I feel shitty cause, like I've said, I have never been through that in this life, but it still affects me about as much as if I had. And I don't really know how to talk about this shit with people cause idk how they would react, even those that support and love me as I am [alterhuman/nonhuman stuff included] but having trauma from my past life that I haven't experienced here is kinda different.
Idk, I just want to know if anyone has any advice or anything for this situation.
Sorry for this type of post, I try not to bring too much stuff like this into my account, but I feel like I need to. I'll try and keep my posts more light-hearted or, at least of course, give trigger warnings or content warnings when they're not light-hearted.
- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/hx/it)
As a plural [questioning origin] who is new to the plural and system community in general, I wanna point out that from what we've seen being a system/plural is not really the whole thing with DID and other dissociative disorder like that, it's the trauma and being a system is more of an "add-on" (sorry for phrasing it like that).
So people saying they are PLURAL or a SYSTEM or whatever other word they prefer to use without trauma is not misdiagnosing themselves cause they aren't claiming to have DID or OSDD or other trauma based dissociative disorders without trauma. They are just saying that they have a similar thing to people with those disorders (I hope we are explaining this correctly).
So why are anti endos so obsessed with trying to call them fake or saying that they are doing that? If you just listen to them, you would learn more, and isn't that better? Don't traumagenic systems/plurals want to be listened to instead of being thought of badly from misinformation and bad representation and shit? So why aren't they doing that for endos?
I wouldn't usually jump into "discourse" or anything, but we felt like this needed to be said and understood. If you don't like this post, leave my account, go ahead, and block me. It will save everyone a ton of time.
- Lakey (They/it + blu/blue/blues/blues/blueself) & Shay (They/it) | almost always here as the host, lol
I think a big part of the reason that I went from anti-endo to endo-safe was absolutely due to how starkly different the communities felt.
Anti-endo communities were hard to engage with. Sure, some of them would focus on their support for each other more than their hatred of endogenic systems. And that's great! However, when you are brought together by your dislike of a certain group, you can't help but feel the hate permiate into so much of it. It always happened eventually. Anti-endo communities had such a focus on systems who were "fake" that I couldn't help but worry I was one of them, no matter how much they told me it was "just endos" they were concerned about.
The endo community (at least the parts I've engaged with and were easy to find) were so kind and respected me as a system, no matter how I felt or my plurality presented. Simply knowing we could find joy in our plurality allowed us to strive for so much more than we had thought possible before.
As a traumagenic system, we've improved so much with our symptoms and communication as a result of the positivity and acceptance we recieved. When we joined communities where we could be authenticallly ourselves (no matter what), we came together and faced so much less conflict between each other. And the conficts we did have, we realized that we could solve them together rather than alone.
When you are constantly doubting if you are "actually a system", you start to push the others away, and that made our dissociation and amnesia so much worse. I understand being careful of self-misdiangnosis, it can put you on the wrong path for how you learn to manage your symptoms. At the same time, the sentiment I often heard from endogenic systems when I was struggling with doubt and denial was very simple: "So what if you're not a system?" In short, it was okay to be wrong.
And that was huge for me. I realized that, no matter if I was a system or not, the techniques I used to improve ourselves and communicate with one another beneficial to me. At the end of the day, even if I wasn't a system after all, the skills I had found we invaluble to my health and well-being. So when I fall into denial spirals, no matter what I think about myself, I now know that I don't need to deprive myself of what has helped me, even if it is a "system thing." I don't feel scared to use these skills anymore (even in denial spirals), beacuse the line between what systems and non-systems or singlets can/can't do suddenly wasn't a big deal or a battle of "who can do what."
Our plurality is no longer a burden or a scar to us. It is simply who we are. We've learned so much about each other and ourselves since we've been accepted in full, and since we've learned to accept others. Endogenic communities have helped us (a traumagenic system) probably more than they'll ever know, and we're forever grateful for that.
So thank you, endogenic systems.
https://multiplicity.fandom.com/wiki/Category:System_origins
Looked at this to learn about plural origins.
These feel like the best terms for our origin right now.
So we will be using these terms, probably mostly unknown.
- Shay (They/it) | Host & someone else no idea who rn (they/it)
Gonna just explain more.
Our back is more sensitive, especially to pain, and I (the host) almost always have my phantom wings. Sometimes, it's more prominent than others.
- Shay (They/it) | The host
a poll for the wing-havers
for me, my back has always felt much more sensitive than the rest of my body, to the point of feeling uncomfortable being touched there. sometimes when people touch my back i jump as a reflex, but not if they touch the rest of my body. i wanted to know if this is a common experience in wingedkin, so please answer the poll to satiate my neverending hunger for knowledge :}
Tw/cw: blood, werecreatures, and vampires
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Hate the times when I miss feeling and seeing blood on my paws, claws, and dripping from my fangs.
Like, please, I don't want to miss it, I probably shouldn't miss it.
I miss being a werecreature (more specifically a canine like werecreature), I miss feeling the rush of being in that form, I just miss it.
I don't know if I'm a vampire or not. Blood is just good and shit, idk, man. If I am, I miss it too.
- Shay (They/it) | werecreature hours I guess
Firstly, species dysphoria is definitely a thing, and it's a lot like gender dysphoria (coming from beings who have both).
Secondly, absolutely it fucking sucks when we see the "I am human" things. Like, nope, that's not true. None of us are human.
(We wrote most of this a while ago, lol)
- Shay ๐พ
I know everyone in non/alterhuman community always makes jokes about these 'prove you're human' captchas (hell our host posted one the other day lmao) but I wonder, does anyone else get genuinely upset by these?
I don't mean the jokes btw, I mean the captcha itself
I know it's probably a really dumb thing to get upset over and the wording on a captcha doesn't mean a damn thing but still, it gets to me
Maybe that's just because I'm ahuman but it makes me upset to even think about having to 'prove I'm human' when I'm not
It makes me feel sick
I don't want to be seen as human, I don't want to be labeled as human, I don't want other people to call me human, I don't want to call myself human, I don't even want entertain the mere suggestion that I could be a human or anything similar to it
Again, I know that the wording on captchas don't mean shit, but I can't help that it makes me upset, it just does
I certainly don't wanna have to get upset every time I log into something online, it's exhausting
I guess it kinda gives a feeling of dysphoria? I dunno that's what our host Berri says, even he isn't sure though cause he only experiences gender dysphoria but I've heard species dysphoria is a thing so maybe that's what it is
Idk
I guess I kinda just wanna know that I'm not alone in this feeling, that I'm not just being worthlessly dramatic