Unexpected, Expected
unexpected, expected
what happens when you lose a friend?
when he drops you without warning
stops talking to you, but tells everyone else how much he hates you
how annoying you are
and you didn't expect it
but maybe you did
you felt it coming in his exasperation
in the way he stopped texting back
in the way he laughed at everybody's jokes but yours
unexpected, but expected all the same
he did it to others, so why shouldn't it be your turn?
you tell yourself you're better off
and everybody else agrees
but you can't help but be a little sad, still
unexpected
like an anvil dropped onto my head
expected
i felt it in the way he sighed
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i'm not going to let myself
have a new crush
not this soon
not on her
i'm not going to let myself
like a girl so painfully straight
and break my streak
of not liking girls who could never
like me
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when i catch myself thinking of her
or looking for her
or lighting up, briefly,
at her name on my phone
when she's creeping up on me
like the first sign of spring
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no more girls
not right now
definitely not her
shut up, heart
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and it is his name
and not hers
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i see that now
strike-slip
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and the second
and the third
but this one was too big
and now its over
maybe it was never meant to last
or maybe i shouldnt have ignored the signs
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