Latest Posts by malevampiricsiren - Page 2

never thought id have body dysphoria over my boobs lmao

as a child, one of my biggest insecurities was my boobs.

not because i wanted them gone,

no, i wanted them to be bigger

my friends used to make fun of me because my lack of curves and ive always been a lover for biggest breasts so id always wish for them, wishing that throughout puberty that I’ll have like C or D cups.

but.. that never happened. my current breast size is around a like large b cup, small c cup (tried to figure it out at victoria’s secret and they said the same thing)

i used to be so disappointed in them until i started appreciating my body.

like my thighs and butt which are quite thick and where my body weight specifically only ever goes to lol

my face, my arms, my hands, my eyes,

even my skintone and my textured 4c hair

and with the help of my ex and ex friends,

over time,

i slowly started loving my breasts.

fast forward to now.

im no longer who i used to be.

i no longer am the person i was for 18 years.

and although whenever i look at myself, i feel happy with my body,

i just wish a few things were different.

i look at my face and wish it was longer, skinnier, more masculine.

i look at my eyes and wish they were smaller, more masculine.

i look at my hands and wish they were longer, slender, more masculine.

i look at my hair and wish it were longer, and healthy so i could keep it out to make me more masculine.

i look at my thighs when i wear pants that define them and wish they were hidden, that my thighs didnt inherently make me feminine.

and then, i look at my breasts.

the two pieces of flesh that i have longed to be bigger,

i now wish were gone.

ive never experienced gender dysphoria until now.

and i kind of find it ironic,

seeing how a trans med once told me that because i hadn’t experienced gender dysphoria (at the time), i probably wasnt trans.

i am trans.

i just dont experience the same dysphoria that others do or in the same way.

i feel euphoria whenever someone acknowledges who i truly am and i always feel weird whenever they dont (like when i was getting my hair dyed, my hairdresser had a daughter who called me “sister” and whenever she would, id feel weird. or whenever my hairdresser referred to me as my mothers daughter. they dont know that im out so i don’t blame them)

i am happy with the way my physical body looks, i just wish others still see me as who i truly am with them. a man who just happens to have a higher voice, curves, small breasts, and “birthing hips”.

i still plan on getting top surgery tho lol

hearing trans women talk about their love for their boobs always make me feel so happy for them and i wish i could give them mine lmao

sorry to get political again but as a binary trans girl with a modicum of common sense:

theyfab is a gross thing to call someone and if you call people that you’re gross

I THINK ITS HAPPENING AGAIN

yall im in my online class and MY LAPTOP CRASHED 💀💀💀

WTF 😭😭😭

"Trans men and women are both suffering" and "trans women are often specifically targeted by bigotry and harassment even within their own communities and deserve to be able to talk about their own unique challenges without being talked over" and "trans men are often erased from conversations about how bigotry and transphobia targets them and are not exempt from all the horribly draconian laws transphobes are attempting to pass" and "being trans doesn't make you immune to participating in horrible transmisogyny even and especially if you aren't aware you're doing it" and "holy shit don't reinvent bioessentialism but for trans people like holy fuck men are not destined to be evil and women aren't automatically incapable of harm" are all opinions that can and fucking SHOULD coexist

yall im in my online class and MY LAPTOP CRASHED 💀💀💀

WTF 😭😭😭

trying to find which saniro character i kin / who’s aesthetic i mainly like is hard

my options are

> my melody (who i used to claim when i was cis)

> badtz-maru (happy birthday badtz-maru btw and who i think mainly matches me now)

> keroppi

> cinnamonroll

tbh im probably gonna do them all LMAO they all are my style in some way (mel and cina is coquette, badtz is grunge/gothic for me (plus i see him as black so even better for me LOL), and keroppi is the forest / earthy)

I FORGOT TO POST FOR TRANSGENDER VISIBILITY DAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL MY FELLOW TRANS 🫶🏾🫶🏾

CELEBRATE US!!! GIVE US HRT!! GIVE US MONEY FOR SURGERY!! GIVE US BURGERS!!! GIVS US FOOD!!! GIVE US BLÅHAJ!!!

