C&D Book Update #4

I used to think I had nothing to offer to the world. That my writings were shit. Lacking in pretty much everything. That no one would want to read them in their right mind. That I'd be better off dead.

Fuck that.

I'll carve my path in blood if need be, if even one person feels heard by a word I wrote.

(I'm just being poetic, policeman)

My first completed book

I've been writing since I was 6 years old. As in, actually trying to finish a book.

I never could.

Until one day, years ago, I finished one.

It was all about old Brazilian tales. Awesome stuff, right?

Well, I managed to make the worst job possible ever uper duper no.

It taught me ~so much~

And it made me see that your first book, most of the time, really will be trash.

If yours wasn't, more power to you. But mine certainly was

Maybe one day I'll go over it again and rewrite every little damn thing.

But the overall lesson?

I suck at writing in Portuguese.

My other language, Spanish, well... a complete disaster (don't even ask).

And English? Ok, I can have bad wording and a ton of mistakes and such, but I do find it way more fun to write. I think it does have something to do with the fact that I've been using more English than any other language since 2011, I think. As in, I didn't read a single fiction book (for leisure) in another language since 2010.

(I admit I struggle to read good fiction books in Portuguese now.)

What does that make me? A language nomad? A freak accident? Both of those things?

TCIK Original Book Update #7

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY

MY FIRST BREAKTHROUGH

IF I SOUND CRAZY, IT'S BECAUSE I AM!

finally

finally

I came across this old animation I first saw when I was like 12? And it sparked so many ideas! I totally wasn't prepared for it, and it opened my eyes!!

I still have like, to work on 70% of the book (that's still a mystery to me), but the dots are doting now. The lines are lining. The floor is flooring. Things are feeling alive, and I feel like I understand the theme of the fic for the first time. The feelings. The vibe.

I got the main character's backbone yesterday, and now a specific scene's vibe (and some repercussions for the entire fic...)

I'm so happy

Couldn't write anything with my damned and awful sound system. It just refused to work properly. I had to buy a new sound box and now I'm hearing "Control" by Halsey. Thank goodness yodo yodo I'd actually go crazy without proper music

Fav bands/singers

6arelyhuman

Three Days Grace

My Darkest Days

Matt Walst

Lady Gaga

Sid Dorey

Marina

Halsey

Inuday

Wanna whole lotta love?

[OC] sinner & frankie from my fictional rock band🎸💥

Martin is famous for his “gardening” approach to plot development. He doesn’t want to plot things out and build a fixed plot, he wants to imagine what all the characters are getting up to and let all of that together grow into something organically. It’s a nice sentiment, it just doesn’t work well with what he was doing.

Source: here

Really interesting. I never thought about what I did was "gardening". Fascinating. I think the difference is, I do know exactly how I want to end, I do have strong ideas on the vibe and what happens. But I need time figuring out the in-betweens; how each character will act and the repercussions.

That's why I can spend years upon years planning a book. The planning bit is the most important part...

Where does chocolate milk come from? I’ve heard brown cows but part of me doesn’t want to believe it.

That’s a good instinct! The true story of chocolate milk (and all chocolate!) begins not at our local pasture, but with the rare and beautiful beans of the Brazilian rainforest

My fav anime

Saint Seiya (original series + Hades; boring to most, precious to me)

Moriarty the Patriot (150%)

D.Gray-Man (I love Noahs and the biblical themes)

Dan Dan Dan (funny and chaotic, just how I like it most)

Steins;Gate (the original one. Mindblowing)

Fullmetal Alchemist (crazy, I love both adaptations)

Planet Survival (super wholesome, best ending)

Tokyo Ghoul (I know, the manga is better, but whatever)

Madoka Magica (oh the feels)

Cherry Magic (wholesome)

Code Geass (+)

Darker than Black (I loved the season with the sniper girl!!! One of the best characters and openings ever)

Yu-Gi-Oh (the last season is the best)

Psycho-Pass (interesting)

The next animes I want to watch:

Bungo Stray Dogs

Heaven Official's Blessing

Magi

Animes I hated but had amazing osts:

Monochrome Factor

Vampire Knight