I'm Watching This Christian Video And...

Being Bigender (to me) feels like swimming: someone mixed paint in the water, but you give no fuck at all. You. Are. Just. Swimming.

C&D Original Book Update #1

Things are going great! I had this big problem with how I was going to introduce the letter exchange system between my protagonists because it was messy, with all these section breaks that I hear don't work well in kindle, too much repetition (like their addresses), it just didn't read right. Now it does...

Here's how I did it:

Transcript of the letters between:

—(Character's Name). (Address)

—(Character's Name). (Address)

(I put this at the beginning of the chapter)

Then before each letter, in bold:

(Character's Name)—

Voilá!

And at the first few letters I make clear who the character's writing.

This is the best system I've found... I researched all over the internet and no other system worked for my story.

Now, reading the chapters months after writing them, I've also cringed hard over some stuff, but oh well, I have enough time until September to fix them up. <3

a world without trans people has never existed and never will

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C&D Book Update #4

HOW I ABSOLUTELY LOVE WRITING!

I've been spending what time I could spare fleshing out chapters 57+. I ended up having to add a 700-words-long chapter as chapter 58 due to some emotional milestones that didn't feel earned enough. And I ended up with the best lines in the whole book? Somehow? I had to write it like, 3 times. First it was all about a robbery, then I just didn't want to write anything on robbery anymore, then I started writing a whole different chapter. A bit difficult, but I managed.

Now I'm having a blast with chapter 59. It was mostly written already (I said that I finished the first draft in another update), but I had so much fun adding these little silly details. I still need to change two flirty lines that aren't strong enough... but that's what the 5th revision is, right? RIGHT???!!!!

I'm still working on chapter 59, and I think I can manage 40 too today. Only, 40 is soooo complex (on a planning perspective) I don't know how long it will take.

Well, sometimes I surprise myself and it takes like, 5 hours.

Other times, 5 days.

Just normal F me.

Each writer brings new fish to the table.

Mine is dark, and its eyes are rainbow.

Ok just figured it out: I'm hearing Tchaikovsky from now on

Omg I'm here wanting to cry. Why? Because I'm hearing lo-fi & eating nutella. Somehow that's cry-inducing to me now.

And you can't even say that it must be 'that time of the month' cuz I'm not a woman, technically. What's wrong with me. WHY does lo-fi makes me want to cry. What do I even hear if not lo-fi to relax?? I tried 3daysgrace, for hours, then Bullet for my Valentine, then back to 3daysgrace, now I got no idea what to listen to. Also, I have to work, so I can't just go home and bury myself in a tower of blankets like I'm rebuilding Babel.

Never gonna hear lo-fi again.

(Make a bet on how long it takes for me to listen to it again.)

TCIK Original Book Update #7

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY

MY FIRST BREAKTHROUGH

IF I SOUND CRAZY, IT'S BECAUSE I AM!

finally

finally

I came across this old animation I first saw when I was like 12? And it sparked so many ideas! I totally wasn't prepared for it, and it opened my eyes!!

I still have like, to work on 70% of the book (that's still a mystery to me), but the dots are doting now. The lines are lining. The floor is flooring. Things are feeling alive, and I feel like I understand the theme of the fic for the first time. The feelings. The vibe.

I got the main character's backbone yesterday, and now a specific scene's vibe (and some repercussions for the entire fic...)

I'm so happy

Martin is famous for his “gardening” approach to plot development. He doesn’t want to plot things out and build a fixed plot, he wants to imagine what all the characters are getting up to and let all of that together grow into something organically. It’s a nice sentiment, it just doesn’t work well with what he was doing.

Source: here

Really interesting. I never thought about what I did was "gardening". Fascinating. I think the difference is, I do know exactly how I want to end, I do have strong ideas on the vibe and what happens. But I need time figuring out the in-betweens; how each character will act and the repercussions.

That's why I can spend years upon years planning a book. The planning bit is the most important part...

My favorite song.