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happy pride
expanding the lore for the quirkless!deku au in which he enrolls in UA's support department, is best friends with Mei, and befriends a less explosive Bakugo on their commute to school :D
I enjoy writing ooc, but only the very specific flavor that I engineered in my own brain. Every other ooc is block on sight lmao
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Jason Todd's not-Robin vigilante names
You know, one time I read a fanfic and it triggered my psychosis, sent me into a month long episode THEN a whole year later I was on ao3 just mindlessly scrolling, I came across the fanfic title and it gave me a panic attack, but something compelled me to click it, i didn't read it but i did scroll through it, why? mental illness.
So like... ya
This is me responding to your old(?) post about someone else's fiction not being able to hurt you, this is probably just a me thing but mental illness makes you do things and react to things in insane ways that sometimes you cant control. I knew while reading that it was affecting me in some way, but I kept reading because well, I'm mentally ill, and then a month of my life dissapeared lol
I think I'm trying to make a point about something but I'm not sure
I did after the fact comment to the author and just kinda, told them about what happened, but I didn't harrassed them or something, -
-but when something does what this fanfiction did to me then you're basically obligated to let the creator know I think(they are a really good writer), I'm an adult and the fanfic was in the ballpark of something I would read and if like, 59% of it was taken out and it had a happy ending I would be fine but oh well
Oh boy, I'm starting to have a panic attack just typing this out holy hell anyways uh, I'm not disagreeing with you(?) but I am saying, don't be too quick to dismiss someone who says a piece of fiction fucked with them? idk sorry, have a good one
My friend, the fiction didn't harm you.
Your mental illness harmed you.
Random writers on the internet are not responsible for managing your mental illness for you.
You are responsible for managing your mental illness.
I knew while reading that it was affecting me in some way, but I kept reading because well, I'm mentally ill
This is self harm. You were engaging in self-harming behavior by continuing to read a fanfiction that you knew was triggering to you.
š You are responsible for managing your mental illness.
š Writers are not responsible for managing your mental illness for you.
And I hate to tell you this but messaging the author about it was absolutely harassing the author.
ābut it wasnāt that badā
did it hurt? did you feel scared? unsafe? were you embarrassed? humiliated? terrified? did you feel confused on why? does it keep you up at night? do you avoid being in a similar situation? did you cry? did you want to cry? who told you it wasnāt that bad?
as a pan romantic asexual i LOVE this beautiful person!!
A pansexual wandered into the asexual tag with a shotgun.
A pansexual commited mass homocide of bots.
Even this pansexual respects asexuals.
Just wanted to compare Midoriya and AFO in panels (DFO stuff) from different fights. Again, small things I thought were at least worth noticing
Midoriya's panels come from when Dabi told the world about Endeavor and their family situation, as they were fighting. This was back when Shigaraki was broken from his tube prematurely.
AFO's is when Bakugo aborted him.
First, the insistence of moving forward, even if their limbs are weak or won't work as well as before.
Then the fact they both came up with using a Quirk like this (below), from desperation. Who cares if their bodies won't work? They have Quirks they can fall back on.
And are both thwarted by someone who has a combustion Quirk (flames VS explosions), in a fight that boils down to family and brother problems for the Villain.
And something different from these two events, I'm gonna move to when Bakugo fought Midoriya past curfew, and when All Might faced AFO in Kamino,
When both want to win, they start spewing insults. AFO insults people to get an opening and win. Midoriya does it when he wants to win more than save.
Midoriya knows it's gross to say he thinks like that, but Bakugo is his image of victory. Meanwhile, All Might is an image of victory to Japan; and AFO gains an edge when he can rile up that symbol of victory (peace).
Or maybe AFO just riles up OFA users in general. From All Might, to calling Midoriya useless in front of Nana and Yoichi..
Either way, AFO likes to talk shit, and it trips up people. And he does this so he can win. He does it logically, but it also happens when he gets riled up, like when he ate Tenko (418) (get your head out of the gutter).
Midoriya spews insults naturally when he wants to win, when he wants to win more than he wants to save.
They think alike, is all. Both thought of using their Quirks through their mouth when their bodies weren't enough (innovation with Quirks that aren't originally theirs), and when they want to win, they insult their opponent.
thatās so suspiciousā¦
all for one just say his name 1 time.are you just going call him nobody everytime?not even deku
OH YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME-
Hori is just messing with us at this point
Here is something someone pointed out to me on the AFO discord. I don't know Japanese, so take things with a grain of salt to not spread misinformation! But. . . Koga - the construction company that AFO had/worked at.
How it's written in the Japanese version: ē² - armour/first class č³ - celebration.
Okay, nothing specific.
BUT... What other way can Koga be spelled as? ä¹ ę
AND GUESS WHAT THAT MEANS!