GIFT ANY TRANS PERSON A BLÅHAJ THEY’LL GO FERAL

in all seriousness, im so proud of all of us for surviving tr*mps tyranny. we survived back in 2016, we’ll survive again. dont let that fucker do exactly what he wants us to do, live in fear. live your best life living however the fuck you want. do that t4t, do that trans wlw/lesbian shit, do that trans man mlm/gay man shit, do that aroace shit, do that GNC shit, do that nonbinary/agender shit, be the transmasc femboy of your dreams, be the transfem mascgirl/butch of your dreams!!!

DO WHATEVER YOU WANT AND LIVE YOUR LIFE!!!

> i open twitter

> mood immediately drops

atp im deleting the app lmao

Misogyny.

any other trans person or queer in general plan on purchasing a firearm for protection at this point? 😇?

There's something about the Kirby plush in the background that really sells this

Inshallah they find him.

"Everyone, look! It's the transmasc/trans man who is whining and bitching about how his/their bodily autonomy rights are being taken away and how he/they is still a target for malpractice in the medical field and how he/they are still a target for misogyny and transphobia in the cis ran world! Everyone point and laugh!" 🤡

This is genuinely have some of you mfs sound. Stfu. Ignorance is not bliss, it actually harms people in the long run.

#You are perpetuating the same misogyny we've experienced the majority of our lives it's just in a different font now.

oops forgot to update

im blonde now yall!!

+face reveal

my room lighting makes it look golden i PROMISE ITS LIGHTER IT DOES NEED TO BE LIFTED AGAIN THO LOL

not to sound desperate but

PLEASE PLEASSSSSREEE I NEED A BOYFRIEND PLEASSEE OH M YGOD PLESSE I WANT A BOYFRIEND SOCBADLY I NEED INE PLEASEEE GIVE ME A MAN PLEASSEEE I NEED A BOYFRIEND SO BADLY

me and my mom were talking about my dads family (whom she doesnt like a lot of, for good reason tbh)

she mentioned hoe my grandmother once told her that she thought i might have adhd when i was a baby or toddler and my mom shut it doen

i find it VERY ironic seeing as, i too, now believe i might have adhd or at least neurodivergent in some sense

YALL IM GETTING MY HAIR DYED ILL LET YALL KNOW IF IT FALLS OUT 💞

tbh i find it very ironic that in the past before my transition, i hated makeup and found it too much work to deal with but NOW?

i LOVE makeup. i LOVE doing my eyeliner. i LOVE femininity. and wish i didnt donate all my makeup because i didnt think id ever like them TT_TT

im literally taking the time to learn makeup and stuff so i can

opened up my main tumblr and saw 40 notifications

hit tumblr page

the forbidden fruit of knowledge except it's testosterone

im studying to become a veterinarian and we need to stop normalizing animal neglect as the norm this shits actually disgusting 😭

KEEP YOUR CATS INSIDE!!!!!!

indoor cats live up to 20 years whilst outside cats typically only live till theyre 4-10!!!!!

STOP neglecting your cat.

and your “outdoor cat” ISNT your cat. thats just a cat that comes to your house once in a while. they live outside because you refuse to actually care for them. dont be surprised if the cat never returns and hope and pray someone took them in and they didnt die a horrible and painful death like being hit by a car, dying of hypothermia/heat stroke, being taken by other ACTUAL wild animals because fun fact! theres no such thing as a wild version of the domesticated house cat! because they ARE DOMESTICATED. they are NOT meant to be outside. they ruin the environment and its very likely theyre going to die a horrible and painful death!!!

and to people saying that they cry because they want to go out i hope to god you dont have children and i don’t even believe in god! because cats are mentally toddlers and i bet your ass wouldn’t let a toddler go play in the fucking street just because they’re crying because they want to. there ARE safe ways to bring your cats out such as…

walks! bring your cat out on walks on leashes! if you have the space, time, and money then build a catio!

