'No one gives a fuck about my nightmares, But it's nothing you should worry yourself about.'
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Latest Posts by digital-dissociation-blog - Page 4
Maybe if we went inside
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I somehow managed to i think dislocate my finger joint and I had to fix it myself and it fuckin ghurt. All I did was open a stupi dplasic thing and my finger was like lol fuck you too
The sobs that choke you up and keep you from breathing are the worst. The actual chunk of sadness that wells up into a knot in your throat is agony.
.....I just want him to hug me and hold me and telll me its okay and everything is alright.. Among other things...But instead of actually messaging him back and telling him this I know I'm going to end up laying here crying to myself because I can't bring myself to do it because I'm afraid...Im a pathetic excuse for a person aren’t I..?
FUCK IM A FUCKING IDIOT FUCKING END ME FOR THE LOVE OF GOD UHALSKGJN GODDAMNIT THIS HURTS
FUCK
Crying is actually the fucking worst. Its fucking garbage. I would rather just. Fucking...Not.
Just going to livetumbl my entire episode because I'm alone and might as fucking well.
I actually feel like I am in the worst low mood of my life and I feel utterly terrible and like I want to die. And It makes me so angry that one tiny little thing just fucking smacked me from the purest beautiful holy cloud nine onto the fucking cold heartless concrete without mercy. I literally have not stopped crying for like over an hour. I hate my life and I want to just throw myself off the stupid balcony fuck me.
I lost 6lbs in 3 days!!
💐 weight loss spell like to charge, rb to activate 💐
when you’re dissociating and someone asks if you are okay so you just
Looking in the mirror while dissociated like
Have I already told the person this thing? Have I only thought about telling them? Have I only dreamt about telling them? Or am I going to tell them and find out I already told them 3 times before?
I honestly believe that people who lost their childhood, teenage years to mental illness and/or trauma are so strong for still being here. Especially once you’re about 18-25 and trying to relearn how to be in society and healthy and human.
Especially when you decide to work towards getting better.
Especially when your life isn’t where you wished it would be.
Stay alive okay? If you lost your youth, I’m sorry and I’m so proud of you for still being here. Keep fighting. Your best years are ahead of you.
Gentle reminder that the brain gets used to intense stimuli over time and that it tends to seek out things that make you feel bad again once you’re in a better place
So if you’re suffering from trauma, abuse or depression then don’t beat yourself up about wanting to feel bad again and seeking out triggers or abuse. It’s not because you deserve any of that, it’s because your brain was exposed to bad things for so long that it can’t make sense of how you’re doing now.
We’ve all been there. It’s going to be okay. You can do this.
You’re not reading this by accident.
Everything is going to be okay.
Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before.
You’ve been this uncomfortable, anxious and scared, and you survived.
Close your eyes and feel the universe within you making a way for you right now.
Having some anxiety and a small panic attack related to my fear of heart attacks so I decided to make a funny meme to help cope lol. My brain thought of this immediately so I had to make it.
I got in a bit of work today. But also apparently I am having a sciatica flare up in my left leg. Not fun. Sharp pain from my back going down to my calf/side of my leg. But I have to sit here and get this work done. Bleh.
Update.
Thanks for all the kind words.. I’m alright. Nothing too bad happened and im recovering. Im just.. really tired. Life is.. not so great right now. And it doesn’t look like im going to be getting the help i need anytime soon so.. I just have to try and stay alive until something goes right i guess.