ä¹ - Hisashi ę - I/myself (I am Hisashi) ⦠Yea
X dark vs light mode
Studying manga textures + drawing unhinged teens. Blackwhip is surprisingly relaxing to draw?
i think deku's never given enough credit for how much crazier he is than katsuki. like... if we're looking at them surface level izuku's the more well-adjusted, liked, sociable one but whenever Shit He Cant Process Well happens, he always rushes in, no plan, all teeth and grit, out here growling and drooling like an honest to god rabid wild animal to the point where his own quirk restrains him or goes haywire (blackwhip). katsuki always looks lowkey scared when he sees deku's crazy eyes, like holy shit, hes gonna get himself killed. while katsuki on the other hand, has always been calm and collected in stressful situations, despite pretending otherwise. he always has a tight rein on himself and his emotions, so every action is purposeful, especially in the latter part of the manga and this parallel between them kills ms
So Iāve been joking for a while about how Inko manages to afford all of Izukuās AM merch
But I decided to nerd out and look closer, and Iām pretty sure the only expensive piece Izuku owns is the poster he got from Sir
You might think his dorm looks absolutely stacked
but thatās only because itās a very small room and he brought every piece he owns
If you look in his old room itās all the same posters
so heās owned it all for at least a few years, heās been working up to this for god knows how many years, just to be the proud owner of 5 posters so basic even he would put tape on them
All of his figures are less than 50$
One of which heās had since he was a child
And it doesnāt look like the other unidentified figures are anything special either(except maybe AM in his yellow suit)
Izuku only has generic fanboy shit, like maybe one of the posters is a custom but I honestly I donāt think he owns a single special anything
The dead guy poster is 100% the coolest thing he has, no wonder heās so reverent about it š
As for fits this is all weāve really seen is
So yeah Inko isnāt dropping stacks on merch, Iām pretty sure those sweaters were a 2 for 1 deal because theyāre almost identical š
I love how these 5 kind of form a chain with their connections and I desperately need to see all of those connections come together at some point
candy store but itās the vees trying to convince alastor to join them
oh you hate musicals? oh so youre allergic to all fun and whimsy then? youre against all joy and giddiness brought in front of you huh? you just hate any and all happiness and silly times dont you?
It's such a struggle.
isnāt it weird how itās already february but itās also only february
If I had a nickel for every time a Hellaverse father was a depressed, lonely, wacky little guy, who is sort of alienated from his daughter due to circumstances but is trying his best, then IāD HAVE THREE GODDAMN NICKELS GODDAMMIT VIV IāM ALREADY SO ATTACHED GIVE ME A BREAK
Vox is a corrupted businessman with crazy influence and powerful enemies. Valentino is a mobster who owns an empire of sex and drugs. The action potential in them is just crazy.
Do you think Valentino & Vox have an unspoken understanding about their unhinged fixations on Angel and Alastor, respectively? Like the two of them appear to have SOME kind of relationship together (perhaps with Velvette, perhaps not), but they always appear to look the other way when one of them is losing their shit over the random dude theyāre obsessed with.
Can't believe they ship them the same reason why I ship them
"Hazbin Hotel has so many attractive characters!!!"
the characters:
(this took too long to draw)
nifty might want valentino though! BAD BOYSSS
Do y'all see it, do you see the vision
do you ever just think about how all might must see izuku?
like, everyone else ā tsukauchi, nighteye, even gran torino ā first experienced toshinori at his best. they met him either in professional settings when he was being ALL MIGHT ⢠or when he was young and idealistic and generally had the overwhelming charm of a child with big dreams. when they met him he was making a conscious effort to live up to his ideals, and they only saw how hard that was for him much later, if ever. he knows they support him, but he also knows that they came to admire him long before he ever asked for their support.
and then thereās izuku, whose first meeting with all might was ⦠bad. toshinori was having a bad day, he was grouchy, and he absolutely took that out on izuku. not only does he, five minutes after meeting izuku, immediately dump his baggage about his injury and his time limit on the kid, but he also talks about his self-doubts and waning faith in heroes. stuff no adult should ever tell a child, let alone a hero to a civilian. and then he tops himself by straight up crushing izukuās dreams, telling him he can never be a hero. finally he leaves the kid on the roof of a tall building, without taking half a second to think how that might go horribly wrong.
and the next thing he sees izuku do is fucking dive into a villain fight to save another kid whoās dying, while all around him heroes INCLUDING ALL MIGHT stand by and do nothing.
like, holy shit can you imagine what toshinoriās view of izuku must be like? he knows damn well this kid is having what is possibly the worst day of his life. he got attacked by a villain, found out his hero is a fraud and had his dreams crushed. thatās without knowing he got suicide baited less than two hours ago. and still this kid, who by rights should be slinking home to cry for the next 24 hours, is out here risking his life to save his friend. knowing full well that if he does this his day can only get worse, either by being injured or by getting in trouble with the heroes.
that puts toshinori to shame.
so of course toshinori admires izuku. of course he offers to make izuku his successor. of course he believes in izuku (even to the point of expecting unreasonable performance out of him, but it never shakes his faith when izuku falls short or has different priorities). of course heās willing to get down on izukuās kitchen floor and beg his mother to let izuku be his student. how could he not want to be izukuās mentor?
izuku may be the only person who makes toshinori actually feel good about himself. he did something terrible to izuku, and still izuku admires him, listens to him, wants him for a mentor. izuku saw him at his worst and saidĀ āyouāre still my hero.ā he makes toshinori feel loved.
and if you donāt think thatās the most heartwarming shit you can get out of my face.
She's his sister-in-law, you guys
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I think making Vaggie a former executioner is a brilliant test of Charlie's character.
Now she has to show how hard she really believes in forgiveness and second chances.
I think that Adam just wanted to prove that Charlie's faith in redemption is superficial and she would fail at forgiving when it's her that was hurt.