STOP putting your cats life in danger because youre fucking lazy. do not get a pet if you cant properly provide or care for them. i have zero empathy for people like that. if you cannot afford the time and money for a cat then do NOT GET ONE. surrender them to a shelter!! find someone else to give them to!! dont put your animal in danger just because you refuse to admit that youre a bad pet owner.

stop normalizing the neglect and abuse of cats. take care of your fucking cat and bring them inside where they are warm and safe.

You're gonna let somebody with an outside cat talk to you that way....?

me and my cousin were joking around (one who knows im trans, btw)

we both decided to eat cereal at 11p. i had frosted flakes and shes having fruity pebbles

we’re both queer so i called her a fruity faggot just like her cereal (as one does)

and she said that i needed the cereal

and whenever we do jokes like this, you would claim to not be apart of a minority while you’re obviously apart of it (jokes goes: claim the other is a minority they’re apart and they deny it)

so i of course did the usual spiel of denying being queer and tried to say “im a straight woman” but i just…. couldnt.

yall i couldnt even jokingly lie about being cisgender 😭

i also stopped using ftm to describe myself. i kinda feel weird using that term for myself. i dont wanna refer to my previous identity to acknowledge my current one. no shame to others who do, though!

shapeshift!

A cis woman tells me that maybe she should transition to gain male privilege as I'm recovering from getting beaten up in the men's bathrooms.

I tell her to be my guest and give me a call when she gets her jaw broken, I always carry a first aid kit and a pepper spray.

She calls me a misogynistic asshole.

A cis man tells me that he'd sure love some T.

Gave him my prescription and best of luck with the constant shortages and getting denied.

He calls me a pussy.

I'm fighting for my life and reproductive rights. I get told to get off women's fights, that it's not about me, like I shed my womb after my first T shot.

I search for support groups for SA victims, and I'm stuck in the same “women/NBs only”. Still shooting my shot, send an application. I introduce myself. Never get a call back.

I go to a trans night. Say I go by he/him. Get told back “yeah, that's how we all start !” by a trans woman. I'm too exhausted, I get up and I leave.

I hang out with my friends, one of them drunkenly says masculinity is a prison we must learn to escape. She gets rows of applause. Back to drinking alone.

Yes I could explain it. But who'd you rather be ? A delusional girl or a man made threat ?Or it could be better, I could just not exist ! And we'd bleach my corpse and I'd become a casualty. Not an F, ot an M, a W for Wound and for Wrong.

I put a candle on a single cupcake, 2 years on HRT. I blow it in the dark. Curtains closed like casket.

fellow trans moots just a warning to block the person in the pic who genuinely doesn’t believe that trans men or anyone masc aligning can experience misogyny and believe that we are somehow the oppressors 💀

reminder to people who need to be explained it: TRANS men are STILL minorities. just because we are men does not negate the fact that we are TRANS. its in the same way that white people can experience racism but NOT systemic racism. trans men CAN be oppressors but CANNOT be SYSTEMIC OPPRESSORS due to the fact that WE ARE TRANS.

not only that, ANYONE can be an oppressor LMAO. only some can be a SYSTEMIC OPPRESSOR aka, WEALTHY CISHET WHITE MEN!! not even wealthy, cishet white men in GENERAL benefit from systemic oppression. someone like ME, a BLACK TRANS MAN will NEVER benefit from it. even if i werent black and was instead white, i NEVER WOULD. because i am TRANS. the man part does not matter because all they will look at is the TRANS PART.

may i remind you that trans men are affected by the reproductive rights issues going on currently? if i werent living in my state and i had been in like fucking texas and was assaulted? guess what? i wouldnt be able to get an abortion. and before you say “why didnt you remove your eggs”. 1) why am i expected to? 2) that’s expensive? lmao? and 3) i shouldnt have to have to remove my eggs to prevent an unwanted pregnancy. yall are forgetting that the issue of FORCED PREGNANCY is happening RIGHT NOW. but you dont care because it doesnt affect you.

