new york, new york
grand central smelt of pennies, ticket stubs, and desperation at 5:15 am.
"where're you headed?" the worker asked.
where was he headed? he didn’t realize leaving meant going away. but to go far enough to be folded into memory or far enough to be followed? would his wife search for him?
"connecticut.”
no comment; the worker printed a slip and took his money mechanically.
he needed a congratulations, deserved one for his decision. but who would congratulate a man abandoning his wife?
« we all had some coffee. after that i don’t know any more. the night passed. » - the stranger
it’s three-thirty in the morning, that’s a bad time to talk about should-haves and would-haves - needful things
ohh she’s pretty with the sunset in her hair
turtle neck sweaters and steaming mugs of coffee and overcast clouds and leaves of red and yellow and orange and glossy doc martens and red lipstick stains on necks and pinkie promises and crunching strolls on new york city sidewalks
there are no exits where you’re going
her beer tasted of sawdust and foam coated her boots; nuts were bland and counter sweaty. but the air was lime fresh and the night neon young and she was free.
myra.
“you’re never more alive than when you’re almost dead”
tim o’brien
dizzyingly alone, me and the metal chamber.
👽🛸🪐
new york, new york 🖤
“he wished being alive always felt this good”
xxii | she/her | psychology & creative writing | desperately searching for meaning in the mundane
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