so in the same way that us as trans men will never experience the issues trans women face, neither will trans women.

i keep seeing other trans people say stuff like this, a lot from certain transfems and its so disheartening to see people from our own community treat us like shit. infighting doesnt fix shit. you are making things worse especially for YOURSELVES by putting other trans people down. if i were to speak about other black people as if they were villians then i cannot be surprised when i am soon also treated like a villian. something something stones at glass house something something leopard eating face party. the trans community can talk about ALL our issues without making one group seem like shitty people just for existing, without putting them down.

you genuinely are no better than transphobes if you act like this. just because you’re trans does not mean youre not transphobic.

at the end of the day, we are still the minority because we are trans. at the end of the day when theyre trying to make us ILLEGAL, they will not care about how much hatred you’re putting out towards other trans people, like yes great! you helped them cause even more separating the trans community more! this is exactly what #they want so instead of helping each other, we are just pooling hatred so guess what! when they get rid of us, we wont be willing to help each other. youre acting just like an undercover fbi agent right now babes with this infighting talk.

for anyone who genuinely thinks this negatively about other fellow trans people, i beg of you to realize that this is exactly what they want. they want the infighting and hatred. and to play this game that became popular back in like 2015-2016

thank you lmao

anyone trying to argue w me will be blocked this is not a discussion. i will not argue with people who genuinely believe i am a shitty person JUST for wanting to be a man. this isnt LGBTQ+ positive yall this is T hatred.

these were posted by someone else but i wanted this on my blog too

the intersexism and transandrophobia combo continues !

fun fact: trans people cannot be oppressors because they have no structural power. that applies to trans women, trans men, and nonbinary people too. hope that helps.

its like they keep forgetting the fact that its possible for us to get pregnant. like i know this is a hard topic for many trans men as it causes dysphoria but its also something that needs to be discussed.

they keep forgetting that the laws that are put in place about abortion rights, reproductive care, etc also affects trans men but they never fucking mention it probably because they dont fucking care to.

if i were living in the a different state, one that has made abortions illegal, and i were to be attacked as a trans man, my rights to abortion would be the exact same as a cisgender woman. we are equally in danger.

because fun fact not all trans men get rid of their eggs. not all trans men want to get that surgery. some trans men actually WANT kids that are made using their eggs. IM one of them. why as a trans man is it expected of me to have that surgery? why do people assume that i want to? why are we never mentioned when it comes to healthcare the same way others are? why are they even BEING gendered? if it were like something someone with a certain sex organ should have then *sure, whatever, but that’s not whats happening here.

nothing should be specified to a gender as people who ARENT WOMEN can get pregnant and do not have access to abortions. people who ARENT MEN can get other people pregnant. lets go back to using gender neutral terms.

*(i also think its weird to have classes based on sex organs alone i personally think that everyone should learn about each organ and how to properly protect yourself and your loved one no matter what organ you have)

why are we always forgotten? excluded? especially when it comes to topics about protecting ourselves?

Holy fuck? That’s actually insane what.

day i start hrt is the day i will hang up my trans flag yall, just need to buy it first :3 🙏

IWANNASTART HRT NOW PLEASEEE PLEASEHWBBA PLEASEEEE WHY IS THE APPT FOR 4/10 IMGOJNA CEY PLEWSE PELASW

dude i want to take out my hair and wear my fro i wanna look more masc 💔💔

i find this really funny because before i finally transitioned (like a month before) i was telling my then boyfriend about how i wanted to have a dick and asked him if he ever wanted to have a vagina and he went “???? no???” and thats when i found out that wanting the opposite sex organ is NOT a normal thought most people have :/

all of my bsfs when i had told them about my want also agreed with me and ironically half of them are trans (one is a trans man and one is genderfluid) LMAO

Just trans things.

I feel lucky that my pet became a meme that was not adopted and used by nazis. everyone that has told me they adore this meme is a cool person and not a scumbag loser. if she became the face of a crypto scam or the name of an illegal government entity id have a crisis